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knowledge, help, hope

2011-12-25T02:23:00.002+08:00

so many things to blog about, so little time! and i have a feeling i'm probably never going to get down to doing the movie reviews, so in short, just watch all three.

plenty of updates: church camp, hongkong, and sunday school camp. but i'll just touch on sunday school camp for this post.

having grown up in sunday school, when i went for this camp, i felt really old. i still remember the past ss camps, when i was a participant, and now im making friends with kids that are 8-12 years of age. this journey that God has walked with me has been nothing short of amazing.

i'm extremely thankful for this particular ss camp, although i was really quite drained and stressed throughout. and thinking about other unimportant things as well. anyhow, i spent most of the first day taking care of judith, and God has truly taught me lessons through her. i learnt to see her through the eyes of God. this time round, God really opened my eyes to see her innocent little heart. it's so easy to just brush her off and think that she doesnt understand anything, but that is not true. she can do the actions to worship songs by heart, and i know that when God sees that, He is pleased, because she is so sincere, and has no other motivation. God has taught me patience in a very interesting way this time.

taking charge of the skit for the joo chiat cc outreach event was also another opportunity that i got to work with people i've never seriously worked with before. kids like keefe and vernnon, and even jay who's not from our church. from the youth, bryan and kvell, and God has blessed me with this platform to get to know each of them so much more. i admit i felt it was a burden at first, because it meant more things to worry about, and less time to self. but God has taught me (once again) that if things are done according to his plan, there really is no burden, because he will make things come to pass, and he works in his time.

i think it was really quite an incredible feat that the whole team managed to pull off the skit within a week, right from the start all the way until the final presentation. sure, there were hiccups here and there, changes and uncertainty and doubt and hopeless and weariness, but the knowledge that you've served God to the best of your abilities, within your capacity, and that your work and service reaches out and touches the lives of others, i think theres nothing greater.

in other news, i've twisted/sprained my ankle, and i still dont know how i will manage baptism tmr, but we will see how things go. and i hope my ankle recovers quickly and happily.

movie reviews

2011-12-04T01:11:00.002+08:00

ok this is insane, i have watched 3 movies in 1 week = too much money gone.

i will do movie reviews in time to come, just not yet. when i finally find the time, just for me to keep memories of them. but, highly recommended, and while it is still showing, go watch 'You're the Apple of my Eye'. fantastic show. pretty crude, but extremely funny.

i will also do a review on Kaiji 2 and Already Famous. Kaiji 2 has stopped showing, but Already Famous is still screening. do catch it if you can, good laugh.

epic journey

2011-07-22T10:16:00.003+08:00

yesterday was such a tiring day.

had the first full run for the musical, and mgs girls really kill my brain. mg has really changed so much over the last 3 years after i left. the girls these days are sooooo spoilt. or maybe it's just the particular girls who are helping out for crew, but oh my seriously. not funny.

anyway, that aside, after rehearsal, as i was walking down to the bus stop with crystal, she discovered this little boy walking behind us, and we were wondering where on earth his parents were, cos he was seriously young and definitely shouldnt be allowed out on his own.

anyway to cut the long story short, we asked him to lead us back to his home. he's such a clever and brave boy, but wayyy too naughty. from the sterling, we walked all the way back to maplewoods and he even knew the way back to his unit! ohh myyy such a clever boy. and along the way we found out he was 4 years old, and from auckland.

then when his mum finally found him, she suddenly starting spouting out a string of japanese. we just died hahahah.

anyway, he was a very very cute boy, but we were very very tired after that. what a story to tell man. machiam like come out from drama. hahah.

junior's lessons

2011-07-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

i was looking for pictures from mrs noah's arc which im so sure i had it somewhere on my blog, but i cannot find it for some reason. what a waste. i'm so sure i posted it, maybe i didnt publish it...

okay found it here so i did publish it, but i think my previous blog posts were all too long, so blogger didnt show the full month's archives.

anyway, looking back at that production, i realised i've met suven and bob before, but of course, never expected that i should work with them again in 4 years. anyhow.

i was just reflecting on working on this production, and although i complain a lot about rehearsal and about the kids and all, i think im still very thankful that i have this opportunity to work with children. somehow, although they are difficult in the sense that it takes really long for them to settle down, and there are loads of other problems to solve, one thing i really appreciate about them is their sincerity and innocence. they don't judge you for who you are, and when you scold them, they don't take it personally and they bear no grudge. of course, maybe half the time, it's because they have no idea what on earth is going on, but i really love their transparency and their genuinity. they really just accept you, and so many of them are jsut yearning and wanting that attention from you.

makes me think about what i am like as a child of God. do i reflect that same kind of transparency and sincerity? am i non-judgmental? do i forgive and not bear grudges?

i think God has really taught me a lot from working the past 7 months on this musical. i love the children, and sometimes, to be very honest, i find it so much better to work with them than the adults.

i know i always say that i don't want kids, but i still hold true to that statement. i wouldn't mind working with kids, but i wouldn't want kids of my own because they will ultimately grow up to become adults.

well, we're 10 days away from production, and things are still moving pretty slowly, but it's all in God's hands.

but the road ahead is dark
the path we seek we cannot see

the homeless and the heartless

2011-07-15T22:13:00.003+08:00

wanted to put this post up two days ago, but got a bit procrastinaty, but here it is.

as i was walking home from the bus stop after surprising salad, as i was nearing my block and heading towards the lift lobby, i saw an aged man folding and laying towels. as i neared him, i realised he was making his bed on one of those ledges. he had a black suitcase near him, and his pillow was made of smaller folded towels bunched together.

i felt like giving him something to eat, but i had no food with me. i felt like giving him some money, but i had no cash with me. so i just walked past him, like every other normal person would.

i guess the reality of the matter is that i was just making excuses for not having the courage to help him, although no one was looking. or was it because no one was looking, so i didn't bother to help him? i could have easily bought something from the coffeeshop for him to eat. i could have just walked a little bit more to withdraw cash from the atm. but i didn't.

it's impractical to want to help every needy person on earth, but isn't it like the story of the boy on the beach who was throwing starfish back into the ocean. the task may be seemingly impossible, but if my reaching out will help that one person, shouldn't i extend it? even if i may face rejection, even if i may face judgment, i shouldn't care about what others think of me right?

but it's so much easier said than done.

boyce avenue

2011-07-14T23:39:00.001+08:00

just started listening to them. i like their music, and i like their covers. looks like they'll be sticking around for some time.

okay, i intended to put up a proper entry, but i am way too tired. have a lot of things on my mind to share, but maybe tomorrow morning.

for now, i shall retire.

jenga

2011-07-13T09:31:00.008+08:00

was aiming to do a post last night, but fell asleep.

anyway. the musical is a little bit retarded. i dont think i will ever come to comprehend how the minds of little 7, 8 year old girls function. i dont understand how there is such a huge discrepancy between the maturity of girls the same age. it is truly a wonder. anyhow, the progress is a little bit slow, and there still many strings to tie up, but hopefully we'll be ready. well, at least now it's one of the things that take my mind off things.

met bev after dinner yesterday, (are you reading this?((:) which made me think what kind of a friend i've been. and to be completely honest with myself, not a very good one. i have a tendency to pile myself under loads of work and work, and i dont have time for friends. but actually, those are all excuses at the end of the day. it really doesnt take much time to drop a friend a text asking how he/she is. given my now-limited messages, but what was i doing in the past? am i a fair weathered friend? am i a monthly affair friend?

gonna meet joan for dinner tonight, and hopefully it'll be a good session of catching up and sharing our deep, deep troubles. but well, jokes aside, pray that ill be a good friend to her!

life is like a game of jenga. your world is perfect and stable at first, but then change happens which makes it unstable, before you finally crash and your world collapses around you. but take some time to let the pieces settle, and rebuild your life again.

edit//

God sure has a sense of humour. just as i finished posting this entry about friends, someone from a raffles prefects convention posted on my wall. to be honest, im never too keen on 'long time ago' friends saying hi, because it always gets awkward because there's nothing to talk about, other than "hi, how've you been?". i suppose that's one of the reasons why i myself dont bother catching up with people and checking in on how they are, because things get really weird after a while.

but i dont want that to keep happening. i want to make things more sincere. more heartfelt. i want each conversation to mean something to me, rather than just being polite and kind, and because it's the right thing to do.

Lord, guide me and teach me.

show me Your heart

2011-07-12T00:36:00.002+08:00

it was a good morning, then a not so good day, then a very good evening.

went back to ac to settle payment for the void deck, and sat in for aa3's gp lesson and met up with sa6 as well. really miss these kids, they (surprisingly) bring so much joy to my life. for the first time in a few days, my mind was taken off other things, and i could really laugh.

then went down to mg for rehearsal. the musical is somewhat coming along, still a bit worried about the standard and quality though and not much time left to rehearse with the kids, but they still aren't taking it seriously. and of course my personal spiritual struggle wrt conflict between the uppers. won't post here, for safety and security reasons, but God, please grant me the wisdom to handle the situation and patience to handle the people. sometimes, it really isn't funny.

then lmg thanksgiving dinner! it was okay, but i think cos there were so many empty spaces of time in between, i got a bit distracted and upset again. idk why this is lasting for so long. idk what the underlying lesson God is trying to teach me. i want to get over it. i want to rest. but im still feeling so burdened - but idk with what. and its a terrible struggle.

but in any case, the sharing and worship sessions were good. just hearing how God talks to each and every one of us so differently really encourages me. and knowing that he remains faithful throughout different circumstances.

You are on Your throne, You are God alone

ok, getting tired and i have other postings to do. but im slowly making up for the omega long hiatus, right!((:

robotz in dizguize.

2011-07-10T00:21:00.006+08:00

okay, as promised, my transformers post! although i think i'll probably do another post on lj, here goes.

first and foremost, disclaimer: this is just my personal review of the movie. im not a hardcore transformers fan, but i do enjoy it very very much on a pretty superficial level, so forgive me if i dont understand the essence and the heart of transformers.

warning: may contain spoilers!

watched it at the new lido imax cinema. estee lauder is wayy too rich, they bought the entire cinema. it was crazy. and every pair of tickets was entitled to a free popcorn and a free nachos and cheese, and 2 drinks. it was pretty luxurious.

the screen in the cinema was (a little too) big, and the 3d glasses were strange after a while. to be completely honest, i think the most 3d thing about the whole 3d movie was the subtitles cos they popped out throughout the movie. the rest were kinda like...allright. i guess.

in terms of plot, there was none. okay, fine, some credit, there WAS a plot, but there wasn't much continuation from the previous two movies. i guess that's good for those watching transformers 3 for the first time, but well. and the storyline was wayyy too predictable. clearly not too much thought put in, i think the focus was on (as always) the cinematographic effects, which i will mention later. but i guess that's kind of trademark of transformers. it's a guy movie.

okay, for special effects, i thought it lost to the 2nd movie honestly. it was much too chaotic, half the time you see rubble and debris, and they didnt actually show that much transformation as compared to the 2nd movie. given that there were a lot more transformers in their robot forms, they were mostly nameless decepticons. too little screentime was given to the important transformers (ie bumblebee, megatron). too much on the humans who really aren't half as interesting as the transformers. not in this movie anyway.

characters were pretty simple and 1-dimensional, not many layers, pretty much the same. the only really interesting character i felt was Seymour Simmons. the rest just kinda fell flat. especially the new girlfriend. i wish they gave her a more important and significant role. her talk with megatron was far too desperate an attempt to make her vital in the movie. a bit sad, but yes. and sam's character in this particular movie is SO whiny. it's not endearing anymore. it's become annoying. and i find it quite strange how bumblebee develops feelings for sam. i mean, sure, its a movie. but still...

and they showed wayy too little of sideswipe here. and i just realised how small he is compared to optimus prime. or maybe optimus prime is big. but optimus prime is so annoying. he speaks in such a strange way and tone and his words are so cheesy. i know its the script, but i wish they added more value to his character. i mean, sentinel prime is so much cooler than optimus prime. optimus is just too...prime-ish.

and the movie was a little bit too long. 2 1/2 hours may be a little too long for some. but the action should keep you awake.

well, having said all that, it was generally a pretty enjoyable movie, im just being a bit bitter because sideswipe barely had any screentime. but well, like any other transformers fan, i did enjoy it for the action and effects and transformation. watch it if you have nothing else to watch.

RBG dinner is also FINALLY over, together with LoveMG, so the only thing that's left is the musical. which i like to believe will be over in no time. more things off my plate now.((: yes i can sincerely smile.

on a more serious note, things are still a little bit unsettled within me, but God has added a few songs to my mental prayer playlist, and this is one of them.

Just love them like Jesus
Carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side

idkwtd

2011-07-08T10:05:00.006+08:00

it's been tough, and it's been a struggle.

i've reflected so much the past few days that i think there's nothing left in me anymore.

but that's where i know Jesus will come in and life my life again.

the past two days of devotional christian have been nothing short of apt.

6 July 2011 - In the midst of wolves, what does it mean to live as Jesus did?

7 July 2011 - I hate goodbyes

and even as i reminisced about the past and visited some of the old blogs (yes i cleaned up quite a bit), i realised that i wasnt the only struggling with my faith. so many of my friends are. and even people who i think are strong in their faith, they struggle too. and ive learnt that in life, you will never, ever stop struggling. you will always struggle with something. because its only through your struggles that you see Jesus. if life were perfect, Jesus would be pointless.

for he did not come to save the healthy but to heal the sick.

ive been crying a bit (too much) over the past few days as well. not being able to sleep, having no appetite, and just no mood to do anything. putting up a front so i dont disrupt the people around me. but i know that all this will be over soon. and everything will be ok in the end.

go ahead, cry. let your tears wash your eyes so you will see Jesus more clearly.

when i saw my classmates yesterday at the wake, i felt really so discouraged. some of them are christians, others not. but i felt so alone. i felt that God wasn't there at all. christians who swear, christians who smoke, christians who dont care about their faith. and i really felt so stumbled, because for someone who i believed was strong about his faith, i felt that he was such a hypocrite. the 1 year doing bible study with him, seems so wasted. i feel so cheated.

but even as i felt all of these negative emotions, i thought, are these a reflection of what i am like to others? do others feel disgusted and turned off by my behaviour and words too? am i a hypocrite to them?

