the cocoa tree

mmmmmm

havent posted seriously for quite long. i seem to have lost my memories.

sunday 30/11/2008
helped out with the p1 sunday school class. and i remembered what it was like writing with a normal pencil, and the pain it took to write just one sentence. well, the work the kids had to do was to write down all the old testament books of the bible. and it took incredibly and painstakingly long. and honestly, at the start of the lesson, i was kinda like "crap can they hurry or not, this lesson is gonna take forever." but when i sat beside them and watched them write, i realised that each and everyone of them was writing seriously and as fast as they could. and i realised how much i have overlooked the ability to write and spell. the kids were really great; everytime they made a mistake, they didnt try to cover it up or cancel it (like i would), but they would ask for the eraser, rub out the mistakes, and patiently correct it. i couldnt tell them to hurry up anymore, cos i knew that each one of them was giving their best. and there are a lot of things i dont understand about them and whats going on in their heads, how they are thinking, what they are thinking about, but i think during jan, if possible i want to learn a bit more.

another question that's been bothering me is whether i should teach JXS or not. cos it seems like they need help with the teachers, but currently im with the sunday school group, which doesnt seem to need as much help as the JXS. and i really think that teaching JXS will be a lot more fulfilling for me, in terms of my spiritual growth. and maybe also my mental growth. still praying bout it, hopefully i'll make up my mind soon.

after church, during dinnerish, went for family gathering. it wasnt as bad as i expected, probably because i was the one barbecueing. so i have come to the conclusion that the best position for me in my family, would be the maid. it's pretty good, cos then i dont need to talk to anyone (cos "im busy" is an excuse) and i wont be asked stupid questions. and i wont be idle. and time passes a whole lot faster. mmmmm.

or maybe the night was that bad because a certain someone wasnt there.

monday 1/12/2008
i spent the morning at home watching videos cos i had nothing else to do. then char came over at about 3 plus and then we left to get her prom dress and then went for the ccis training. although it wasnt really training training, more like a briefing, im still wondering whether i should go for it or not.

i mean, to say this now might be a little rude, but honestly, if i were one of those walking on the streets, i definitely wouldnt want some guru to come up to me while im on the streets. im a bit hesitant bout it, but i think that since i went for the training, God probably has something in store for me. i need to pray a lot more.

and really, im just hoping that ccis will turn out well. that there will be rewards for all the efforts from the organisers etc. ahhhhhhhhhh.

ahhh i was really quite annoyed when we went to get char's dress. cos the service was really really bad. blum and co. terribly terrible. honestly. it was plain awful. char was told that she could collect her dress at about 3pm, or late afternoonish, so we went at about 5 plus. and then the person said that the dress will only come at 630. so we went back again at 630 and then the stupid person at the counter (different from the earlier one) totally ignored us. i was crazily annoyed and it was really bad service. i mean, good service means that every customer is equally important and the moment they step into your shop, someone should be there ready to tend to the customer. that particular person ahh, super jialat. we stood at the counter and she ignored us, and then some other person came with a dress and she was all like "oh you want to try this?" ahhhhhhh EVERY CUSTOMER IS EQUALLY IMPORTANT REGARDLESS OF AGE OKAY! i was really really displeased. and they left us waiting for soooooooo long and in the end we didnt even get the dress. WHAT KIND OF BOUTIQUE IS THAT?! hmph. DONT EVER GO THERE I TELL YOU.

tuesday 2/12/2008
as usual, nothing happened again, but jie had to get ready for her prom. and i realised that make up makes a huge change in people's looks. it really can turn anyone pretty. and jie's dress is even more amazing. when i get the pictures ill post it up. my sister's become pretty~~~!:D

ahhaha yeah. nothing much today, another wasted day. and im having an awful awful headache. actually, it's been on and off for quite long. im really quite scared i got tumour. or maybe i need to get out of the house.

tmr ecp with recess table(i think?) i hope it will be good. like i havent seen those people for so long, i wonder if it'll be awkward. ahhhhhh. howwww. but i NEED to get out of the house. ahh honestly im a bit worried.

im excited for youth camp! although im not like really involved or anything, but im still excited about it. of course, there's the usual uncertainly about the group im gonna be in and stuff, but i know that God has already planned my group for me and he will see me through it. haha makes it sound as though my church people are bad eh. but no lah, im just a bit.. well, not everyone is that friendly. not to me at least. but i hope that they will be nice at least for youth camp.

okayyy. it's a long post. i am unproductive, because i am kat.

[edit]i will do a drama post soon. soon.[/edit]