katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/and i will love You all my life/-/ says:
ay help me think of a heading! for the advertisement thing
sarah says:
haha
sarah says:
what ad?
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/and i will love You all my life/-/ says:
home ec
sarah says:
oh
sarah says:
what you doing?
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/and i will love You all my life/-/ says:
adolescent male thing
sarah says:
HUH?
sarah says:
what is adolescent man.
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/and i will love You all my life/-/ says:
uh teenage according to mrs phua
sarah says:
the ad is to promote males?
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/and i will love You all my life/-/ says:
hahahaahhaahahahahaaahhaahhaah
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/and i will love You all my life/-/ says:
why the heck would you wanna promote males?
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/and i will love You all my life/-/ says:
hahahahahha
sarah says:
i dont know!
sarah says:
you never say what your ad is for!


hahah thanks thiam for making me laugh (although i dont think you realise you did)

man i needed that laugh. my mind feels pretty clear now. and i think i owe everyone an apology for that disgusting attitude in the previous two posts.

so...

IM SORRY!

haha hello yingen! thanks so much for always being there.(: really appreciate it.

hello evan! haha love ya too! (:

wow nat. huge scolding eh... in reply to your tags:
1) i got it off someone's personal message and really thought over it and well. i dunno lah. guess i felt that way lah.
2) i didnt write it to gain sympathy or anything. its my blog where i post my feelings right. and i was really feeling that way ok. i mean i felt there was so much betrayal and everything, i really didnt wanna go on anymore.
3) because i didnt write it to gain sympathy, i dont expect anything out of anyone. i dont expect sympathy, i dont expect anything. and i dont care what people think of me. if they wanna think of me as a pathetic idiot, then i cant really force them not to think that way right. its a matter of opinion.
4) like i said, i pondered over it seriously and i felt really lost. i just felt that no one was there and i dunno. i was all by myself. because of all the betrayal, hatred, backstabbing, i really dont want to live in that kind of world and face those kind of problems everyday. i know i still have a long way to go, but what im questioning is, how will i be able to carry on? how am i going to face and tackle the obstacles that are in my way? can i really live through all that? will the road be TOO long for me to go on? i know, ignore the unhappy things right and move on. but this year has been a really great jump from last year. and i really dont know if i can cope. im really doubting myself. everyones really really changed from last year and sometimes i just dont know where to go. for me friends are very important but i dont care about being invited to barbecues or parties or anything. i couldnt be bothered about that. what i really worry about is whether ill lose my friends. the thought sickens me and it scares me. im sorry. i know friendship is a two-way relationship but my friendships with other people seem to be one-way. i seem to be the only one whos really bothered about it. the other party doesnt really seem to care at all whether our friendship ends. maybe im just trying too hard. or maybe they have too many friends.
talking to new people in the sense that this year, ive been talking quite a lot to the 1e05 girls and i think thats sorta changed me. like the way i think, my temper, my mood, my emotions, everything. i do believe that God has a plan for me and everything that happens happens for a reason, and i trust Him and lay my life into His hands. i really do. it just gets lonely sometimes when youre unable to experience His love and i dunno. you start questioning. as in, you KNOW Hes there but you cant FEEL His presence. it gets kinda disheartening.
as for the whole prefect thing, i dunno if im actually capable of what others think im capable of. i feel im like starting to lose FRIENDS (whom i guess arent real ones at all) just because im a prefect. its unfair. i didnt vote myself to be a prefect. why then am i facing all this? and those FRIENDS claim to be real friends but just because they hate prefects, they start turning against me. its difficult for me. my job isnt easy. but does anyone bother to stop and think if theyre hurting me? no. because theyre all TACTLESS HEARTLESS IDIOTS. sorry if i piss [you] off. but [you] hurt me first. the [you] not refering to you, nat. i do my assigned tasks to the best of my abilities, but my best doesnt seem good enough. and my best always fails. why am i trying so hard then? im searching for answers. but i cant find any. should i then give up this search?

i dont wanna feel this way, depressed and all that either. but its from my past experiences. i dont want those memories to come back and haunt me. maybe im just being a coward and trying to hide from everything.

ok, so everyone's pissed off at me and not telling me WHY they're pissed off at me. its ridiculous! well you know what, IM PISSED OFF TOO. you guys arent the only ones pissed off ok. i am too. but no, no ones giving a shit bout anything right. and all start calling me fake and hypocritical and all that. i dont see why i should care. its an awful 100th post. but heck. no one bothers anyway.

well if i died, there'd be one less person to worry bout.
no wait. no one would even bother. so it really makes no difference then huh?

FREEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK.

everythings changed so much. i mean, good things and bad things. but argh! for some stupid reason im so super pissed. i think being in 2h and like talking a lot to new people has really affected me a lot. but argh! i just cant describe it! its really irritating. like this thing has really been bothering me but I DONT KNOW WHAT!

heck. i shall just ignore it. and be um. happy. yes. happy is good.

WHOOHOO!!!!!!!!!

go 2h! ahha we won mass skipping man. it was cool. we did like 16 in the first round haha and got into finals. then we did 32! hahahah we pwn man. hahahah. but the practice wasnt too good though. got like super super pissed lah. but neevrmind. our highest was 40 though. but IT WAS A GOOD EFFORT!(:

haha. but im very very tired lah. woke up at 4.15 to do math and study bio. then had pe, mass skipping and walked home in the rain. took one hour lah. so long. and so im very tired now. haha. but i feel happy. dunno why. for so reason i feel so...accomplished. haha

had bio test today lah. and got history back. eh. didnt fail but didnt do too well either. i think i failed bio though. left blanks. hahah

aiya NOTHING ELSE TO BLOG ABOUT ALREADY BYE!

OOH WAIT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARISA!<33

katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
i dont feel like [blogging] anymore liao
char=) says:
haha
char=) says:
WHY
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
dunno
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
nothing to blog bout
char=) says:
hahah
char=) says:
HAVE ALOT!
char=) says:
haha
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
haha lie what
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
like
char=) says:
haha
char=) says:
like
char=) says:
i was so depressed today
char=) says:
BUT CHAR CHEERED ME UP!
char=) says:
I LOVE CHAR
char=) says:
SHE ROCKS
char=) says:
hahahahah
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
haha whatever man char!
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
hahahah
char=) says:
hahaha
char=) says:
its not watever
char=) says:
ITS TRUE
char=) says:
*WHATEVER
char=) says:
haha

yeah ok thats it.

happy vday all! <33

ian thinks ive got a guy husband. hahahha

ok. so today i cried. and i was very very upset. stupid 2m. i hate you guys!

but honestly. congrats. i bet lyns smirking away somewhere. pffffffffffft.

okok, i shall not be a sore loser.

lesse what i got today:

11 flowers. 10 roses, 1 tulip from jo. 2 roses from teachers, 1 definitely from mrs nat lim. the second one dunno who. then i got from suyi, vicky, lesley, enqi, lianne and andreeeeeeeeeeee. <33 thank you all. and to everyone else too! to grace, bimb, nic, mariko, meg, diane, grace, belicia, marisa, soph, lydia, jo, san, nat, von and liselle! (: i hope i didnt miss out on anyone. haha.

yepp. nothing much today. had lit test and tmr chinese test. wish me luck!

hm. vday dethorning. i'm never touching another rose again.

eh i'm so very tired! wow. sigh. ok lesse. i shall just cope and paste.


katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
i'm super duper tired lah!
sarah It's just a metaphor. says:
why!
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
this whole week right
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
oim super drained lah
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
like 3 tests 1 spa
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
then on friday stayed back quite late to do vday decor
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
then sat morning reached school at 7 to do decor again
sarah It's just a metaphor. says:
ahaha
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
ended at abt 3.15
sarah It's just a metaphor. says:
yall did deco?
sarah It's just a metaphor. says:
i didnt see.
sarah It's just a metaphor. says:
I WAS THERE ON SAT.
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
then today woke up at 745 go church and everything
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
then after that we as in me my sis and friend had to carry cartons of roses and daisies into lorry to bring to school
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
then after that dethorned for like 3 to 4 hours straight
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
then after that packed up and all and i had to pack up my class
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
and im not finished so i gotta go early tmr to finish packing up
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
then i havent finished hw
sarah It's just a metaphor. says:
OMIGOSJ
sarah It's just a metaphor. says:
katt i pity you.
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
im super tired
katt-SAMA!!squee!![mac]katsonthekatster/-/you're AWESOME in this place/-/ says:
then i got like small little cuts on my thumbs cos of the thorns


there. but dethorning was fun today lah. kanna cut like crap though. i dont ever wanna touch a rose again! but thats not possible cos i got flowers duty on tuesday. seh. got coop during recess too. and lit test. sigh. im really tired man.

did i mention i havent finish clearing my class?

yes. i did. ok. not very long post but it'll make do i s'pose.

hm i seem to be posting on intervals of 2 days. haha. ok, out of point. but nevermind.