Matthew 7
3 “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4 How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

yesterday also reminded me of something that i've been saying, but never understood the true meaning of.

"but you keep turning to these empty wells whenever you're angry, whenever you're hurting, whenever you're lonely and tired, but they do not work." - God's Chisel

and suddenly the truth pours out to me. how often do we turn to distractions to numb or distract ourselves from the pain and the guilt we feel in our lives? but how much does God want us to turn to him? why do we always have the tendency to choose the harder and more painful route, than the easier and more peaceful way?

we are ultimately all God's creation, and he loves us and wants so much to fellowship with us. when will we stop pushing him away and turn back to him?

"you are my original masterpiece. you are one of my workmanship. in you i find favour." - God's Chisel

remember, kat, that life without Jesus is like a donut (the traditional kind), where there's a hole in the center of your heart.

on a much much lighter note, transformers 3 in 3d with the family tonight! i'm quite excited, and i'll be all ready to make another post on lj after tonight!

It takes faith to understand

2011-07-07T03:27:00.001+08:00

And by faith we understand that we do not need to have all the answers, even though we continually seek answers.

the big day

2011-05-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

watching the opposition party making final remarks against the pap is really off putting. criticising the pap really doesnt say much about the pap, but it says a lot about your party.

what was the difference between the speeches of the opposition parties (or wp and nsp at least) vs that of the pap?

both wp and nsp presented in a way that YOU SHOULD VOTE FOR US COS PAP SUCKS rather than because they want to grow singapore. that really makes me question their purpose for contesting. is their true objective to just make sure pap doesnt become the govt again? then after that? what happens? pap can justify their policy changes by looking at the country objectively. but the opposition? 'we will reduce GST to 5%' and we all understand why - because it makes people happy. but what are the other considerations that they have to take into account when reducing gst?

trying to move people using their emotions really isnt gonna work, cos theres no foundation. even if the opposition does win this round (though i highly doubt it), how long are they gonna be able to last? their speeches are mainly about what they can do for YOU, YOU, YOU. hello, you =/= nation ok. please look at it from a nation perspective. you please all the people but your nation fail then how. nsp stated that the government is focused only on the economic side and they just aim for gdp growth. but cmon look at it pragmatically. without gdp growth, how is your country going to grow in other sectors? if not for the many past policies that the pap made, opposition you wouldnt even be standing here today ok.

mr lee hsien loong on the other hand (yeah cos hes more or less the only name i know ahhah and i have a lot of respect for him) was able to deliver his speech from a really objective perspective, concerned about singapore as a country. he's also used proper and live case studies (ahemexamplesahem) to back up his point (ie the death of osama and hence terrorism) and highlight the importance of 'making the right choice' which of course every party uses. but neither of the two opposition parties i watched did the same, and so the impression they leave is really not grounded and their arguments are simply too airy fairy. unbelievable.

well, i guess for now none of this really matters to me, since i cant even vote. but it just annoys me how far opposition goes to ridicule the pap and what underhand means they use to cheat (not garner, cheat) votes. its ridiculous. i dont want people of no integrity to lead me. if you want to contest, then you do it fair and square. you dont lie to the senior citizens and pretend that you have the support of the people.

c'mon singaporeans. we dont use our brains much these days, but for this one time (in 5 years!) please think bout who reeeeely want to be governed by. to me honestly, opposition just isn't cutting it. if you want to challenge, make sure you're at least of the same or better standard.

the only good thing that the opposition has done is to make pap listen to the people more. thanks for that.

3 months

2011-03-20T20:58:00.002+08:00

wow. a short 3 months and a million things have happened. will this be a long post?

1. i got a job.

yes fantastic. relief teaching at ac, teaching gp. it's okay, kids are quite cute. i think i was quite lucky to get my classes cos they seem mature and from what i hear from joan and hannah and sarah, i am very thankful for my classes. work has been okay, but i just dont like using my brain, so sometimes i get a little bit frustrated when i have to think. and the gp dept makes you do many things other than teach, which is not a good deal. but nevertheless. it has been fun, and i hope it will continue to be fun. another 10 weeks! gogogo!!

2. i got another job.

is this considered moonlighting? i'm helping out, well i wouldn't call it helping out, since i'm being paid, but anyway. i'm involved in mg pri sch musical. the last time i did musical (or something related to drama) was 3 years ago, so i'm hoping i'll be able to cope with the demands of the professional drama people. it's so different when you're involved as a student compared to when you're involved as someone external. politics come in. hmmm. but anyway, the script is out, the songs are being written, everything's flowly smoothly for now. i'm really excited to see the end product.

3. lmg

yes, imma be in the comm! it's going to be so exciting, i just know it. i think God will really move in unexpected ways this year, and i love how he's been speaking to me so indirectly and telling me to depend on his time and trust his timing cos he's timeless. we dont know whats gonna come yet, but we know it's in His hands.

4. results

UGH. ok so i wasnt the most pleased with my results, and i think i could have done better, but God has taught me that results aren't everything and that he has a much greater plan for me in my life than i can ever imagine, so imma take him on faith and see where he leads me. scholarships and everything, yes, but God's plan first.

yeah ok i know it doesnt seem like much, but well, maybe for me, its just been overwhelming and its been a learning journey too. the bad thing is, there's more to come. mmmmmmmmmmmm.

okay, to do list (though i probably wont refer to it anyway):

1. mark essays
2. lesson plan
3. plan meeting with miss k for tuesday
4. reply email
5. uni apps
6. musical rehearsal schedule
7. blahblahblah

okay we'll do it tmr.((:

before i fly off to taiwan,

2010-12-28T18:42:00.001+08:00

i need to:

1. write my personal statement
2. write my 2010 reflections
3. come up with my 2011 resolutions
4. reply emails

allright 1 and a half days left!!

it's been a long time

2010-11-06T22:52:00.003+08:00

what am i doing one day and two nights before my a levels. seriously.

but, its good to destress. not that i'm actually really stressed (which is kind of worrying), but well, i take comfort in knowing that there's a Higher Purpose.

so many things have happened the past few years, and well, now's not really the time to do that, perhaps during Christmas, if there's time, but i know i've grown, mentally, emotionally (or maybe not) and definitely spiritually. i've been so blessed the past two years, it's been an incredible journey watching God's hand work in my life and even as i reflect, knowing and realising and learning how God's plan is so amazing.

and now, it's finally going to come to an end. i've had so many different phases in my life, and this blog has seen me through so much (90% cept for the past two years hahah) of it. i wonder if i'm ever going to delete this baby. maybe i'll keep it forever and publish it as a book for myself as a birthday present hahah. but let's see what happens to this blog over the next few years. what with fb and twitter and skype etc. but i'm traditional; i'll stick to blogging and emailing. how cost effective. well, not like the other sites actually cost money, but they are so time consuming. FB ESPECIALLY. it's awful, i could like play games on it all day long.

anyway, it was just supposed to be an update in case they suspend my account, which i highly doubt so. lj might though; oh dear.

2010-03-12T23:13:00.001+08:00

youre not there when i need you

of Him to be my saviour

2010-02-15T22:46:00.001+08:00

I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands one who is my Savior

I take Him at His word and deed
Christ died to save me; this I read
And in my heart I find a need
Of Him to be my savior

That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior

My Savior loves, My Savior lives
My Savior’s always there for me
My God: He was, my God; He is
My God is always gonna be

Yes, living, dying, let me bring
My strength, my solace from this spring;
That He who lives to be my King
Once died to be my Savior

That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior

i hope you know who you are

2010-02-08T00:22:00.002+08:00

i thought of you today. and how you were always there for me. how you always listened to me and encouraged me. and the pain and the joy that we shared. and i miss having you around. i wish i didnt take you for granted. all the late night talks and time in school. i miss every single bit of it.

remember the two songs that we shared? they suddenly mean so much more to me now. i hope your life is good now. come back soon, all right?

<3!

summer snow

2009-10-28T22:47:00.001+08:00

people need to know what they can and cannot do.

MIA!

2009-08-30T22:31:00.001+08:00

get out of my head.)):

i have purple all over me

2009-07-28T21:47:00.001+08:00

check THIS out.

some awesome shiz aye.

2009-07-16T21:22:00.001+08:00

kill me now.

food safety; park restrictions

2009-07-03T01:12:00.005+08:00

this guy reminds me of abby

hes called takagi, from the comedy duo ジョイマン (joyman)

watch him dance. can imagine abby doing it aye. abby is totally his descendant.
they even have the same hair! hahah.

I MISS YOU ABBY.)):

for 2 weeks

2009-06-25T23:04:00.004+08:00

well.

the past two weeks have been really tiring. making decisions, talking to many people, getting opinions, hearing from God, etc etc etc. and right until the final moment, there was so much relief.

if you dont already know, im referring to running for council exco. they opened up the application right after june camp, which was a thursday, and we had to submit it in a week's time. so i prayed lots bout it, spoke to various people bout it, and yeah, basically i had already made up my mind on tuesday. i decided that i was gonna run, and i was gonna go for president as well.

BUT! char, the brilliant soul, (whom i love very much), asked me to really think bout it and make sure i knew what i was getting myself into. and that, for some reason, made me lose faith, and i wavered like crazy. i started to doubt, i started to think if it was really what God had wanted for me, whether it was a right decision or not. and it took sooooo long for me to decide again. and right until like 8pm on the submission day, my form was still empty. and it was getting scary.

i had a lot of concerns, a lot of fears, a lot of worries. and even right now, i cant even say what they were about. because i dont know. there was just this bugging uncertainty and unpeace within me, about whether to go for it or not. but He spoke to me, and He showed me part of His will for me at that point in time. and i am really thankful. God told me that everything was in His hands, and to give Him a chance to show me what He could do in my life if i just let Him. and of course, He also revealed many other things, but they're a bit more personal, so yes. hahah i will stop here.

so i filled in my application form, submitted it, and really just felt so relieved. and imma post my feelings bout the elections today on my lj so my flist will feel a bit more included ahah. imma leave it open for a week, then its gonna be f-locked. well, if i remember it, that is.

anyway, very very thankful that andrew is pres, and very thankful for my position as vice pres. also very thankful for the rest of the exco, and i believe that God will move all of us to do things for Him.((:

love you allllllls.

not excited for tmr

2009-06-24T00:25:00.002+08:00

nope, not at all.

i know you're reading this, grace. ((:

overload

2009-06-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

hahaha amusing.

i think 30% of the people i know are now attached. hahah. and i never knew bout it! ahahha.

the best was during ongko's party. found out that like. 40-50% of the people present are attached. hahaha and slowly, i keep getting more news and finding out more secrets from various people HAHHA DAMN EXCITING.

i bet pris is all like "whens it my turn" ahhahah.

i love yall. so sweet.((:

brings back memories

2009-06-20T13:56:00.003+08:00

for the last 6 months, ive lost my way countless times.

everything ive worked for, everything ive built up for the last two years in mg, i lost it all in ac within half a year.

its time to build everything up again. right from scratch. but at least i know im not alone. at least now, i have other people to build it up with.

thank you char phang! youve been an awesome source of support for me for the past week. im sorry i always irritate you and make you very impatient. but thank you very very much. i think ive said all i had to say in the email.((: love you charxxx.

please

2009-06-18T21:48:00.002+08:00

i dont know if ive taken the right action or not.

i dont know if this is what You want for me or not.

i dont know what to expect.

i dont know if i can.

all i know is that this is in Your perfect plan.

every step i take, i take in You.

show me Your face, O Lord
i want to know You more
i want to stay
right here with You
all of my days

i suppose i should do some reflections.

2009-06-15T20:47:00.003+08:00

so first up, cf camp! all i know just before the camp was that i needed to go back to God. that i needed a fresh touch from him. and i got it. and i thank God for once again calling me back into his kingdom. and really, God has spoken to me during camp in a way like no other. he has put songs into my head, he has given me visions, he has taught me through his word, he has spoken to me in the prayer room, he has touched me through worship, he has encouraged me through fellowship. and camp was really something i believe changed many peoples' lives. whether or not it ran as planned, whether or not the schedule was followed to the minute, it doesnt matter. cos God worked in the camp, he walked with each and everyone of us during the camp. i believe all the campers met him face to face. and his perfect plan has come through.

on the first night, when we had pt, i was really challenged. cos i expected camp to be really really God focused and suddenly, the camp comm started to be all strict and imposing all these physical challenges on us, and i was kinda like, this is crazy. cos i knew i was gonna get this crap during council camp already. but now that i think bout it, i really pushed myself and i was prepared for council camp. and God also spoke to me when i spent time reflecting. and even until now, there are still things i dont understand, there are still messages hidden and that i cannot fully comprehend, but i know God will reveal them to me when i'm ready.

cf camp was just awesome. really appreciate the camp comm for all their efforts, and their hearts were really God centred, and he really blessed the camp and lifted their efforts.

next, famine camp. it was just dumb. honestly. i mean, i could probably say my heart wasnt right, but i honestly honestly feel that it had very bad organisation. and overall, i was just unhappy. i left early cos my arms started to ache really badly at night so in the end i dont get my 30 hours. ugh sickening. UNHAPPY.

