[10.00 p.m. 31st december 2005]

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no more watch night service. and i was looking forward to it too!

ok kat! you gotta recover faster! in about 2 hours time its gonna be year 2006! you cant start the new year coughing!

sigh. it really sucks man. haha. ok this is kinda gonna be a long post cos its gonna be reflections of 2005 and resolutions of 2006.

tmr is dad's birthday! <33

i was watching winnie the pooh the other day and like there was this part when rabbit got really angry cos they were messing up his house and all that. and then he was like "i dont ever want to see a honey-munching pooh bear, a terrified piglet, a bouncing tigger and an upset donkey. i'm leaving!" all because they almost broke his rabbit plant. and they all didnt want to see rabbit go so they said "we should change so rabbit wont leave."

what really struck me was that although their thinking was naive and simple, they were still willing to change just because of one friend. how many times do we think like the four of them? how many times do we think like rabbit? we say things that we dont realise hurts others. we are willing to give up friendship just because of an object. we are selfish and the world revolves around ourselves. sometimes, innocence really is a gift.

sometimes we say things that arent meant to be hurtful, but everyone views them differently. we just dont notice it. and in fact, we dont notice a whole lot of other things too.

2005 has been a fruitful, tiring and different year. many events took place, stressful and fun, emotional and being sick. this year, after being nominated as class chairperson, i should have known that there would be many challenges ahead, especially in secondary school. orientation day, we got to bond with our class, and i'm really quite happy that i was in 1h. although there were many many times of losing my voice and all, being all emotional and stuff, i think 1h is one of the best classes in my 7 years in mg. (: happy pink hippos, i'll never forget us! orientation camp was great. although tiring, it really helped us bond. at least i felt that way. and in some ways we also got to bond with the other classes. (: so thats good.

april, syf drama. got to work with the seniors and really learnt a lot from them! earned a silver. (:

in may, became a pt and new there were plenty more challenges coming my way.

june, church camp + my birthday. (:
this year's birthday has definitely been different. for one, i spent it waking up at 4.30 in the morning, at the airport, on the plane and in thailand. plus, i celebrated with norman. haha i find that most amusing. (: but anyhow, yeah. and many many people's birthdays also took place during church camp! like mine was on the 7th, char's was on the 8th (though she didnt go), 9th was uncle haiting (if i'm not wrong) and 10th was marcus'. during church camp i got to know isaac and steph, got closer to sandra and ian and it was really fun!it was really really great getting to know you guys better. and of course, a lot of other memories too!

july
haha i got this blog. haha. yeah i remember i did it in school. haha and jie's birthday too! (: held a party for her.
1h also got an overseas visitor. (: she was nice, hong konger. but i think she was scared of me. but i didnt get to spend too much time with her. cos of all the upcoming national projects and inkwell also.

aug
the opening of project inkwell. i got to work with a few of the drama people and got to know them a lot better! well, months before but yeah. and i got the experience of doing a monolouge. its really quite scary lah. haha. but it was definitely fun!
and of course, the all well-loved annual festival of praise. this year was actually my first year of hearing of it and attending it and it was really an eye opener for me. i mean, i've never felt so alive in praising God and feeling His powerful presence. i was revived and reminded of His love when He sent Jesus to die for us. and when i saw the many people accepting Christ i just broke down again because all of them were like smiling and i kinda felt it. it was like. an indescribable joy coming from within. it was truly an event that really was really God-focused.

september
i think it was around this time of the year that i was suicidal. everything was just really getting to me and i couldnt hope. all the stress from 1h, being the class chair and all, family problems during that time and also the exams were nearing. pw presentation was also ahead and it was like, a whole lot of stress really. during that time i just completely turned away from God and i just forgot about Him. i forgot He was always there for me. and also of course, friendship problems. yeah. that time of the year was bad. really quite bad. i cried a lot and i was having really negative thoughts. but God sent friends to show me how much he really cared for me. actually come to think of it, it was much earlier. but in september i was depressed again. sigh.

october
ah everyones favourite month.exams. ahaha yeah. was kinda a month i dont remember. but i know i got a lot closer to giselle. (:

november, last month! (:
i had singapore children's society musical performance which was really fun! i got to know some seniors better and they're really not as bad as you think! obviously some of them are, but its really good exposure and experience.
and then of course, prefects' camp! KRAFT! really got to know the other prefects a lot better and learnt a lot of new things. i think our batch is a really fun batch and i hope we'll remain that way! and found out i was in 2h. ahah.
then i also got to know nat. (: which i think is really fun cos or else i'll just be like daoing her and all. and she'll probably hate me. haha. and of course got to know thiam like a lot earlier, but i dont remember when i'm sorry!
mm. some depressing times in november but its all over! (:
yepp then went for rae and kjelt's outing thing and had music sunday too! (:
and spring cleaning! haha.