well, yeah everyone's blogging less la, but seriously, we're all crazily busy and stuff so lets be patient.
hm ok lesse. today i woke up at 4.50 to finish cutting up the letters for vday decor. ahha then mum sent me down to school and we started and worked and worked and worked and in the midst some left. haha BUT I STAYED THE WHOOOOOOOOOOLE TIME OK FROM 7.10 TO 3.15. ok so i didnt. i went to eat lunch. but as in i didnt arrive late or leave early lah. yeah. if you guys get what i mean lah. yeah. ok anyway. the people who went today were gis, andree, carisser, lyddie, kara, nic, bimb and me. ((((((: yay. thank you people so much~!!! today we managed to complete the decor but class is still in a mess hm. but nevermind! i'll clear it up tomorrow after dethorning. (: but like WOW, really. our class really really looks very very nice. (((: haha i wish i had a digicam then can take all the pictures i want and post. RAWRRRRRRRRRRR WHY DONT I HAVE A DIGICAM. pfffffffft. i think our class is really very nice! hahah like we spent so much time, money and effort on it, if we dont win, i think i might cry. and i think ours is much nicer than 2m's. ahahah no offence but when i last saw 2m they havent completed it. the outside is realy nice though. i shall see it tmr after dethorning. haha.

since i cant take pictures, i shall describe what my class looks like to you. i'm so proud of us! (:

ok. lets start from when you come through the door. when you step in, the first thing you'll see is pink and purple crepe paper hanging from the fans. and when you turn them on, they look real cool although they're noisy. but it sounds like rain and its comforting. when the fans are off, they crepe paper just hangs down as almost non existant drapes. ahhahah. but they give a nice feel. then once you've seen the fans, you'll see the windows! they're covered in celaphyne (sp?) randomly on the glass pieces. and they're really really nice! then when you look in front of the window, you see pink and purple hearts hanging from the ceiling. and when the wind blows, it looks really nice! and when you walk under it also. wow! and i'm super proud of it cos i hung it up. ahahha but bimb made them though. and then when you look up, there's a small wall that reads "LOVE ACTUALLY" which andree very nicely made. its kinda out of proportion but very nice anyhow. aaaaaaaaand i'm so proud of it! haha. then below the windows we stuck different different sweets on the wall. (:
hm then beside the windows, you see this wall full of lyrics on different coloured construction paper. the lyrics are from really nice love songs and stuff. then moving over to the wall, we stuck silver and red m&ms on the wall ina very nice pattern and it looks super super artistic. then cos the m&ms wall juts out a bit, then wall beside the m&ms wall is a really big, flat wall which has our backboard. and i'm really happy with it too cos its so colourful and super contrasting so the colours stand out really nicely. haha and above the board, there are nicely wrapped big big candies. fake ones of course. ahah but they look real nice! and then below the board, where they put the plastic thing over the wires for safety reasons, we stuck hearts there and wow. it adds a whole lot more colour. mmhmm. then beside the board there is a memory verse WHICH I AM EXCEPTIONALLY PROUD OF BECAUSE I SPENT THE WHOLE OF LAST NIGHT AND A BIT OF THIS MORNING CUTTING THE LETTERS AND I STUCK THE NICELY TO THE WALL AND THEY LOOK REAL NICE. ahah. yeah its John 13:34 which was also our orientation camp theme verse:
"A new commandment I give unto you: love one another. As I have loved you, so you must Love one another."
yay! (: and i'm really happy with it. ok, so moving on, on the tiles beside the doors, we stuck different pictures on alternate tiles and they really look nice. (: andree did like all of them lah. like wow wow wow. there are 2 sets of tiles lah, so they're all different. and very nice too. (: then in the middle of the 2 sets of tiles, there are 4 pillars and on the second and fourth pillar, we made like huge roses and stuck them on. and then on the first and third bimb wrote "love" then "is...." it was something like love is a mystery love i cannot rmb anymore. hhah oh well. yeah then on top we put like blocks of different sizes randomly and they look real nice! (: then at the sides we put different coloured strips of paper. to add colour. and its all very nice. then at the front of the classroom, on the side board reads "sweet love" which bimb very nicely made. haha then on top of the whiteboard we stuck more sweets (very big ones) on the wall and there are 2 speakers which we transformed into very huge sweets. haha. (: and it all looks very nice! then on the sides of the tables we pasted strips of bright pink paper and we put a pouch in front of the table with sweets inside! and the pouches are personalised. (: ahha can you guys imagine it! so nice right! i shall try to take pictures. haha. ok lesse what i need to take photos of:
-whole view
-fans
-windows
-hearts
-LOVE ACTUALLY wall
-sweets on wall below windows
-lyrics wall
-m&ms wall
-backboard
-candies above backboard
-hearts below backboard
-memory verse
-transparent tiles and the pictures close up
-far view of right side of class
-roses
-love phrases
-"rainbows"
-blocks
-sweet love
-sweets above whiteboard
-speakers (diff b/w nic and mine)
-overall view of front of class
-pouches
-pink strips
-overall view (final)

hahah ok i need to borrow someone's camera man. haha. i cant remember if i missed anything out. i hope i didnt but i guess i shall just add whatever i have forgotten in. yay. (: so excited. WE BETTER WIN MAN. or i shall cry.