Anyway. On to council camp. It sucked really bad at the start of camp. i really couldnt wait for it to be over. im not gonna go into detail, cos i took like an hour to verbally say it to jiap, so you can imagine the time i will take to type and the time you will take to read the post. so yes. but in short, im sure all the elects have had some sort of takeaway, whether individually or as a body of elects. but i know that we're capable of so much more. and honestly, i think the 33rds are a bit disappointed as well, cos there are so many things they wanted us to learn, but that we havent grasped yet. but its okay! i think with more time, and with a good exco, we will go somewhere farrrrrrrrrr.

now the next question is. exco or not, and if yes, president or not. this question has really been bugging me quite a bit. and ive heard from various various people their opinions and stuff. and well, i have yet to come to a decision. but well, eventually, we'll know what happens.

overall, the past 6 1/2 months since dec08 has been very challenging. for the me who doesnt really like to meet new people, i have been with 6 different groups of new people. thats an average of one new group of people per month. and it's really really tiring for me. i mean, can you imagine meeting some completely new people every month and you're expected to get along with them almost immediately? its crazy. but somehow, ive gotten through it. hopefully, this will help in my future meetings with new people. hm.

okay. im tired. i'll see yallllls.

reach out and touch somebody's hand
make this world a better place if you can

adieu, adieu, to you and you and you~

2009-06-02T23:15:00.003+08:00

ugh i waste so much time its disgusting.

bye yalls. i'll see you when i get back.

love you just the way you are

2009-05-28T22:46:00.004+08:00

tmr's the last day of school, so i thought id just take some time to type down my thoughts despite the 1000+ assignments due tmr.

orientation started off quite badly for me, and i sincerely (i am so sorry) thought my og sucked the most of all time. but, things got better, and i am getting along so well now with the person that i got really irritated with in the og. and im thankful for that.

then the class came along. and man was it bad, again. i tried really hard to be optimistic, to learn something from my experience with my og, but no, it proved to be an even harder challenge. now, on the whole, i guess it's pretty okay, but there are definitely more battles to be fought and won.

then council came along, and came with it even more trouble. the interview, the campaigning, the results, the expectations, everything. it was all pretty draining, and im pretty sure that things arent gonna get any easier. its gonna be mental torture, and if i can survive it, WOW.

i've had my ups and downs throughout the three months/two terms in ac. and there are gonna be more ups and downs. but i appreciate everyone who has been there for me. to listen to me, to comfort me, to pray for me, to talk to me, to support me, to make me laugh, to make me cry, everything. jc life is just gonna get more and more intense, but i hope ill be able to come through as a stronger person at the end.

失礼だな！

2009-05-26T23:12:00.001+08:00

cut!

cut!

CUT!

ahhh i shouldve joined dep.

raef

2009-05-13T21:37:00.004+08:00

it just occured to me today how fragile life really is.

and how much courage it takes to leave everything behind.

This is my Father's world.
O let me ne'er forget
that though the wrong seems oft so strong,
God is the ruler yet.
This is my Father's world:
why should my heart be sad?
The Lord is King; let the heavens ring!
God reigns; let the earth be glad!

2009-05-11T19:16:00.001+08:00

the importance

of having somebody believe in you

when you need it the most

is unbelievable.

precipitation x1000

2009-05-09T00:01:00.002+08:00

impact after impact today.

i wont talk too much cos im really tired.

but i thank God for his love, mercy and grace.

i thought of you today.

limitations

2009-05-03T20:22:00.002+08:00

ugh i am so unhealthy. i slept like 12+++++ hours. like i wanted to go for second service today, cos when i woke up at 7 i was so tired, but i overslept. ugh sickening lah.

ive got my gp essay left for the rest of the night. its not too much, i guess. maybe 2 to 3 hours? hopefully less. i dunno how im gonna write the actual paper during exams lah. die man.

ive been feeling so purposeless. like every time i think of school, i get so depressed. i think i just really want to get the next 1 1/2 years over and done with.

anyway. when i was walking down for combined cell yesterday, suddenly i remembered so many things. so many many many things. that are gone, like, forever. but well, i guess there are other things to take its place.

i should learn to be thankful.

smells like school spirit!

2009-04-25T21:30:00.003+08:00

[rant]

went for cheering for debate team against vjc at vjc. honestly, at first when the councillors told us all nominees had to go, i felt it was kinda unfair cos, well, yeah. i am, we're not in council yet, and they're not giving us a choice. i was kinda. upset over it.

but i was glad i went. really glad.

just that the organisers of the debate were kinda stupid. i mean, you hold it at vj, your judges are vjc alumni, obviously vj will win right! i swear everything was totally against acj. and vj was so loser cos the number of ac supporters totally thrashed vj supporters can. they had more people on duty than they had for supporters. how lousy is that! i mean, aside from the fact that the nominees were in a sense, made to go, but i cheered with all my heart!

ugh. the best speaker went to the person whom i felt was the worst speaker of the debate. i mean seriously, wth. ann speaks SO much better than her. she is undeserving of the award. just because she's from vj? wheres the fairness man.

and overall, ac was so much stronger be it in their delivery, their rebuttals or their points. just because you have vj alumni, obviously they would want their alma mater to win right. do the organisers not have BRAINS to get a NEUTRAL PARTY to be the judges. i mean, seriously. think about it!

ugh. anyway, ac beat them hands down, no matter what. cos we know who the truly strong ones are. who cares bout vj. so bloody far, and the whole event wasnt even organised properly. and their "student leaders" dont know how to serve.

yes, i know, im being cynical. but well, if you were there, you would understand.

all right, so not every student in vj is like that, but the people at the debate were definitely not pleasant. honestly, the good things bout the whole wasted day in that building was listening to acdebate team slam the opponents, and the free food. i should have eaten more of that samosa.

[/rant]

well, at least i managed to finish most of my work throughout the day. and im really excited! cos the gp/ki dept is planning a trip to kyushu and i really really wanted to go. but i was damn scared my mum wouldnt allow, but i decided to take the form anyway. and when i showed it to her, she miraculously agreed! :D! so i did my personal statement today. ohh man i really really want to go on this trip! it would make me such a happier person, really. and salad says it's the week of the release of arashi's 10th anniversary album, so maybe ill get to see something big somewhere! im hoping!

other than it, its really been about council. i wont say too much, but one-liners are on monday. i cannot wait for monday to be over and results to be out. i still dont know if i want to get in or not, but we shall see what happens. i just want to get over the one-liners first.

recently, nothing much. school has been pretty okay. got class debate on monday (oh crap) and geog test on thursday (ugh) but ive been trying to keep up with my work, so shouldnt be too bad.

i was very encouraged by door to door! i really really was. i love watching nino's drama sps. they never fail to lift my spirits. cept maybe sukoshi.... cos i havent watched it yet, but it looks pretty boring.

ive watched the quiz show season 1 until ep 11 and golden ep1. mm well, sho's uhm. got pretty eyes. hahaha really really pretty eyes. the show is okay overall, just that i get really annoyed at the producer cos shes damn useless and her nose looks fixed. but maybe she will come in handy in the later parts of the show.

my cat is sick! his fur is having some problem and its really gross. and he's bleeding and itching and ugh. but lets hope he gets well soon.

ive been missing too much cell, both fridays and saturdays. well, sundays for now. im really sorry! i got loads of catching up to do with my homework and with cellies, and i will soon! hopefully. dont forget me!

ugh the weekend is over wayyy too fast. tuition on monday, cheering again on tuesday, MUGGGG on wednesday, test on thursday (plus 2.4km!), cc dinner on thursday, holiday on friday. yaye.

hmm. all rights. this post is actually pretty proper.

take that, madam!

zzzzzzzzz

2009-04-23T22:10:00.002+08:00

if i dont get into council

i probably wouldnt cry that much.

Amen!

2009-04-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

A Muslim man in Egypt killed his wife because she was reading the Bible and then buried her with their infant baby and an 8-year old daughter.

The girls were buried alive! He then reported to the police that an uncle killed the kids. 15 days later, another family member died. When they went to bury him, they found the 2 little girls under the sand - ALIVE!

The country is outraged over the incident, and the man will be executed at the end of July.

The older girl was asked how she had survived and she says:- 'A man wearing shiny white clothes, with bleeding wounds in his hands, came every day to feed us. He woke up my mom so she could nurse my sister,' she said. She was interviewed on Egyptian national TV, by a veiled Muslim woman news anchor. She said on public TV, 'This was none other than Jesus, because nobody else does things like this!'

Muslims believe Isa (Jesus) would do this, but the wounds m ean He really was crucified, and it's clear also that He is alive! But, it's also clear that the child could not make up a story like this, and there is no way these children could have survived without a true miracle.

Muslim leaders are going to have a hard time to figure out what to do with this, and the popularity of the Passion movie doesn't help! With Egypt at the centre of the media and education in the Middle East , you can be sure this story will spread. Christ is still controlling and turning the world. Please let this story be shared.

well, i dont know how credible and reliable this is, but God will work in his ways.

emptilysm

2009-04-15T20:02:00.001+08:00

if i dont get into council

i. will. CRY.

oxymoronic mine

2009-04-14T20:36:00.001+08:00

my friends never change.<3

oxymoron - oxy = you
inspired by joanna

definitely

2009-04-11T21:25:00.001+08:00

Smile
Though your heart is aching
Smile
Even though it's breaking
When there are clouds
In the sky,
You'll get by
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile
And maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun
Come shining through
For you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear
May be ever so near
That's the time
You must keep on trying
Smile
What's the use of crying?
You'll find that life
Is still worth-while
If you just smile
Smile

pay money to my pain

2009-04-08T20:22:00.001+08:00

i hate STOMP.

thanks, gratitude, rain and storm

2009-04-05T12:11:00.002+08:00

i suppose i should post about my council interview, although its a bit late. just to remind me of what it was like.

so, yes i am running for council. and the interview was well, not very interesting. i was suuuuuper nervous when i was waiting for my turn. i dont know why though. and my answers werent all that great lah. i kept stammering and stuttering and most of the time i didnt really understand what i was talking about. i know people are not gonna believe me when i tell them, but i think based on my interview alone, i probably wouldn't get in. but oh well. whatever it is, dont say i didnt try. if in the end i dont get it, its not my choice.

i dont have much of a memory of it happening, honestly. kinda just. happened. same with all my other interviews actually. the prefect interview, head prefect interview. everything feels the same. so ohh well.

whatever that will happen will happen. and its not in my control anymore. there's gonna be a briefing tmr for all those running. mmmmmmm.

i dont want monday to come. i still have lots of unfinished homework. and i dont know if i can finish it.)))))))))))))):

pay by cash only; fish dont like NETS (ohh i get it!)

2009-04-05T03:16:00.002+08:00

peoples need to stop bullying me. its hurting my self esteem.

food for thought

2009-03-25T18:42:00.002+08:00

WAH. damn full. ((: and satisfied.

had high tea with jie and mum at raffles hotel, tiffin room. the food there.. well selection is limited, but its good. its filling, and fulfilling. i didnt eat the whole day cept for one waffle and a bottle of milo just so i could eat more at the buffet. and it was damn good.((:

well, school sucks. i hate (half) my class. like with a burning passion. i dont think ive ever hated anyone as much before. not even **********. hahah no just kidding. the ******* doesnt mean anything.

I REALLY WANT MG LIFE BACK. ac life sucks. for now it does. im still trying to find my place and purpose in ac. like, is it really where i'm supposed to be? and i was just thinking today, maybe im actually really made for poly. but at least im talking to tim and daniel more. and i hate guys who think they're so cool. and swearing is cool. cos its not and plain rude and you act like you have no parents and no childhood and i pity you cos you have limited vocabulary. and i have a useless chairperson, and nobody in my class seem to be competent enough to plan any event. SAD. there is like absolutely zero potential in the (half of the) class. ch.

the dsa and appeal students seem to be fitting in more than the posted students. wonder why?

hm.........

this is the movement

2009-03-16T02:50:00.005+08:00

many things have been going on. first term of school has been pretty crazy. i need to sit down and think my life through. i need to use this march holidays to piece my life back together. find time to spend with God, family, friends and homework.

i've been feeling so purposeless lately. and it doesnt really help that a lot of times i dont feel like talking. im really okay. i mean, if i was going to die tmr, i'll definitely let you know. i promise.

i hope i recover from this awful flu soon! i dont want to miss jakk dinner, and i really dont want to be sick the rest of the holidays. why couldnt my flu come either earlier or later. just has to be at the start of the holidays.

i guess starting from term 2 onwards i'll have a lot less time. many things to look forward to, but probably less social time. well, give and take i guess. but one thing that i really wanna improve would be my class. cos now, it's just awful. but, let's start afresh. let's give everyone a chance. afterall, i dont wanna complain for two years and feel all gross while everyone else has fun. tch.

God has taught me 3 lessons over the past week or so:
1) He ALWAYS answers prayers
2) He works in His own timing
3) whatever i try to do will be futile in the end, because He plans my way

i hope this can be an encouragement to someone who might need it at any point in time.

many things to take care of, but things will work out fine. somehow.

earthwired on saturday! PATIENCE! i really kinda like my group. although we're not superbly close or anything, but everyone really gave their best during the games and no one withheld or anything. and i made quite a few new friends, who are really really nice. the whole event was a blessing. i dont know how long we will be able to stay in touch, but we'll see what happens.((:

i'll plan out my week here so i dont forget:
monday: SEE DOCTOR. post letter. meet hinann for lunch. hand in econs tutorial. do homework. meet kim at 5pm at 6th ave. jakk dinner.
tuesday: vanesa's house at 10am. math tuition with tian at 3pm. run at night.
wednesday: class party(?). mgs at 6.30 pm.
thursday: bubble tea date with peanut! homework day. run at night.
friday: go out with lesley
saturday: cosunday meeting. cell (or maybe not). run at night if no cell.
sunday: church. no plans yet.

ughhh then school. it seems like im going to be eating quite a lot during the holidays ohh dear. i need to continue running. 2.4km trial for mass pe. crap.

on a happier (or not) note, utaoni has ended! i really really enjoyed the show. it brought me lots of joy. and well, i dont think ohno needed to act much as kenta, but the parts which he did, i felt he did very well. or maybe im just ohno inclined.

yatterman! come to singapore pleeeease! ahh crap. i'd really really like to watch on the big screen. siiiiiiiiiiigh.

that reminds me, i havent done my drama post ohh dear. i keep procrastinating. but soon! i hope.

believe on yes933 just now. it felt nice, being able to hear arashi on a singaporean radio channel. i was hoping they would play kn,k but nope, they didnt. maybe next week, hopefully?

SUJU NEW ALBUM IS OUT AFTER ETERNITY! i need to get back into them man. and haha, arashi and dbsk appeared together on music station! :D the japanese are SO small. poor nino. 17yearold.

edit/I AM HAPPY!

hahaha ohh man they all look so different! i found it quite hard to recognise some of them, namely hankyung cos he had those stupid sunglasses on so i kept wondering who it was.

kangin doesnt get a close up until like 1:58. pfft. and oh gosh, he needs a haircut. kibum too.

donghae! hahah he looks the same!

everyone looks quite good (even kyuhyun whom i still think looks a bit weird) except for ryeowook and sungmin. hahaha sorry sien! but they really look quite bad.

im really really glad for them cos they've improved so much! like their dance steps and timing and its not easy with 13 people okay! ~~i mean, NEWS can't even do it properly with 6~~

mmmmm MAYBE this will get me back on the korean track. i'm really really happy for em though!:D

sorry, sorry!

to all the people who've made me who i am

2009-03-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

Found a reason to be strong
You are the one
Always in my heart, my friend
Every time you call my name
I will be there
No matter how far, we are friends

<33

beware: pooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooost.

