Mary did you know?

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love
All because of love

I finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him
And all that I do every word that I say
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

this Christmas was good and bad. it started off really good in the morning. service was fun and lunch was fun and everything. and then after that mum and dad got really rude and i got pissed off. i mean, i guess i dont have a right to be pissed off at them, but they were so insensitive. i wont go into details.

after that went to grandparents place. nothing to do either. wasted a whole lot of time. then went over to the cheongs and honestly, i felt super awkward there. it was quite bad for me cos i was just. there. but im thankful to justin cos he made me feel at least welcome. so, thank you justin. ((: but when more people like keith, stef and rhoda came then it got a bit better so yeah.

mmhmm. not much lah really. this year's Christmas... i dunno. i think i prefer gatherings with school friends (eg jakk) rather than xs people. maybe cos i dont quite know them yet. but i dunno. but i definitely dont mind my own cell. xs is just a bit big. and i hate to say this, but sometimes church people really annoy me. ):

anyway. jakk and others picnic yesterday was loads fun. like really. i havent laughed like that in a long time. and it felt really good. so thank you kim abby joan belicia suyi. and joan your present is awesome.((: kim your present is really cute. i will use it next year.((:

i found my other half (unfortunately) and we fed turtles and fish and swans! and the stupid swan lake only had two swans. so lousy lah. but it was still loads of fun. and egyptian masquerade after that. thank you thank you thank you all sooooo much. i love yall alot alot alot.

i will post pictures another day all right. when i collect from abby and belicia. and in case i have other pictures worth posting. haha.

joan! i want the super embarrassing video. ((: thank you.

all right. i will stop here. happy boxing day! :D

i want to be there for you.

coffee prince parodies hahaha hilarious.





donghae is super cute! ahahha.


KANGIN((((:








hahaha omg kangin is damn funny.


ahahha so cute.((:


ooh! mnet top 19 couples! :D

no. 2 - jaeho
no. 6 - kangteuk
no. 8 - yoosu
no. 9 - eunhae
no. 11 - junhyuk
no. 13 - shicul

kangin and honggi. wahh at about 1:03, 1:24 honggi looks a bit like kangin. and joan's honggi poster looks super like kangin lahhhhh.


I LOVE YOU ABIGAIL GOH. ((: thanks for the post.

aish. i havent blogged for really long. i know i said id go on hiatus, but i figured i wont have time when school reopens so... oh well.

anyway. had cell123 christmas party on 21st. it was suuuuper fun. with lotsa food and lotsa cards. ahahhah. it was a really nice time. then went tracting on 22nd. a lot funner than i thought. i should go more often. then today had cos! today's cos was super good! i love my group. ((:

christmas is two days away. im still trying to get myself into the spirit. nothing's happening though. hahah. aish. oh well.

got cos christmas gathering on 26th. then got cc sleepover then agm and training on 27th and then outing gang on 28th. ohh no. and jakk+extras (hahah) tmr at botanics. cham liao. no time. hahah. oh and on 29th cell party! die. haaaaaaaaaaaaah. so jialat.

anyway. during cell123 christmas celebration i was listing my ambitions (in no particular order):
1. teacher
2. lawyer
3. actress/showbiz/media
4. singer
5. psychologist
6. vet
7. baker
8. chef
9. start a band
10. missionary
11. blogger
12. i cant remember.

hahaha but anyway. none of them have and are going to come true. ): oh wells.

anyway. hahah yah. ive got nothing else alr. i will blog more after the many events?((:

born to raise the sons of earth
born to give them second birth

stop acting so perfect and flawless and everything. im so sick of you always trying to put yourself in good light. everyone seems to like you, everyone thinks you're so funny. i dont get it.

it's really quite tiring trying to keep up with you. i wanna let go. i really want to. you never listen to me anyway. it's sickening. you ask me what to do, and you dont listen. then dont ask in the first place.

you dont care about the people who care about you and who are really always always there for you. you only care for the people you want to care about, even if they always piss you, you seem totally okay with it. it's disgusting. it's sickening. it's annoying.

i used to think the world of you. now i think im blind.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

YES I CUT MY HAIR((((:

by myself. i am so pro. hahaha. and i cut fringe! im the coolest manssss. hahaha.

hahaa anyway. ive been on a mission lately. a bit busy lah. and i havent been able to sleep at night! it's terrible. like. my average is 4am and i wake up at like 8 or 9. it really sucks. i wanna sleep also cannot. AHHHHHHHHHH WHATS HAPPENING TO ME?!

anyway. ive been spending way too much money man. on suju stuff. hahaha actually not really. i spent more on larc. but haiyar.

aiyoh i think im dying. my stomach really hurts and im like dirty and digusting all over.

and youtube so slow! take so long to load. imma go on hiatus alr. nothing to blog bout liao.

but i'll be back sooon.(((((:

i love you blog!<3

take me deeper
deeper in love with You

suju saranghaeyo<3

hahaha i have been totally hooked on to suju. so unlike me lah. chae-yonnie! all your fault man. if we hadnt been stuck in your room while you and kim were having tuition i wouldnt have seen kangin's smile and i wouldnt have gotten hooked. hahha. but so much love.

im surprised i can actually remember all the members eh. and dbsk too! hahaha. im still learning ft island and big bang. yay next year abby will have someone to talk to! :O

hahaha aish. i cant take it. they're a damn funny bunch. and super junior full house is really like. pointless. hahaha. but it's a good destresser. makes you laugh a lot.

ahhhh donghae!! he and eeteuk are so sweet lah. hahaha.


hahaha kangin is hilarious. poor teukie! ahhaha.


ahhhh heechul is damn smart! hahaha. and damn pretty.


kangteuk! hahahaha.


and anti climax, this cat is damn cute.


chae-yon ah! you still owe me SJ poster aye! and a cap. ((: you're the best!


lots of eeteuk love ahead!








he looks damn cute in this mv when he blew towards the flower. aye he's like a little girl!


love!