dec!
sunday school camp! really a great experience. it was really a lot of fun and excitement for that 3 days 2 nights. i actually dreaded going but i dont regret! i got to know yingen,cherie, marcus and felicia! and i'm really really glad. God already had like everything worked out for me. and i got to know yihui better! and we also started our maidship. (: and also i got to know mariko a lot a lot better. and everyone else too, for that matter. haha. and i got the best maid award. haha.
i went out with grace and vicky and vicky and nat haha. and got to know nat more (:
and of course, not forgetting the watermelon party (where i got to know abigail) and the christmas party (where i got to know seniors)
and then the uploading of photos! haah and the video.
and then sec 1 registration. ahah good exposure eh! and also christmas. and boxing day. haha yet again very different this year. and got to know mabel and family a lot more. nice nice people and theyre my relatives. (:
and of course, my falling sick and seeing cherie too many tiems in school. and then agm! where i got to bond with a few of the prefects and my comm as well!

yepp. and today, was pretty ok, just that i couldnt pack the room cos of the rain and we went to eat at pizza hut for dinner! I GOT MY HOLLY JOLLY PIZZA THAT I WANTED THANK YOU MUM! <33
we ate there to celebrate the last day of 2005. this year, i actually noticed it was the last day.

this year, i got ignored a whole lot of times! and i am unhappy about it and i got daoed a lot of times too by SOMEONE. whom i shall not mention. sigh.

as we usher in the new year in about 1/2 hour's time, ( i know, i type slow but there have been distractions!) we should make our resolutions! ok, so i'm late. but nevermind!

next year, i'm really hope its gonna be a good year. being a prefect and all.i really hope i'm able to meet up to everyones expectations. not forgetting God, i want my walk with Him to be even closer so that i wont feel the threat from the devil at anytime. im hoping i get to know all my new friends ive made this year better next year. and that our ss class can be more bonded! pb can be more bonded! 2h'06 will be more bonded! charis maidship be more bonded! because all of you are a great and fun bunch of people and without any one of you guys, my life would be so different. i hope i'll be able to really concentrate on my studies and achieve good grades. and of course, change for the better.
i also wish everyone would stp ignoring me because it really isnt a nice feeling being ignored! and i want to stop being told to shut up. ): oh and try not to exceed smses! i shall also try to be more optimistic and enthu and try not to think negative thoughts because i know everything that happens happens for a reason and its all in God's perfect plan! (:

of course a whole lot more, but i shall not go on. this is a really long post. i intend to post till 12. haha. to say happy new year everyone! ahha.

my reflections and resolutions being done (somewhat haha), i shall make an edit to my previous post!

the shortest post of the year: monday, october 17, 2005

haha. ok. that was random. reply to tags!

hi denise! thanks for introducing me to stupid comics. i shall blog about that another time! (:

haha no no! not addicted, supervisor! cos play 2 times in a week, so got the craving lor! haha! it will die off!

haha hello charisse! haha yeah but i found your blog before you found mine! haha. thanks for tagging! (:

HELLO IAN! haha why go ma'ams house? she got mahjong table anot!

the end of year 2005 is coming in about 10 minutes. i will really miss this year, but the memories will definitely remain. (: and nothing will change them. whether i drift apart from you, be it i knew you for some time or just knew you, or i get closer to you, i will still remember you and all the fun times we've had together. (: you got a place in my heart mate!

i was reading through my previous posts and like. wow. my style of writing has really changed from just july! this is why blogs are useful! (: haha.

i have decided to give you guys your shoutouts on paper! (: though it'll be overdue lah. haha. its ok right! new year shoutouts! (:

al right. 7 more minutes. (: i know its kinda pointless waiting but its ok. (:

6 minutes. this year has been really really great and fun knowing all of you who has really changed my life whether you want to believe it or not! (:

5 minutes. you either get your shoutout on sunday or on tuesday, haha

4 minutes! c5 is showing sky symphony countdown. (:

3 minutes, i have nothing else to say

2 minutes, aminah's being ego!

1 minute! :DDDDDDDDDD get ready y'all!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

[12.00 a.m. 1st jan 2006]