2009-01-29T21:55:00.005+08:00

okayyyy yes i have no life. but im BACK! and better than ever (seriously).

so! because i recently cannot remember things that happen in my life, i shall tell you my new and improved way of helping me remember! haha okay no lah. its just that i got my arashi calendar from saltypeanuts@lj. but im a bit upset cos it was really quite crumpled and creased. so i complained. and i got a 40% off the calendar ahhaha. so when i order something that's $4 next time, i get it free. :D complaining is champion. hahahha. but yes. i guess im okay with the calendar save for the creases. but it's quite thin. and quite small. and quite hard to write in cos there's so little space, so im using it for appointments and birthdays mainly. i should stick stickynotes on it so i wont ruin it. but then it becomes useless. haiyar.

oh yeah in my previous previous entry i complained so much bout the bus that i didnt bother to blog. last wednesday went cycling with grace, lianne, yanka and joan. and i got a foot tan. which sucked. but it's pretty much faded now; still embarrassing though. i realised that i really really like cycling. i can cycle like forever and ever lah. i dont think ill ever get sick of it. but nooooo my parents dont want to buy me a bicycle. and even kelly advises me against it. whyyyyy. isnt it good to invest in a bike? ._.

thursday lipin and i went to vanesa's house for lunch. FREE FOOD hahhaa. thats like one of my motivations to get me out of the house. and vanesa's life is really too good already. hahaha. got too many things at home. and ive decided to watch bleach alll over again. ahhhh 200 over episodes to reach the latest ep. :3 die lah. confirm fail j1. got so many distractions! haiyoh.

friday and saturday had family dinners. friday's one was dad's side. at brookvale. i played with rachael's wii. I WANT A WII. like it never occured to me how much im missing out. hahha until the family dinners. then on saturday it was barbecue. and i was playing with ben's psp. I WANT A PSP. seriously! these things are damn fun lah. but soooo expensive that i know its not worth it. but i still want one. ahhh my wish list is longer than me.)): NO KAT. BE CONTENT.

sunday! sunday was quite fun i suppose? had church. did skit for the kids. ahhaha i realised how truly auntie i can speak. hahha quite scary lah. then ahhh the p3s in church are sooooo cute. abraham (who looks like a monkey) is damn cute! and he wears retainers! at p3! so poor thing. hahaha.

then cny! hello sien! this cny part is for you! since you were the only one who bothered to ask hahah. it was okay lah. i got 40ish angpaos and $300ish! :D okay lah, quite happy. i mean, last year was also $300ish so not too much of a drop. and it feels good having cash at hand now. the next thing to learn is to control spending. and an excellent way to do that is to not bring any money out at all. which im starting to do.

somehow this year's cny wasnt as bad as i expected. and i realised something bout my family. when you prove yourself capable of doing something, only then will you be accepted. it's very strange. this year they were all pretty friendly towards me. which kinda scared me. it was unusual lah. but OH WELL. as terrible as it sounds, im only interested in cny for the money hahaha. and 40ish angpaos not bad considering how many less places we visited this year. maybe that's another reason why this year's cny not so bad.

OHH! but something really bad happened on the third day (yesterday)! cos i spent the whole day at grandy's place, then i was in one of the rooms. and the door to that room was spoilt. as in the handle-lock part. then i was the only one in the room and then the room door closed. so i was stuck inside alone. like seriously. totally no way out unless i climbed out the window. but even so, the window had grills that were locked. i really thought i was gonna die inside okay! like starve to death or something. damn scared lah! somemore all alone, helpless, fearful. okay not that bad, but it wasnt a pleasant experience lah. then jiujiu got me out. hahaha lucky siiiiahhh.

today had lunch with plees, jiap, den, yanka, lianne. at soup spoon. my first time eating there! pumpkin soup! quite nice. it was like a sweet soup. but not very soupy. more pasty-pureey. but it was nice. although i think i like the mushroom one better. and ive decided! next time i go to soup spoon, ill order the mushroom one but no more bread bowl. way too filling. maybe the crusted top dunno what thing. that's nicer. ((: then we went to starbucks. and sat around and talked. and then they went shopping. piang. hahah. i realised i only shop for bags and shoes. im very practical eh. hahaha yes and denise and i had a loooooong dispute because she wanted to give me a present but i didnt want it. and im so sorry bout your phone den! everytime she's with me, something bad happens. maybe you should stop hanging out with me. ahhaha.

then i went over to teach auntie vicky how to use the computer. hahaha i realised ms excel is very very useful. very. hahaha yes more computer knowledge :D and ryan is suuuuuper cute now! i was looking at some old photos of his (where he looked like an alien) but he's super cute now. but very very naughty. im quite worried he'll grow up to be like some brat.

posting results out tomorrow! i wonder what time they're gonna inform us. i dont really wanna wake up to the sms, but ahhhh. i dont really feel like telling anyone either. hahah. see my mood lah.

HI COCONUT!((: please dont die in army i want my very belated christmas card! and thank you for calling!:D

for the following part: im lazy to copy and paste so go to the webpage if you wanna read the article.

OH WONBIN LEFT FTISLAND. ahhh joan how! should i still support them? i know it was his own decision to leave but! make me so upset! haiyah but the new member isnt even cute can! and his name is so hard to pronounce. )): song seung hyun. i guess if he's funny and entertaining then okay but he looks damn serious. come to think of it, wonbin was pretty useless. hahaha cos hongki was vocals already, and jonghoon usually played the guitar. and although seung hyun wants to add in rap, wonbin rapped too! AIYAH. this is internal conflict siah. ahh well lets hope for the best for oh wonbin! I HOPE YOU DO WELL.

and it was the time i was getting back into ft lah. like i just put their songs into ikaladrasie the day before joan msged me and told me wonbin left. AIYAH. stupid.

okay i need to get back to korean soon. jpop wave is totally drowning me. hahaha. but suju has nothing going on now (not that i know about anyway), im not keen on big bang's new style, i've never really been into dbsk, i just got upset with ft, and the latest new korean song i heard was gee by snsd which im also not very into. DIE LAH! the koreans used to be so much more interesting. i need to find something to revive that spark in me again.

but for now! hahah. arashi is the new katkraze. ee. haha but seriously they are damn funny. like once you get into them, you cant get out of it. well for now that is. and i realised that jdramas are really good. and im not being biased. okay maybe a bit. but. i will prove my point. next post: drama post. all my recommended dramas and my currently watching dramas. i have good taste! hahaha. aiyah this is getting nowhere. je fandom another day i suppose.

i need to pangsai quite badly so i think i shall stop here for today. i think i've blogged about everything i was planning to blog about. if not, next post. ohh yes, i dunno if i should start blogging regularly on lj or not. cos that's more like a passageway to get to people's locked journals hahaha. but since i made new friends there, i dunno if i should start posting. not regularly, cos i dont even blog here regularly, but more like... frequently? cos now i only have 2 posts there. and i said i'll blog when big things happen, but big things dont really happen in my life. thoughts, anyone?

someday i'll know

2009-01-22T12:43:00.003+08:00

maybe one day, i'll be able to accept people as they are.

maybe one day, i'll learn to love everybody equally, and not rank them.

maybe one day, i'll be able to solve everyone's problems, without hurting anybody else, including me.

maybe one day, i can listen to other people and their full stories before i make any of my own judgements.

maybe one day, i'll be able to look at others in one glance and not have any first impression of them.

maybe one day, i'll be able to feel at peace with all my friends, not being torn between them.

maybe one day, i'll be able to express my inner thoughts without fear of being discriminated.

maybe one day, i can be proud of the work that i do, and not try to hide.

maybe one day, i'll be able to do the work i'm supposed to do, and not worry about breaking my friendships.

maybe one day, i'll be able to show the same me to everyone, and not different sides to different people.

maybe one day, i'll be able to touch somebody deeply, and be remembered.

but for today, i'll leave it to You.

STUPID BUS.

2009-01-21T18:44:00.003+08:00

bus 14 has to be the stupidest bus on earth

bloody bus wasted me an hour getting home from park mall. how friggin long does it bloody take to get from town to clementi?! but noooooo. bloody 14 has to travel all AROUND friggin singapore and the time taken is even longer than me getting to church. bloody bus! stupid. nobody should ever EVER take stupid 14 and let the stupid service shut down. stupidstupidstupidstupid. it's even worse than like 154 and 173(which i think is highly rididculous already). I COULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING USEFUL WITH MY LIFE BLOODY SBS. YOU STUPID PEOPLE WHO DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PLAN BUS ROUTES AND BUS TIMINGS. YOU ALL SHOULD JUST DIE.

singaporeans have to be the laziest people on earth

why do two bus stops have to be so near one another. do you know how much bloody time is wasted to stop the bus and wait for it to start moving again?! have you lazy people ever heard of the term INERTIA?! CANT YOU ALL JUST WALK A FEW MORE STEPS TO THE PREVIOUS OR NEXT BUS STOP?! AND MAKE ONE LESS STOP FOR THE BUS TO STOP AT?! WILL IT KILL YOU!? and why must everyone drive. everyone should just take bus, which is 1) clean up the air 2) reduce bloody congestion on roads and 3) make buses come more regularly. but NOOOOOOO. even to a friggin nearby hawker centre, everyone must DRIVE. CAN YOU NOT FRIGGIN BLOODY WALK? WHAT DYOU HAVE LEGS FOR THEN? USE THEM! and! CANT YOU LAZY PEOPLE WALK UP THE BLOODY BUS FASTER! WHY DO YOU HAVE THE MAKE THE PASSENGERS ON THE BUS WAIT LIKE 3 BLOODY FRICKING MINUTES FOR YOU?! CANT YOU JUST MOVE FASTER?! STUPID DUMB INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO BRAINS.

ALSO! YOU STUPID PEOPLE HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CONSIDERATION AT ALL. cant you bloody sense that someone walking behind you is bloody rushing. cant you FRICKING move out of the way?! stupid or what! ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGH. BLOODY SINGAPOREANS.

sbs is the dumbest bus service ever

i dont even wanna talk about this. joan, you would know. stupid. transit link should just take over EVERYTHING. at least all transit link buses are airconditioned and pleasant to ride on. UGH. STUPID DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEIDIEDIEDIEDIE.

im so tired i dont even feel like blogging bout today. who the hell takes 2 bloody hours to get home from ecp?! STUPID BLOODY BUS THAT WASTED MY ONE HOUR OF TODAY NOW I ONLY HAD 23 MEANINGFUL HOURS YOU BLOODY BUS GIVE ME BACK MY TIME. it was a whole bloody day of waiting and i was not happy. i swear, if anyone EVER makes me wait for them again, i am never speaking to them. i bloody hate waiting.

hi thiam!

2009-01-17T17:06:00.001+08:00

Hi kat(:
this is so weird. Idk why blogger is signed in to your account o.O
guess whooooooooo!
saranghaeyo(:

never work for money

2009-01-16T17:12:00.000+08:00

seriously. NEVER. it's pain, tiring and not worth it at all. even if it's just to waste time, dont ever ever work for money.

because i am in no mood to blog, i will stop here.

HI NICOLE:D

because of you

2009-01-12T22:07:00.011+08:00

first, to my dearest Father in heaven, thank you for always being with me and just as you've promised, never leaving nor forsaking me. thank you for being my strength when i was tired, my support when i was discouraged, my comfortor when i was upset, my joy when i was happy and my confidant when i was irritated. thank you for being my everything everything everything. and even for today, thank you for being my pillar and for revealing your plan to me. thank you for my results, and thank you that i can rejoice in your name.

second, to my favourite favourite favourite, you know who you are.((: thank you for always being there for me and for taking such great great care of me from prelims all the way through till end of O's. i really really appreciated your presence, love and everything you did for me. thank you for letting me be spoilt, taking food for me, cleaning my table for me, letting me irritate you with my singing etc. without you, studying for O's would have been ultra extra boring. so thank you thank you thank you.

