maybe i'm asking for too much?

i can't find it!
the bond that i broke

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"But sometimes we get sad about things and we don't like to tell other people that we are sad about them. We like to keep it a secret. Or sometimes we are sad but we don't really know we are sad. So we say we aren't sad. But really we are."

feeling sad about something that isn't real and doesn't exist is stupid.