couldnt post yesterday cos was out the whole day. hmm...


lesse


saturday night smsed lipin until siao, until like 2 +. then woke up sunday morning 7+ cranky like crazy. hahah. went to church and class was really good. pat taught us that when we read God's word, we must understand it. because if we dont, we wont be firmly rooted in God and we will be easily swayed. and when we are rooted in God, we have to read his word daily so that we can gain nourishment from him to stay strong. also talked bout our attitudes in receiving God's word. what type of hearts do we have? can God's word grow in our hearts? what kind of "land" is our hearts? do we not understand God's word, and the wicked one can come and snatch it away? are we the kind who hears the word and immediately receives it with joy, but does not understand it and is not rooted in the word, so the joy is short lived?or perhaps our hearts are like thorns, and when God's word falls upon our hearts, and the wordly items or worries surrounds us and we choke the word and become unfruitful.


or are we the kind who receives the word joyously with an open heart, understands the word, and continues to take nourishment from the word daily and our roots grow strong in God? our hearts are good ground and we are fruitful.


i think most of the time, im the third kind of heart. right now, what is on my mind is mainly the musical. ive been so worried about it, ive completely forgotten to trust in God. and yet, he's still there waiting for me to leave it all to him. siiiiiiigh. i shall need to meditate.


then i was doing musical stuff in the basement and then A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE SUDDENLY CAME STREAMING IN. ahha to celebrate felicia, char and my birthdays. how sweet. and they like got cake and presents and all that. then they gave presents. got baby sylvester bedroom slippers which im wearing right now. its so cute. hahah. thanks ian, yihui, cherie, adriel, san, david and everyone else! i cant quite remember who. but thanks anyhow! (:


after church we went to toa payoh to walk around and hang until gdop. finally got my school shoes. hahaha then went to library and read until i fell asleep. for a short while. hung round toa payoh quite long. then we went back to church and down to national stadium and then gdop was so good. it was seriously, i dunno how to say. but everyone just came together and united as one in Christ. it was really touching. and it was just a time of praising God and lifting his name on high. i even saw astrid there! haha. yeah. and the speakers/organisers shared quite a lot. and one song really affected me.


i dont quite remember it. but i will. (: eventually. then i shall post bout why and how it affected me.


yepp. and when it came to offerings, i put in all my money. and though i knew that id be broke the rest of the week, it still felt good. it made me feel. nice. haha. i dunno. just suddenly felt very happy. yeah. and the rest of the night was just really fun. and once in a while id look up at the moon. and think of camp. ahha. siigh. i still miss camp.


today. went to school, had meeting, assembled in audi, started rehearsal. first run wasnt too bad, but it was emotionless, second run was much much better. maybe cos of ms kon's presence or something. ahha. yeah. nothing much today lah. got emo AGAIN. man i need to buck up. siiiiiiigh. being so mood swingy lately.


i realised that i have a very bad habit of not replying to my tags. hm. i shall um. try to reply as much as possible! yes!


i shall start from meibin!


hello meibin! yeah i still miss camp. but its all right. the memories will live in us always! haha. yes, im hectic-er than you! haha no lah im ok lah. haha


thank you pomelo for being so supportive. ahhaha nah thanks loads for the slippers!


hello salad! hahahha yeah im surprised my group bonded so well. cos of me lah. ahahahhah nah just kidding. yeah i really hope prefects camp will be fun!(:


hello astrid! yeah had loads of fun at gdop. hope you had too! i still havent eaten my biscuit. haha


hey cheryl! yes my birthday is like. tomorrow. ahha. not really looking forward to it now though. sigh. its all right though! thanks!


i just realised that my people are actually using my gmail account to add me on msn. i didnt even know i activated my gmail on msn. and no joan, i didnt tell anyone i had gmail. i merely sent them a email. plus, gmail is only for work.


pffft. accidentally deleted a contact.


hm. this year's birthday is really so exciting. and i was SO looking forward to it. everyone's leaving on that date, it's at least 4 other peoples' birthdays as well, youve got bloody rehearsals, if not, meetings on that day and its absolutely no rest and you just cant get your mind off stuff. brilliant isnt it.


like shit. what a happy 14th.


hope nic's all right.