third, to bevvv who never never fails to make me laugh. thank you lots for studying with me as well and for being there whenever i feel like giving up. and also for the awesome chrysanthemum tea your mum makes. and for always feeding me good food and making sure im in the best state to study. our efforts have paid off and im happy for both of us!:D

next, my all important, very lovely, amath tutor, tian!((: thank you for your immense, incredible, never ending patience towards me. and everytime i say imma fail you always scold me so thank you for that! and everytime i say i dont want tuition you let me skip :D and somehow ive gotten through everything and IT WASNT POSSIBLE WITHOUT YOOOOOO. so thank you very much. and you always try to entertain me with shinhwa and stuff like that (but they dont really work cos im only interested in dongwan hahaha) but it's super easy to talk to you and i dont know where this thank-note is going, but yes thank you! t-prime is the best.((: seriously. you made my grade jump like from a c6 to an a2 lahhhhh thank you so much. i really cannot cannot tell you how much it means to me okayyyy. and you spent so much time on me somemore. even with my bad attitude and stuff. so i cannot let you treat me cos i owe you this.((: i will specially write you snail mail to thank you even more and to give you something else too. but i need to find your address haha. thank you tian!<3

to yanka, although our little secret didnt really come true, thank you for always being around to make me laugh and feel better. even if it's just a bit, thank you for the many many distractions cos they're actually really good breaks for me. i know that one day, both of us will do very very well and we will become big and famous! promise friend!((:

to jo, for being my seating partner (got no choice i know) and for making me pay attention (except during chem when we both laugh at ms yang) in class and i dunno, for everything everything. i would have turned out like totally rebellious and not studying at all if i didnt sit next to you. you're a super good pacer and it's nice sitting next to you cos we can talk about a lot of useless things that make no sense. i love you lots jo!((:

no i didnt forget you jiap! you crazy girl who makes me laugh a lot but also likes to laugh by yourself. i will never ever forget the moments when you talk to yourself even when we tell you to stop and you claim that you're talking to us. hahaha. you really amuse me a lot which is fun and you've made sec 3 and 4 really really enjoyable for me. you're one of the reasons why i love the class. be honoured!:D

to recess table (vanesa, cheryl, seeyue, sam, eunice, ONGKO WHO DOESNT EXIST ANYMORE, and the comers and goers), THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS MAKING ME GO DOWN FOR RECESS!((: recesses have been lots of fun with you guys, although mostly its the same people who talk and stuff but still. now that i think bout it, spending recess with you guys is more worth it than rushing out homework in class ahahaha! but seriously, recesses have been incredible and pure fun with yall. THANKEWWW.<3

thank you to my lovely lovely cell and church friends (char, grace, sien, yingen etc) for all your prayers and well wishes. and sien for the lovely lovely lovely two bites brownies! they were really really good. one day i will bake brownies for you! when i get an oven :D

to lipin, for always being so entertaining and it was lots of fun "studying" physics with you ahaha! seriously the book damn waste money, but that day was the best man. ahhaha i was glad i was able to spend good time with you, even though that day was not productive at all. anyway physics is lousy, and we both dont care. :D i love you pinnnn!((:

to july and dawn, you two crazy idiots who come over for english and lit, i will never never never forget the crazy times we had in class (with jiap and hannah and various people). you two have been english and lit lessons so much more fun, what with july's noisiness and dawn's complaining about a certain ahemsomeoneahem. and july's crazy high pitched laughter and dawn's "I CANNOT DO LIT HELP ME HANNAH" its been crazy fun for two years. dont ever lose your spark!((:

not forgetting my mum who has been keeping me in prayer lots everyday of exams. i know she secretly cares for me ahha. and jie, although we were both having exams at the same time, and you pangsehed me to watch hsm3 with your friends and you annoy me lots, i still love you.

to studying friends (namely ivfen, salad, jiani, sann, zhang, xiao, julia, eeleng, enqi, ying etc) and ppl who stayed late to study, thank you for making the canteen such a lively place to study in that ppl cannot concentrate at all. but it felt really really good studying all together. somehow it makes studying easier.

to my crazy jak, i hope you're all okay i seriously miss how the gatherings in the past were like. we need a seriously fun one where none of us are washing the barbecue pit and the rest talking and laughing *ahem*joanandabby*ahem* I LOVE YOU ALL.

to my lovely, ever-important-to-me peanut who has never ever forgotten me even when the whole world has, i really love you. i owe you many dates and many PSBs, please be patient with me! i know you love me a lot, i love you a lot too. we will go out very very soon okay. i will miss you and the going home together trips!<3333

to all my other friends (who quietly supported me so i also quietly thank you), i can hear your supports in my heart, when i listen really REALLY hard. hahah no lah. i still love yallll.

<3!

(and im not even gonna say anything bout what mg posted on the website regarding results)

my watch is 12 hours fast

2009-01-10T03:32:00.008+08:00

MERRY NEW YEARRRRRRR

ANNOUNCEMENT FIRST!:

selling NEWS' 3rd album color.
brand new, totally unopened cd. the plastic wrapping is still on as you can see below. it's the limited edition shipped in straight from Japan and it's being sold for $50! which is quite a bit cheaper than what hmv is selling for and cheaper than what it was bought for. if you're interested or know of anyone who's interested, you can drop me a comment with your email (or if i know you just tell me and i'll get in touch with you) and then we'll see howwww!((:

front (excuse the ugly background):

back (you can see my cat!):

water droplet to show that the outer plastic covering is still on hahah:

okay okay sorry for the incredibly late update although i dont think anyone really reads this lousy thing anyway. lots of things to blog about: kelong, youth camp, china, cc retreat, sleepover at yihui's, losers steamboat, jakk bbq and today. ohh and results? yeah.

unfortunately im not in the mood to post pictures. but i dont have much cept from kelong and china. okay china got quite a lot. kelong pictures are i dunno where. but yes i will just talk bout each one first although its crazy 3:35am and i have two major things to do tmr.

kelong was lots and lots of fun. i think it was the first time i seriously enjoyed myself with my family in a looooong time. maybe a first time actually. cos SOME people werent there lah haha. yes im mean, but its true. anyway. yeah when we got there, there wasnt much to do at first. we went fishing and to be honest, it was incredibly boring. (im sorry oh-chan! but i have no idea why he likes fishing so much.) and its not easy either. i felt a bit stupid waiting for fish that didnt exist. playing with the dogs were more fun ahha.

anyway yes for most of the rest of the trip it was mainly in the water lah. like riding banana boat, kayaking, jet ski, swimming etc. it was fun lah and the seafood there is seriously fresh. and i got to see joash! he's like this 3 or 4 year old boy who is suuuuuuuuuuper cute. pictures later or another day lah. he's just cute. ohh and we got to see fireflies too! it's super cool. like one crawled on my hand. and when you see it in the light, it actually looks like a baby cockroach which is kinda gross but they're much cooler. than cockroaches.

youth camp! fun fun and more fun. the theme for groups was transformers. and i was in ironhide! all the way mansssss. anyway yes. my group was seriously the best. we were the only group that stayed consistently within the top two throughout the whole camp which is super cool. but we were a strong team! and i think we had the best tl and atl. sien and fangyi are the craziest leaders ever.<333 but it was fun that our motivation everyday was mattress. motivations do wonders, really. at first when i saw the groupings, i was ultra scared cos i only knew sien, rhoda, steph and fangyi. and like samuel and adalric were in my group also. and i totally didnt know them and judging from the previous youth camp, i was a bit scared lah. but they turned out to be suuuuper nice people. and samuel even carried my bag for amazing race!:D my ultra-heavy-dunno-what-i-put-inside-that-made-it-weigh-5-kg backpack that jiap lent me. thank you sam!((:

im not gonna go into detail cos thats nuts. but games were fun, food wasnt too bad and most importantly, the meeting with God was incredible. somehow he made everything work out. from me declining to become a leader all the way until i came home and fell asleep. of course, the camp wasnt perfect. there were still times when i felt down and alone and stuff, but somehow God has given me something else to make up for it. and im really really thankful. i dont think the experience this time got me as excited as the previous one did, but somehow this time i feel that i want to get more involved in youth and God has presented me opportunities! so im really thankful. the next thing would be to get down to doing my tasks. -.- God please help!

CHINA WAS NUTS! i was really really upset a lot a lot of times cos of smoke and uncivilised chinese (i cant believe i came from there!) the chinese in china seriously need to learn etiquette or i tell you imma beat them up one day. smoke like crazy, push like crazy, and they whack their mouths off like anything lah. they dont think twice bout what they say and what they do. as long as it's okay in their eyes. stupid cheena people.

the only good things bout china is the cheapiority of food and most goods and weather. oh and foot massage that makes me snore. everything else sucks. except for window of the world. hahah. i'll blog more bout china when i put the photos up. probably the next time i blog. i'll try to do it soon!

cc retreat! i lurrrve my cc. they make me so happy. hahaha but it really was an awesome gathering. i am amazed by the amount of rubbish we can talk about lah. like jia ni, xiaohui, salad and i spent the whooooole (almost) day talking and talking and talking. like we sat in jiani's room for like. 4 hours? and we just kept talking and talking. and even when we went to sann's place, we still talked haha. and the next morning over breakfast we still talked.

one thing that surprised me bout the cc was the christmas presents that they brought. i thought i would be the only one, but like lesley, lyddie, salad and maisie all gave and honestly, i was shocked. i really was. ahhhhh i love them soooooo much<3 and its amazing how although we dont see each other for lengths of time, we dont really drift or anything. ahhhhhh im glad the people who make up the cc are in the cc.((:

had sleepover at yihui's on monday! supposed to watch little nyonya (which i dont) but i went late anyway cos i was doing the laundry. but yes the sleepover was fun and im glad i went! (thanks for the advice xiaohui!) it was super uda uda (more than the cc, salad!) like when i went, then we started playing bridge. we watched the prestige (which to me was like HUH?), i learnt how to play german bridge thanks to yingen! and at like 3plus we called in macs. we're damn siao lah. in the end pris, yongen and adriel slept at 5+ and then yihui, yingen and i talked until bout 6.30. siao lah.

next morning woke up at bout 10 plus. i went down to school at 12 plus cos kim said her class playing pe. so we played one game of floorball then they wanted to leave school so we went buddy and then holland. ohh and kim and i applied for jobs at cold rock. ahhah damn funny. and sophia became my guarantor. hahha. and then had losers steamboat dinner! thiam, joan and i are really the best losers. we decided to have a budget of $6 per person. so about $20 in total. in the end it came up to like $11.70 per person. we are super loser lah! we bought soooo much food and we ate sooo much. for like 2hours lah! but after that we went to the playground. which, to be honest i got a bit scared. i dont like the dark. then after that went home.

jakk + carriser barbecue! ahha it was quite fun lahhh just that it started a bit late. i went out with july in the late morning for brunch at hv. ohh and i also met pastor andy there! hahah. then wah, july and i also talk until crazy. its fun lah, to be able to talk rubbish with someone even though yall havent seen each other for so long. then after that we went to school to disturb teachers and stuff. then i went over to joan's at 4.50. i was 50 minutes late and i was the earliest. stupid people lah come so late. in the end we started at like 6plus? and for the first time, abigail was helping and not just eating. ahaha. but it was fun lah, like cooking and eating. although we didnt really sit down and talk or anything. gatherings are fun. ((:

and kim and i found possible future jobs! kim says we should set up a post-bbq cleaning company. we should charge damn high. ahha but i think people will hire us (especially lazy people) cos usually people dont like to clean up after barbecues. hahha good job opportunity. so yes. in the end i got home at like 11+. quite late lah.

today! met kim at dhoby ghaut and then went to heartland mall. damn retarded. supposed to cook for her today, we ended up eating pizza hut and she treated me. ahha. then we went to her house and watched a double shot at love. it's quite an amusing show, but quite scary at the same time. then we talked. wah recently ive been talking a lot eh. haha yeah i got a bit more updated on the scandals ahha and yes. i feel like i havent seen vicky for incredibly looooong. so today was fun.

after that i went for cell and then for mariko's barbecue. so retarded cos the people who left the latest were cell people. hahah so for me, it turned out to be more of a cell thing rather than a mariko and friends thing. but anyway naomi cooks very well! like seriously well. and mariko is plain cmi hahah. after that we just sat and TALKED somemore (i really got nothing better to do. maybe i just like talking.) bout youth camp and church and etc. it was quite fun lah, just to sit and talk. at least you dont feel tired. we talked from like 11+ all the way till 2. we left at like 2:06 according to my watch. crazy.

so yes im still awake now and this post is too long for its own good cos no one is gonna read it. pictures another day! results on monday and i dont feel like going. im really considering ponning but then i know people will get upset at me and i need to be brave and face reality!

i havent seen many people throughout the whole holidays. like grace and tian. and various various people. im missing yall!

all rights. im shagged. i got things to do tmr i shall leave it as it is here!((:

ahh i wanted to watch maou tonight.

edit/my dawh gave me undies for christmas! i dont know what to say.
edit//unfortunately, looking back at my previous posts, my hols have not been productive at all. (see 26 Nov 08 [happy ohno day!:D])
edit///note to self: 25th Jan

random randoms

2009-01-01T02:17:00.000+08:00

I WILL UPDATE SOON.

~~when i feel like it.~~

picspam

2008-12-15T01:06:00.010+08:00

because my sister is annoying and gave me the pictures late, so i have no time to blog properly (which i dont think i will anyway). just pictures lah. cos if not ting jie will be upset. and right, i think i'll send pictures in a zip file. a bit too many to save off my blog right ahh okay soon soon. i got black from the kelong stop asking me ppl!

ahh youth camp in about 7 hours and i dont know if i should be excited or not hm.

oh yeah its really a lot of pictures sorry if i hang anyone's computers. (no im not buying you a new one either.)

thank you you

2008-12-04T21:15:00.002+08:00

ahhhh east coast was craploads of funnnnnnnn.((:

hahah it was really incredible. (incredible seems to be my new favourite word.) met up with jiap, cheryl, denise, jo and sam in the afternoon. i was purposely late, but jo and sam beat me. hahah and we walked forever before finding the park. so stupid lahh jiap and her lack of sense of direction hm. but cycling was incredible fun. i havent cycled for a year. it felt great. hahah 3 hours, $6 (that's $2 per hour not bad eh!) + drink! hahah but 3 hours on the bike gave me a really bad ache. i couldnt sleep last night. it was quite jialat. but i laughed a lot yesterday. turned out a whole lot better than i expected.

jo jiap and i cycled a lot a lot a lot. and jiap wanted to go to the park but we didnt manage to but we stopped by the pier and camwhored. well, i didnt bring my camera, so they were the ones taking pictures. but it felt really really great. like everything.

denise cheryl and sam rollerbladed. ahhah denise totally cannot blade hahah she fell down like when we all finished already and got a slight graze. champion lah she. and apparently cheryl has a new found love for rollerblading. or did i dream that.

oh and one of the highlights of the day would be that denise and i had a little quarrel. well its all over now, but hahah it was funny.

im really really thankful for the time we had yesterday. and that no one was majorly injured, and it didnt rain on us. and the time spent together was good quality time spent doing something useful. thank you friends very much!

todayyy went to lipins house. hahah her house quite nice what actually! but she's always like so embarrassed by it. dunno why. and she has this incredible massage chair that you can really fall asleep in but she doesnt use it. i dont understand that girl.

and i saw meiyan today! completely chao tah that girl dunno what she's been doing. her tan lines are really quite jialat. but aiyah. hahah. then vanesa was there also. then we played mahjong with incredibly tiny tiles cos lipin doesnt have mahjong set and table. hahah and they kept getting knocked over so we played only one round. then we turned to cards.

and meiyan doesnt know the titles of the games that she plays ahhah champion lah she really. but today was loads of fun as well. i felt happy today. and scary movie 4 is incredibly funny hahah i never realised how funny the scary movie series is. i should watch all of them.