haha ok

since somebody was complaining so much about no one blogging nowadays, i shall post. but i guess we kinda stopped cos like we're all really busy and all right. so yeah but i shall stop my hiatus. haah i'm such a loser. ahah no determination one.

i have decided to be an active blogger! well, as active as i can be anyway. hahahah.

ooh. i'm real glad. i managed to find my glasses! <33 haha so yeah.

hm today we had like, 3 free periods cos flim didnt come and she had 2 periods with us and pandian was on course. hist test tmr. shit, i'm scared. =x

eheheheh. shawn still rocks. come to think of it i have yet to visit their blogs. ahhahah.

oh yes. i'm pissed at laoshi. she said she'll take us to watch and today she said she buy dvd then we watch. wth lah! i wanna watch in the ciiiiiineeeeeeeeeeemaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. noooooooooooooooo. someone please go watch with meeeeeeee! ):

eh. today talked to the veggies a lot. haha we spent like one over hour talking lah. like woah. ahhahah. i still wonder how we could have talked for so long lah. like. it was really really long.

and nat came in during history to tell me about her dream. hahah and i was like what. so random. haha nat i think you're stressed man. haha brain working overtime eh. haha

yeah then had math remedial. wa super pissed lah. i cant do math for shit. imma fail. pfffffffffft. diediedie.

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. HERE WE COME! (:

hm i still dunno everyone from my chinese class oh dear. shall i make an effort to or just ignore them? hm...

hm i shall dedicate a post to everyone sometime. ahha. if i have the time though. eh. but i dont think anyone will actually read them lah. HECKKK.

PFFFFFFFFFFFT. angry angry angry. >(((((((((

i wanna cry!!! just 2 days into school and i have lost my very expensive and nice glasses. crap lah. this really sho0ws how irresponsible and forgetful i am! ugh!!!! i'm damn pissed now man. stupid stupid stupid. and honestly, no one is helping.


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. imma distant myself from everyone. rawr.



BUT!

shawn lee still rocks.

HIATUS

i have to stop myself from blogging lest i fail all my test! >(

upset at stupid math. rawr.

oh i have to resist from my phone too. oh dear.

coolio. got my glasses. yay.(:

yay happy birthday bimb. (: i owe you earrings. haha

anyway. well today kinda sucked. eh. but it was ok lah. kinda slack. hahah.

geylang invest tmr. i still dunno what time we're excused, how to get there and back. EHHH. die die die

stop laughing becky. its not funny.

and thanks char phang! <33

hm. wow. havent blogged for quite some time. or so i feel that way. reply to tags first!!

sarah - ya funky dude! hahahah. man, you're cool. haha. thanks for stickin around during this time k. really appreciated it. at least got someone to talk to. and you're real fun man! (: its cool having you around and dont stay mad too long aight! i know you cant dao lah. haha and cannot stay mad for more than an hour. haha but it was cool knowing you. haha and your stupid ice cream thing. hahah

meg - ahha 'lo meg! <33 haha YES I'M YOUR FRIEND TOO DEAR!!!!(: haha it's really sweet of you to like, bother so much about me. haha. really really love you! and thanks a whole lot too dear!(:

joan - haha thanks joan. yes, we're too cool for them man. but seriously, chill it k. and dont keep it to yourself. now, you got ME, your jie, AS YOUR FRIEND TOO and please please please, if you really need to talk or bash it out on somone, come look for me k. (:

supervisor! - man i owe you loads dude! ahha thanks so much for being around and giving me all your crap when i needed it. theres no height limit for singapore idol ok. haha. that song's been stuck in my head for quite some time now, thanks to you. but its cool. (: thanks so much for cheering me up and being so crappy and lame. haha. you're so fun and cool and i'm really blessed man. really glad i gotta know you! and your plastic bottle too!(:

grace - haha hello grace! (: ahah so sorry i didnt call. i forgot. i guess. haha but i'll call you this week! ay it seems that i'm the only one calling and you not calling lah! ahha. you want application form? go my class and get from me! haha

charrrr - hello char!(: haha thanks much for listening to me and all my rubbish. felt loads better after that. wow,i never knew char could be so nice. haha yes yes i aint angsty no more man. haha. i'm ok liao lah. it doesnt really matter to me that much, after giving it a lot of thought. like, if thats the kind of friends i have, then they aint much of a friend. but it was cool talking to you. and you better go church this week man!

yes yes. i have nothing to blog now. haha