mmmm yes. tomorrow outing again. and then kelong on the weekend! yay! im super excited bout the kelong trip. mum says we can kayak and ride banana boat and we can even fish hahahha. just totally reminds me of oh-chan. then i asked my mum what else we can do there then she was like "eat, play mahjong, sleep, eat, play mahjong, sleep" haiyah adults tsk tsk. but yes, im incredibly excited. but ahhh. need to wake up early on saturday.

mmm i'll update more soon. hopefully. i'll take pictures of the kelong! so that my blog wont be so colourless.

and joan, i'm not free cos i got other plans lah!

the cocoa tree

2008-12-02T21:12:00.003+08:00

mmmmmm

havent posted seriously for quite long. i seem to have lost my memories.

sunday 30/11/2008
helped out with the p1 sunday school class. and i remembered what it was like writing with a normal pencil, and the pain it took to write just one sentence. well, the work the kids had to do was to write down all the old testament books of the bible. and it took incredibly and painstakingly long. and honestly, at the start of the lesson, i was kinda like "crap can they hurry or not, this lesson is gonna take forever." but when i sat beside them and watched them write, i realised that each and everyone of them was writing seriously and as fast as they could. and i realised how much i have overlooked the ability to write and spell. the kids were really great; everytime they made a mistake, they didnt try to cover it up or cancel it (like i would), but they would ask for the eraser, rub out the mistakes, and patiently correct it. i couldnt tell them to hurry up anymore, cos i knew that each one of them was giving their best. and there are a lot of things i dont understand about them and whats going on in their heads, how they are thinking, what they are thinking about, but i think during jan, if possible i want to learn a bit more.

another question that's been bothering me is whether i should teach JXS or not. cos it seems like they need help with the teachers, but currently im with the sunday school group, which doesnt seem to need as much help as the JXS. and i really think that teaching JXS will be a lot more fulfilling for me, in terms of my spiritual growth. and maybe also my mental growth. still praying bout it, hopefully i'll make up my mind soon.

after church, during dinnerish, went for family gathering. it wasnt as bad as i expected, probably because i was the one barbecueing. so i have come to the conclusion that the best position for me in my family, would be the maid. it's pretty good, cos then i dont need to talk to anyone (cos "im busy" is an excuse) and i wont be asked stupid questions. and i wont be idle. and time passes a whole lot faster. mmmmm.

or maybe the night was that bad because a certain someone wasnt there.

monday 1/12/2008
i spent the morning at home watching videos cos i had nothing else to do. then char came over at about 3 plus and then we left to get her prom dress and then went for the ccis training. although it wasnt really training training, more like a briefing, im still wondering whether i should go for it or not.

i mean, to say this now might be a little rude, but honestly, if i were one of those walking on the streets, i definitely wouldnt want some guru to come up to me while im on the streets. im a bit hesitant bout it, but i think that since i went for the training, God probably has something in store for me. i need to pray a lot more.

and really, im just hoping that ccis will turn out well. that there will be rewards for all the efforts from the organisers etc. ahhhhhhhhhh.

ahhh i was really quite annoyed when we went to get char's dress. cos the service was really really bad. blum and co. terribly terrible. honestly. it was plain awful. char was told that she could collect her dress at about 3pm, or late afternoonish, so we went at about 5 plus. and then the person said that the dress will only come at 630. so we went back again at 630 and then the stupid person at the counter (different from the earlier one) totally ignored us. i was crazily annoyed and it was really bad service. i mean, good service means that every customer is equally important and the moment they step into your shop, someone should be there ready to tend to the customer. that particular person ahh, super jialat. we stood at the counter and she ignored us, and then some other person came with a dress and she was all like "oh you want to try this?" ahhhhhhh EVERY CUSTOMER IS EQUALLY IMPORTANT REGARDLESS OF AGE OKAY! i was really really displeased. and they left us waiting for soooooooo long and in the end we didnt even get the dress. WHAT KIND OF BOUTIQUE IS THAT?! hmph. DONT EVER GO THERE I TELL YOU.

tuesday 2/12/2008
as usual, nothing happened again, but jie had to get ready for her prom. and i realised that make up makes a huge change in people's looks. it really can turn anyone pretty. and jie's dress is even more amazing. when i get the pictures ill post it up. my sister's become pretty~~~!:D

ahhaha yeah. nothing much today, another wasted day. and im having an awful awful headache. actually, it's been on and off for quite long. im really quite scared i got tumour. or maybe i need to get out of the house.

tmr ecp with recess table(i think?) i hope it will be good. like i havent seen those people for so long, i wonder if it'll be awkward. ahhhhhh. howwww. but i NEED to get out of the house. ahh honestly im a bit worried.

im excited for youth camp! although im not like really involved or anything, but im still excited about it. of course, there's the usual uncertainly about the group im gonna be in and stuff, but i know that God has already planned my group for me and he will see me through it. haha makes it sound as though my church people are bad eh. but no lah, im just a bit.. well, not everyone is that friendly. not to me at least. but i hope that they will be nice at least for youth camp.

okayyy. it's a long post. i am unproductive, because i am kat.

[edit]i will do a drama post soon. soon.[/edit]

hmph

2008-11-28T12:06:00.001+08:00

最低なお前。

crazy titles

2008-11-26T22:22:00.003+08:00

its not working! ahh this is frustrating. im spending so much time and money but im not getting the rewards. lots harder than i expected. ahhhhhhhhh.

i should do a post on the dramas i have watched up to date. then i wont forget them. and i should do recommendations too. hahah. yes yes that will be fun.

mmmmmmmm i should commit the rest of my hols to doing something more productive sigh.

edit/ 誕生日おめでとう、大野くん！

a lack of games and love

2008-11-14T09:04:00.006+08:00

thank you very much for yesterday kim. it felt good. ((: i'd implode if not for you man, seriously. thank you much much much.<3

its over! but i dont feel anything. maybe cos it never started for me, haha since ive been slacking so much anyway. but yes, there's finally nothing to do and i want something to do. SO! during the hols, imma improve on my cooking skills and try new recipes and hopefully come up with new ones. look forward to it! i'll try to take pictures and stuff, but haha i doubt so. i'll probably forget. im still deciding on what to make. i need to research first.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. yes. i think hols wont be very interesting. not for november at least. december will be a bit more interesting, hopefully. ahhhh i cannot cannot cannot wait for kelong trip, china and cc retreat~~~! excitingggg.

誰にも似ていない
君と進もう ♥

...

2008-11-07T13:09:00.014+08:00

wow.

i havent been here proper for pretty long. oh dear. hahah but anyways. recently all exams so nothing much i suppose. my O is being stupid. ahhhh i have lost the skill of blogging haha. but anys.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAWHHHHHHHH. YOU'RE TWENTY AND OLLLLLLLLLLLD.((:

and just in case you miss home, here are some magnificent pictures of the darling cat and your beloved sister (the one which is not me).

hahaha my cat is damn cute.

and the one who is not me.

breakfast mother made.

ahhaha keewee and steve-kun! ahhaha he looks like he owns it. (btw salad this was the picture i wanted to show you haha.)

HAHAH he's protecting steve-kun! so cute

hahah kitchen shots. one of my favourite series of photos of keewee.

printer shots! damn funny.

HAHHA HE LOOKS LIKE ~~SIMBAAAAAAAAA~~ MUFASAAAAAAAAA.

just to draw a comparison.

well on second thoughts maybe not that much.

spot the similarity.

2008-11-07T00:37:00.000+08:00

over and over again.

O:

2008-10-16T23:25:00.003+08:00

onigiri --> almost a demon.

ONI:

PLUS

EQUALS

ONIGIRI:

eh?

the japanese are old.

tell me why
take me faraway

2008-10-11T01:10:00.002+08:00

Don't forget to remember me
And the love that used to be
I still remember you
I love you

thank you for the friendships

thank you for the memories

i'm sorry i made so many people cry today

10 years over in 1 day

when we meet again in 10 years time, lets remember again

最後の

2008-10-06T21:14:00.003+08:00

the last week!

i was supposed to blog yday but fell asleep. haha. but anyway.

last week of 10 years in mg.

the last monday

tuesday

wednesday

thursday

friday.

the last 5 recesses in mg.

the last 5 days in class.

the last 5 days of being a class.

the last ....

honestly. although im saying all this. i still wonder how much i'll miss mg.

although every one is telling me i'll cry during baccalaureate service, i still wonder if i really will.

hmmmmmmmmmm.

haha. well, pri 3 to sec 3 doesnt really ring a bell to me. so i dont know if i'll miss it as much as i expect.

people are crying cos they're upset.

i'm crying cos i'm not upset.

ohh dear. haha.

no peanut i'm not trying to be poetic. haha. but anyway, i'm pretty sure my predictions this time are gonna be rather accurate. haha. but love. <3

tumourculosis

2008-10-04T00:39:00.002+08:00

thank you lipin.

thank you grace.

thank you jo.

i love you all.

and my sister too.
[gmail chat]
me: hur hurrr you again
jie: i could just smash your butt right now hahah

thank you for always making things work out in your own way. things were really bad the past two days. but thank you for being there with me through it all. thank you for keeping your promises to me and for comforting, encouraging and never failing me.

because i love you

2008-10-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

i hope you dont keep it in.
i hope you'll be all right.
i dont know what has happened.
and i dont want to ask.
but i just want you to know im here.

i promise i'll bring you to see the stars again. we will relive that night again.

please be well soon.

<3

2008-09-29T01:47:00.002+08:00

im not even gonna bother posting bout my life since my last post.

mmmm. O's in about 3 weeks. and then in another 3 weeks we wont see each other anymore. and no one seems to feel anything bout it. kinda. pathetic?

i hate the feeling of getting upset over everyone else not being upset that mg life will be over. i dont know why i get it. but it sucks. like. what will mg be like. after we go. no one seems to care though. =.=

well. i suppose this isnt the time to be bothering bout things like this. i really need to get started on my revision like properly properly. aish.

kimi crashed.)): i almost cried. but it would be too embarrassing seeing as i watched it with my mum. damn i really thought he would at least get on the podium. and when i found out it was him who crashed, i was like O.O of course, my eyes aint so big lah. but yeah. haiyar. but its allright. he's still cool.

mmmmmm code blue is a good show. i shall do drama ~~recommendations~~ reviews after O's. haha quite a few (>.<)

aights. i should go something more productive.

i will lift my eyes to the Maker of the mountains i can't climb
i will lift my eyes to the Healer of the hurt i hold inside

on a side note: XS Youth Camp.
date: 15-19 Dec 2008
Venue: Dairy Farm (finally somewhere in the west)
Price: $30 before next sunday; $15 for newcomers.
tell me if you're interested!:D(seriously)

2008-08-30T04:36:00.001+08:00

"her" again.

we write to say goodbye

2008-08-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

i hate you for leaving

i hate you for not saying anything and for not having mentally prepared us

i hate you for making me cry

i hate you for making the class incomplete

and i hate you for so many other things

but i thank you

i thank you for the memories

i thank for the laughter and stress relief

i thank you for always being so willing to listen

i thank you for being my rantee

i thank you (or rather your grandfather) for changing your surname

i thank you for being you

i havent known you for the longest of times, right up till now, maybe 1 1/2 years? but its amazing how we have gotten so close and how i could talk to you bout anything and everything. the ikea trips were too fun to forget (we must go again soon okay!) and the ranting sessions on the bus as well. i'll miss having you seated in front of me and having someone to disturb during class. 4O will definitely be very different without your density. hahah.

it was really a blessing to have gotten to know you. please please please take care of yourself and dont get influenced yes! please stay as you, and remember to always return to God.

do come back to visit! and we can have crying session no.2.

i love you!

amanda tania ~~wang~~ongko

ohh dear i'm starting to tear again.

2008-08-02T10:19:00.004+08:00

maybe i'm asking for too much?

i can't find it!
the bond that i broke

/edit

"But sometimes we get sad about things and we don't like to tell other people that we are sad about them. We like to keep it a secret. Or sometimes we are sad but we don't really know we are sad. So we say we aren't sad. But really we are."

feeling sad about something that isn't real and doesn't exist is stupid.

2008-07-31T20:26:00.002+08:00

happy (very late) birthday yankaaaa!
and hey, just cos i didnt dedicate anything to you dont mean i forgot bout you. here goes!

you're super retarded, can get super annoying, and ~~sometimes~~ most of the time make no sense at all. but you're an awesome awesome friend. someone who is really easy to be around with. and i know i'm not the most patient person, but i'm glad we're friends (and such good ones at that!) and you're always all over the place. it's nice.((: BUT you need to STOP making sarcastic comments especially when you know that i cannot pick them out. i mean, if its really obvious, then okay, but you need to get rid of the subtle ones. hahah.

happy 16th, please grow up. and please dont stress over the minorest things! especially not by yourself. we'll work things out together yes!<333

and i hope you like your present (although it doesnt work anymore.):)

happy birthday carisser wee! (although i dont think you're gonna read this)
anyway. yes happy birthday. hey, come to think of it, i knew you in p1 too. hahah so that makes it 10 years. although ive only gotten to know you better in sec 2 and then in sec 3-4 again. but anyway, you are super retarded and a bit aunty and you always ask me to go for lunch at the wrong times. but still! happy birthday. and remain as retarded as everrrrr.(((:

okayyyy. im hiatusing until after prelims. so for birthday shoutouts coming up, read it after prelims!((: i promise you i'll do one (if i know your birthday). if i miss it, please do let me know! i'll make it up to you. ((:

all rights. founders was okay. will blog bout it another day, although theres barely anything to talk bout. but thank you dawn for being there! it really meant a alot. and i hope you sec 4s enjoyed the video! will be uploading download (hahha) link soon. be patient! ppl need to study also.

had dinner with stef and szelin! szelin drives a damn cool merc man. hahah and the way she drives is too cool alr. thanks much for the dinner treat and the ride home!<3

2008-07-14T00:44:00.004+08:00

happy birthday andree!!((: hahah you were in my p1 class so i technically have known you for 10 years (O:) although i may not have remembered you every year (D:). haha. anyway. you have grown a lot a lot a lot since like, what, sec 2? yeah. and it has been lots of fun being around with you and stuff. continue to grow in God and shine for Him okay!<3

happy birthday salad! haha you awesome kid. you're CC0708's only and greatest discomm head!:D i wanted to get you a ~~booking~~ birthday card but i couldnt find a suitable one. but present soon okay! ((: 先生への誕生日おめでとう! すべてを本~当にありがとうね!

happy birthday july chan! :DDD hope you enjoyed the tofifee. haha. thank you thank you thank you for having been there when i really really needed it. and i may not be the first person you might wanna talk to, but rmb that we have sth in common! hahah. so yes, you can always come talk to me kay!((:

<3

the stars littered the sky and never stopped twinkling the whole night through. the moon shone bright and clear; it was almost painful to watch. the sky had never, ever, been so clear to the point you could see hundreds, no, thousands of eyes winking at you. it was there and then, that you truly experienced the beauty and grace of God.

"which dyou think is the brightest star?"
"*points* that one."
"but it's not twinkling! that's a planet."
"what? no. its too bright to be a planet. and why does it have to be twinkling to be a star?"
"cos it's twinkle twinkle little star."

thank you. you know who you are.<3

2008-07-12T01:18:00.004+08:00

i wanted to talk to you
but it hurt when i did

no kim i'm not talking bout whoever you're thinking of. and STOP it with the bad taste. hahah.

i apologise for the lack of posts! but honestly, my life has been really uninteresting. and emo. so that makes it even more so uninteresting. when something happens that i have NORMAL (meaning no foreigners) pictures of, then i will post kayyyy. i promise yo!(:

but for now. be patient. yes bat i know you're reading this. BE PATIENT. ahha and yeah i owe you a tegoshi post. hahah.

honestly. who reads my blog? O:

edit/on a side note, i hate gel sessions. i really do. they always make me so upset. pisses me off. )<

HELLO STEF!((((:

I SMACK YOU

2008-07-07T18:18:00.002+08:00

ahhhhh.

okay. so i havent been feeling the best of moods.

I'M SORRY JOAN YANKA KIM FOR FRIDAY. i promise i have a reason. and you'll know in time to come when im ready. but bear with me k.

and i'm sorry for today kim! it was such a waste of time. i cant get it out though. but i promise i will tell you. through some other means okay. i promise.

church get together on saturday! it was good lah. but i think my group totally lost. but it was fun. hahah. then combined cell was really good as well. thank you auntie lynette.((:

church on sunday was awesome. i totally fell in love man. hahaha. but i think next week i'll fall out of love. ahahha. i never knew my cell guys were so hot. O:

mmm dance niiiiiight i'm sorry peanut! i'll buy you another 100 PSBs okay! im really really sorry and i really wanted to go ahhhhhhh. damn it. you can dance for me again. :D

wah seh the woman in the show is damn irritating. hmph. )<

"how would you like people to remember you after you die?"
AIYAR WON'T DIE ONE LAH.

i write to apologise

2008-07-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry

心配ない
一緒に尽す全力を割り当てる

this is a proper post.

2008-06-28T16:08:00.003+08:00

ahha wow my first proper, no picture, update in a rather long time.

first week of school done.((: it hasnt been the easiest week, but i think it's been one of my most blessed weeks.

ive been super mood swingy. i dont know why. but everytime im like that, somehow God always pulls me back. so i'm very thankful.

and im thankful also, for all the trials he has helped me to overcome. truly, without him, my first week would have been hell.

anyway. yes. yesterday. lovemg. it was really great. cos something happened just before the event. so i wasnt in the happiest of moods. but yet again, God called me back. and i'm thankful also for abby joan and kim. it was really the first time i felt so touched. cos each of them was just really truly worshipping God. and i believe that God touched their hearts and spoke to them. in time to come, i know that they will only get stronger in the Lord.

and ive also learnt from the three of them what "God's timing" truly means. its useless to force something if God doesnt allow it to happen. but last night, he did. and it was just amazing seeing how he worked last night.

continue to press on, you three! <3

im thankful for grace tooo.((: who never fails to be there. who is always so ready to listen. and somehow, her faith doesnt waver. and she remains so steadfast. truly blessed to know her.<3

for seeyue, dont doubt. have faith that God will help you in your path to glorifying his name. cos that's his plan for you. and when you feel you've disappointed him, remember his steadfast love for you and how he sent his son. nothing could be of more proof of his love for you than that. k?(:

daniella! (you probably wouldnt see this i think) i really hope that you can get over your fear of being judged by people because remember that all you're doing, you're doing for the Lord and not for men. people may be unhappy at you, but if you serve and worship with a pure heart, God will accept your offering.

dearest english scholar, i hope you're feeling loads better now. please remember all that i told you. and ultimately, have faith that God will work things out somehow. pray that nothing untowardly will happen and that by the grace of God, she will be saved. by the mercy of God, she will be called back into God's kingdom. chill friend.<3

to bev, this period of time may not be the easiest for you, but im keeping you in my prayers okay. press on, cos God takes time to work. and i believe he will work a miracle in your life. and when that time comes, you can proudly say "my God saved me". dont lose hope. God is working in your life even at this moment for a greater purpose which you may not understand, but you will in time to come. <3
yes peanut i should be able to go for dance night.<3 come for drama night?

many many thanksgiving. and also, many requests. but God hears them all.

i hope i've been a blessing today.

patience? patients?

2008-06-23T21:14:00.004+08:00

patience, kat, patience.

patients?

paaaaatience.

paaaaaaaatiiiiiiiiiience.

paaaaaaaaaatiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeence.

paaaaaaaaaaatiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeennceeeeeeeeeeee.

patience for patients.

patients for patience.

AHH MY SPEELING IS GOING CRAIZEEE.

1234567 IT'S BIG NEWS!

2008-06-12T15:09:00.019+08:00

NEWS

Koyama Keiichiro

Masuda Takahisa

Nishikido Ryo

Kato Shigeaki

Tegoshi Yuya

Yamashita Tomohisa aka Yamapi (leader)

Tegomass (sub-group)

hahah i put these pictures cos i think they look damn cute together.

dramas i HIGHLY recommend!

1) My Boss My Hero マイ★ボスマイ★ヒーロー

starring:
Nagase Tomoya (TOKIO)
Tegoshi Yuya (NEWS)
Aragaki Yui
Kashii Yu (deathnote)

this series is really quite a joke, but its definitely worth watching especially if you need to laugh things out. nagase's face (see above) is damn funny. and you will fall in love with pudding once you watch it.((:

2) Kurosagi クロサギ

starring:
Yamashita Tomohisa (NEWS)
Horikita Maki (Hana Kimi)

Much darker as compared to the previous drama, but definitely worth watching. Yamapi plays a pretty cool character here. and the plots are brilliantly clever. although the only thing is that you know Kurosagi always wins. bang! maido ari. (l

Differences between Jap and Korean

Japanese are wilder and very proud of their bodies...

while the koreans are generally more conservative.

the most you get is this:

(uhh. minus TOP)

Japanese are crazy and unafraid to share their thoughts...

NEWS wo Abake (1/3)

NEWS wo Abake (2/3)

NEWS wo Abake (3/3)

NEWS Cha Cha Cha Game

while the koreans are a bit more sensitive.

haha. these are the two major major differences i spot. note that this is personal opinion and i am NOT slamming the koreans. i love kpop okay.

anyway. if there's any other difference to highlight, let me know. or when i find more i will put more.

ahhhh. damn tired. i'll do tesshi's special feature on my next post. haha. ((:

till thennnnn~!

warning: picture spam ahead

2008-05-24T13:16:00.041+08:00

OKAY TRICIA. here's your long lost post. i wouldnt be surprised if youve already learnt everything by now though. hahah. everything is done in alphabetical order.

BIG BANG

Kang Daesung

G-Dragon (Kwon Jiyong; leader)

Seungri (Lee Seunghyun)

T.O.P (Choi Seunghyun)

Taeyang (Dong Youngbae)

Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK)

Choikang Changmin

Youngwoon Jaejoong

Micky Yoochun

Xiah Junsu

U-know Yunho

FT Island

Lee Hongki: Main Vocals

Lee Jaejin: Bass

Choi Jonghoon: Guitar & Keyboards; leader

Choi Minhwan: Drums; youngest (our age!)

Oh Wonbin: Guitar & Vocals
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FT headed towards Japan!
new single: soyogi

SUPER JUNIOR

Lee Donghae

haha donghae with yunho and jaejoong. so young.

Eeteuk (leader)

Eunhyuk

Hangkyung (chinese member; one of the olympic torch bearers; appeared in lifestyle page 1 8th june 2008)

Kim Heechul

i think he's quite pretty. but looks rather strange at times.

Kangin! but these shots are bad.

Kim Kibum! ((:

Kyuhyun (youngest in the group; one of the best singers)

Ryeowook (abby's loser boy; sien likes him though. one of the best singers)

Shindong (michelle's fat purple grape)

Shiwon (tian's favourite)

Sungmin

Yesung (one of the best singers; getting funnier lately)

Sub-group: SJ-M
Members: Hankyung, Donghae, Shiwon, Ryeowook, Kyuhyun, Henry Lau, Zhoumi
for a more detailed profile, refer to Lifestyle page 1 dated 8th June 2008

ahhaha okay. yay. finally done. BUT!! i got NEW craze NEWS now. hahah. so next post: NEWS and SPECIAL FEATURE 手越祐也 Tegoshi Yuya. PLUS!differences between Korean music scene and Japanese music scene. Look forward to it! :D

credits:
www.google.com.sg/images
www.bigbangkorean.wordpress.com

speed post!

2008-05-20T20:27:00.002+08:00

okay! a few vids i found over the past few days. top makes me damn happy. ((:

mnet top 100 must have guys - #41 T.O.P.

mnet top 100 something else - #63 T.O.P.

mnet top 100 must have guys - #20 G-Dragon

wah crap gd looks damn good here lah.

NBK ft tempo - buckwild

this was top before he underwent YG training. his underground gigs and stuff.

THIIIIIAAAAAAAAM!!:
BB on Gummy's manwon haengbok

ahhaha OMG daesung is damn funny here. like GAGGGGGG. haha seriously.

BB in Japan!

top and daesung are friggin cute at the end!<333333

hahaha okay okay. i will do tricia's intro post later and yes, auntie abby i will watch honggil dong.((:

to: tricia seow

2008-05-10T00:45:00.002+08:00

hahah I WILL DO AN INTRODUCTORY POST FOR YOU FOR THE FOLLOWING GROUPS:

- big bang
- dbsk
- ft island
- super junior / m

hahah. i promise! but after exams. cos i NEED to be on hiatus. hahah.

anyway.
peanut is now a big bang convert
salad is a NEWS convert
tricia is a dbsk convert (and very soon big bang; i already see it coming)
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

spread the k-love<3

big BANG!

2008-05-01T19:10:00.038+08:00

hahah i decided big bang needed their screen time too. so here goes nothing.

big bang is great concert

randoms

joan g-ri!

dammit! there is still seriously SOOOO much okay. but ive reached my limit.): blogger is unhappy cos too many photos i think. ahhah. another time then.

haha okay obviously im a LITTLE bit more biased towards TOP. but what to do! he's my favourite. omggg his stare really kills me.((((((((((0: hee hee he makes me so happy.

peanut! i figured it'd be easier if i passed you thumb yeah. so be patient!

YG’s Female Big Bang to debut soon!
April 30, 2008 at 9:26 pm (News)

Yang Hyun Seok “Gong Ok Jin’s granddaughter will set forth this summer as part of ‘female Big Bang’”
Translated by melodygreenleaf. Do not add to or remove this entire line.

Yang Hyun Seok broke his silence about YG Entertainment’s hidden girl group, the members of the group officially decided for the first time, and his plans for their future activities.

YG Entertainment’s president Yang Hyun Seok, who was a member of the most popular idol group in the 90’s, Seo Tai Ji and Boys, met a Money Today Star News reporter on April 30th at the Seoul Sejong Center M Theater, where YG Entertainment’s Big Bang Seungri was acting in the musical “Sonagi”. He revealed, “A female group of three members, who have been preparing with great ambition, will officially debut around July.”

That day, Yang Hyun Seok stated, “Park Bom, who is already well known, Gong Ok Jin (Korean dance master)’s granddaughter Gong MinJi, and CL, a girl in her late teens already famous among the manias of ‘Popular Song’, have been decided as the three members of YG’s new female group.”

He said, “If YG’s new female group seems very different from the preexisting girl groups, it’ll be easier if you see them as the girl Big Bang [...] Big Bang’s G-Dragon will be in charge of the producing for YG’s new female group’s debut album.”

President Yang even praised them, saying, “The name of YG’s new female groups hasn’t been decided yet, but I am confident this group will start a new wind in the music world.”

park bom, 25

Gong Min Ji, 14

CL, 16

http://bigbangkorean.wordpress.com/2008/04/30/ygs-new-girl-band-in-the-process/#comment-28975

joan! check these out:
DBSK couple talk - Jaejoong&Yunho - part 1
DBSK couple talk - Jaejoong&Yunho - part 2

hahah i think these pictures are damn retarded.

credits:
http://bigbangkorean.wordpress.com/

FTFTFTFTFTFTFTFTFT + sjm

2008-04-23T21:47:00.045+08:00

FINALLY. be thankful ah joan! spent ages on this. haha.

wahhhhhhh photos galoreeeeeeeee. i'm really not that crazy, but i was just very proud of myself i managed to find so many and such nice photos.((: yayyyyy.

all jaejins posted for joan and sann, hongkis for abby (his hair sucks btw), jonghoons for sien, wonbins for myself and minhwan cos he's part of the group and he's our age. THIAM I DUNNO WHO YOU LIKE! oh and henrys for joan, siwons for tian and grace and the rest for whoever likes them lah.

anyway. yes yes a lot a lot A LOT of pictures. if it loads damn slow its cos there are like 200+ pictures. so be PATIENT.

FT live concert in Thailand press conference

FT live concert in Thailand

Suncheon Youth Festival

Seoul museum of art

WHAT HAVE THEY DONE TO FT ISLAND.

ohh goshhh hongki looks TERRIBLE there.)): so awful.

SJ-M!

koped from sien's blog!((:
korean casting for HYD: http://yule.sohu.com/20080312/n255659008.shtml

ahhah for 杉菜, there's like yoon eunhye (lead from goong), han gain (lead from witch yoo hee), lee da hae (lead from my girl) and the rest i'm not interested cos i dunno who they are. ahhah.

for 道明寺 they have hyun bin(!!!, damn hot guy from my lovely samsoom), lee dong wook (lead from my girl), lee junki (O: lead from my girl, and very pretty gonggil from the king and the clown), joo ji hoon (Shin from Goong), and *drumroll* JANG YUNHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (leader of DBSK) and other people like the labeled hottest korean guy.

for 花泽类 they have kim jong hoon (!!!!!!!!!!!! yul from goong), kim heechul (?! sj member hahah), jung eui chul (the third guy from rainbow romance with kibum and heechul), hankyung (haha chinese super junior member who recently shot to fame after being chosen as one of the beijing olympics torchbearers), micky yoochun (??! DBSK member), kim jaejoong (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, DBSK member and i think he makes a rather good 类 and it'd be quite interesting if yunho was casted as 寺:D), kim kibum ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:), Choi Siwon (i see tian's and grace's faces SHINING), kim hyunjoong (from SS501!), aaaaaaaaaand Lee Hongki! (:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD, lead vocal, ft island).

hahahaha so amusing.(((:

credits for the many many pictures:
http://darialois.wordpress.com/2008/04/14/unacceptable/
http://pingbook.com/news/view.php?id=1757
http://spazzes.wordpress.com/2008/04/12/ft-island-1st-live-in-thailand-press-conference/
http://spazzes.wordpress.com/category/ft-island/
http://pingbook.com/news/view.php?id=1749
http://pingbook.com/news/view.php?id=1747

SJ-M?

2008-04-09T19:44:00.008+08:00

OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING TO SJ?! ))))):

Super Junior - M，终于在中国出道! 成员公开神秘影像引爆话题! 博客访问量近150万!
全亚洲当红团体 Super Junior 推出全新小组 - Super Junior-M(SM娱乐公司所属)，近日终于正式公开。被临时称为Super Junior China的Super Junior-M，出道前就已在中国及整个亚洲范围内广泛引起人们关注,他们是首支由韩国人和中国人组成的男子组合，由韩国CT(Culture Technology)进行整体打造，正式进军现今中国音乐业界，以彻底实现中国本土化、成为华语乐坛最优秀明星为目标而努力。
Super Junior-M的M是普通话英文mandarin的首字母缩写，它也表示着SJ-M将以华语乐坛为舞台翱翔展翅的伟大抱负，其成员也是以在中国获得最高人气Super Junior中国籍成员韩庚为主，除始源、东海、厉旭、圭贤之外，还新加入了中国成员亨利和周觅共构成了7人组，由此更提升了他们与中国大众之间的亲密度。
Super Junior-M将与中国当地的歌手们进行竞争，积极展开各种宣传和推广活动，目标在成为中国大众音乐市场巨星的同时，引领崭新的大众文化流行。
4月中旬开始,以中国大陆为首发站，还将在韩国、中国台湾、泰国等亚洲各地区陆续发行Super Junior-M的第一张专辑《迷(Me)》，它包括在韩国及亚洲深受喜爱的Super Junior的成名曲《U》、《Don’t Don》、《Marry U》、《幸福》等歌曲的中文版，还包括了祈愿2008北京奥运会成功举办的歌曲《The One》以及《迷(Me)》、《爱你爱你(Love Song)》等五首新曲，还有翻唱自林忆莲的《至少还有你》等共计12首歌曲，吸引了众歌迷们对此专辑的期待和关注。
Super Junior-M从4月3日起通过中国门户网站搜狐(www.sohu.com)陆续公开了团名及成员身份，引起了很大关注，并在4月8日音乐风云榜颁奖盛典中以特殊客人登台献艺，为广大歌迷们带来华丽的舞台演出。

AHHHHHHHHHH. seriously. WHAT is sm doing. damn annoying know! pffffffffffft.

okay for those who dont understand/too lazy to read, the article says...

"Super Junior-M is finally making their debut in China!

"Asia's biggest pop group Super Junior now has a new sub group - Super Junior M (under the management of SM entertainment) and has finally been announced. Recently marketed as Super Junior China's Super Junior-M, their popoularity has already been growing even before their debut. this boyband consists of koreans and chinese, and ...(lazy to translate).

"the M in SJ-M stands for mandarin and represents SJ-M's chinese-related performances ....................... other than Super Junior's members Hankyung from China, Choi Siwon, Donghae, Ryeowook and Kyuhyun, there are two new members from China Henry and Zhoumi, creating a 7-member group.......

"SJ-M will be competing with other Chinese stars and will be holding activities to publicise their group. .............

"in mid-april, starting from mainland China and moving to places like Korea, Taiwan, Thailand and other SE Asian countries, they will be cutting their first album 《迷(Me)》, and it will include the hit numbers Super Junior single U, Don't Don, Marry U, Haengbok plus others, all sung in chinese. other songs include the 2008 Beijing Olympics theme song The One, Me, Love Song and 5 other original numbers. there will also be a new rendition of Zhang Riin's 《至少还有你》 (at least there's still you), and there will be a total of 12 tracks, gaining the attention and anticipation of many fans.

"SJ-M will reveal their activities through the China-based website SOHU (www.sohu.com) from 3 april onwards, and on 8 april will have a guest performance............."

http://v.sohu.com/20080408/n256155046.shtml

ARGH. damn annoying. like who the heck is the zhoumi fellow lah! ahhhhhhh. so grossssssssss.))))):

SJ's not SJ anymore. now there's like trot (which is really okay), K.R.Y. (which is okay too cos they can sing) and now M (which is NOT okay).

now got two more chinese members, and the whole dynamics of SJ is totally different now! where's kangin!))):

argh. whatever lah. damn sian lah they. but i'm surprised grace is willing to listen to sj songs. HAH.

aish. i'm still quite annoyed. henry looked SO much better in don't don cos you cant friggin see his face lah. he actually looks quite weird. and he didnt sing! he play violin only okay! although half of sj can't sing either but stiiiiiilll. and the zhoumi guy looks damn weird also. AIYAR.

ORIGINAL Super Junior Single "U"

SJ-M cover of "U"

the only good thing bout the new vid is donghae gets more screen time and he raps in chinese! how cool is that. and he looks exceptionally good compared to the rest. urgh. kyuhyun looks damn weird. and ryeowook looks as girly as ever. hahha seriously. sorry sien. haha but he does luhh. ohh and you get so distracted trying to read what they're singing that you hardly even watch them dance. so disappointing!): and donghae's chinese is really not bad!:D but eh. all the rest like crap.

TIAN! THIS IS FOR YOU.((:
(many pictures koped from sien's blog:D)

ooh whoo siwon galore. haha. there are siwon gifs but it's all on siens blog so they cant be viewed by public! haha ohh well.

ahh okay. i will write about ft and bb another time then.

aish. sj-m.

i hate my life

2008-04-07T20:52:00.003+08:00

omgggg

yes jo i'm damn jealous. and it's really everyday. ): whats happening to me?!

ahh i dont believe it. this is NOT me.

ARRRRRRGHHHHHHH.

nothing's funny anymore

2008-04-06T15:30:00.003+08:00

"my stomachache is damn pain!"

wth.

i want to learn to play the piano! >(

i miss you

2008-04-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

come back.

please?

2008-03-31T21:45:00.004+08:00

FT Island first concert in Malaysia cancelled.

:DDDDDD

i'm horrible. (sorry sien!haha.) but im really glad as well. cos 1) i didnt buy tickets and 2) i'm not missing out. but i'm upset for the fans that went and for the FT boys as well. damn sad lah. their first concert out of korea maaaaan.)): awful.

all other information on the website itself.

ahha. lets see. ohh i got an lj. like finally. ahha. but i only got it so i can read peoples' privates. ahhah. i may or may not blog there. i quite like blogger. its idiot proof.

sec 4 olympics was okayyy. my voice was ALMOST gone but miraculously came back. how cool am i. but some quotes:

"go cheo! go squarehead! dont fall ah!"
"youngwoon jaejoong hwaiting!"
"go hankyuu~ng!"
"BRING THEM DOOOOOWN!"
"if you dont win, hannah will whack you with her squash balls!"
"michelle shout at your opponent!"
ahh i cant rmb.

i will: 1) finish up joan's jaeho fic and 2) give hannah her kakaita fic.

I WILL try.

ahhaha. anyway. yes. aiyar im really really not in the mood to blog luhhhh. im sorry.

next time kay.

GRACE!: ((: thank you so much for the past few days. it's been awesome being able to talk to you bout stuff bothering me. i'm really really thankful favourite! and we have to keep up with our friday calls!!! ): it's really not working out huh. haha.

THANKS THIAM FOR THE ~~DISTRACTING~~ MOTIVATING CALENDERRRR((: saranghae!<3

YOUNGWOON JAEJOONG HWAITING!<3 :D

i'm so sorry but i love you i just can't lie

edit/
jiap says my smileys are weird cos no one has multiple mouths. ))):

2008-03-24T20:23:00.002+08:00

Dear Lord,

i thank you for the friends in school who never fail to cheer me up.

for my seating partner jo, who puts in lots of effort to do many many things for me. like trying to make me go for founders day. her fund works out better than mine. and also always trying to make me go for recess. and also for trying to help me get rid of my bad habits like shaking my leg.

for jiap, who is almost always the first person to greet me in the morning and no matter how unhappy i am, i'm thankful for her.

for lesley, who is always so so so patient with me no matter how much i blow up at her.

for JAK!
for my dongsaeng Joan! whose excitement bout korean stuff is SO contagious.
for my ~~loser~~ other half, Abigail, who makes english lessons really really fun. it's almost impossible to not talk to her for a day in school.
for Kim, who goes the extra mile to visit me at my seat although i have a tendency to dao her which is really bad. but i really love her a lot.

for bev, who somehow never fails to make me smile.

for vanesa, who never gets pissed off at me despite how badly i treat her and how much i ignore her. who's always so nice and inviting me to her place and telling me new shows to watch.

for ongko and seeyue, whose densities i'm always amuse at.
seeyue, who is my sponsor for chinese zuowen paper and ongko, who likes to steal glances at me cos she really doesnt dare to ask.

for july, whose laugh is so retarded you cant help but laugh at the laugh.

for yanka, who somehow always looks for me and that is evidence that she loves me although she claims she's in the WEHATEKAT club.

for lipin! who really made my day today. it was fun studying together! and walking in the rain -.-

for stacey, who was so retarded she got bitten by inessa's dog and her whole arm is swelled up now. will pray for recovery!

and finally, last but not least, for my faithful peanut, who always manages to find me in the strangest places. i love you!

thank you Father for all these wonderful people you've put in my life and blessed me richly with. i pray you will watch over each and every one of them and guide them Father, when they're lost, alone, scared. i pray you'll use me as a blessing unto them as well.

in Jesus' name i pray,
Amen

2008-03-23T14:48:00.004+08:00

Via Dolorosa - Sandi Patti

Down the Via Dolorosa in Jerusalem that day
The soldiers tried to clear the narrow street
But the crowd pressed in to see
The Man condemned to die on Calvary

He was bleeding from a beating, there were stripes upon His back
And He wore a crown of thorns upon His head
And He bore with every step
The scorn of those who cried out for His death

Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King,
But He chose to walk that road out of
His love for you and me.
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.

Por la Via Dolorosa, triste dia en Jerusalem
Los saldados le abrian paso a Jesus
Mas la gente se acercaba
Para ver al que llevaba aquella cruz

Por la Via Dolorosa, que es la via del dolor
Como oveja vino Cristo, Rey, Senor
Y fue El quien quiso ir por su amor por ti y por mi
Por la Via Dolorosa al Calvario y a morir

The blood that would cleanse the souls of all men
Made its way through the heart of Jerusalem.

Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering
Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King
But He chose to walk that road out of His love for you and me
Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.

even as we ponder upon the true meaning of easter and what it means for God to sacrifice his Son for us, let us appreciate the greatest love for a man to die for his friend.

ive been really touched by God recently. good friday service was awesome. after walking the via dolorosa with Christ, i really was renewed. the most was really really good too. HOW 2 got second! :DDD yeah. and the movie, being refreshed even during the easter period. and today's service was awesome too. i know God has been talking to me. and i need to be still.

the movie was really really good. it's called "Most", which is Czech for bridge. i'm posting a short trailer, a longer, more detailed trailer, and also the main part of the story. for those who dont know what it's about, or are interested, do take some time to watch it. it's really good. i can't find the whole movie on youtube though. only snippets. the whole length is only bout 30 minutes. quite short. do let me know if you wanna watch the whole thing!

short trailer. 2 1/2 minutes.

long trailer. 6 1/2 minutes.

climax. 7 minutes.

i havent cried so much for so long. not everything seems to be going that well. but i need to believe. i need to have faith. that He will make my path straight.

i'm sorry if i might be a bit moody in the days to come. do let me apologise first. i dont know what might happen.

updates later. not in the mood.

edit/

just received this email. pretty good one. do take some time to read it.

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand. 'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a moment. 'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God..'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: 'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him.'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelled your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own. 'Professor, is there such a thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest-458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. 'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room.'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt theprofessor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity,the old man answers. 'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.

'God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'

The professor sat down.

pb camp

2008-03-15T00:40:00.006+08:00

cant rmb what i was supposed to blog about, but pictures anyway.

2008-03-11T20:09:00.003+08:00

I PROMISE TO UPDATE SOOOON ONCE I GET MY PICTURES UPPPP!:D

you see, it's rather difficult cos ive got 2 computers right now. and 1 can connect to the internet while the other cant. and the one that CANT has the software to download pictures from the camera onto the computer. so basically after transferring the photos, i have to transport them onto the computer that CAN connect to the internet (via thumbdrive) and after that start uploading onto blogger. so you see, it's a rather tiring process. the previous post took me likeeeeeeeee 3 days? :O the horror, i know.

ANYWAY. so yes peanut, i promise to update soon. enough.

but until then, nothing else.

I LOVE YOU JOAN.((: cheer up okay. thanks for tolerating all the shit i throw at you man. its friggin not easy, i know, but i guess that's what has been keeping our friendship going. for like what, 6 years! and im really really sorry cos im so annoying and stuff. but i love you alot alot alot okay.((: loooooooove.<3333333