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okayyyy yes i have no life. but im BACK! and better than ever (seriously).

so! because i recently cannot remember things that happen in my life, i shall tell you my new and improved way of helping me remember! haha okay no lah. its just that i got my arashi calendar from saltypeanuts@lj. but im a bit upset cos it was really quite crumpled and creased. so i complained. and i got a 40% off the calendar ahhaha. so when i order something that's $4 next time, i get it free. :D complaining is champion. hahahha. but yes. i guess im okay with the calendar save for the creases. but it's quite thin. and quite small. and quite hard to write in cos there's so little space, so im using it for appointments and birthdays mainly. i should stick stickynotes on it so i wont ruin it. but then it becomes useless. haiyar.

oh yeah in my previous previous entry i complained so much bout the bus that i didnt bother to blog. last wednesday went cycling with grace, lianne, yanka and joan. and i got a foot tan. which sucked. but it's pretty much faded now; still embarrassing though. i realised that i really really like cycling. i can cycle like forever and ever lah. i dont think ill ever get sick of it. but nooooo my parents dont want to buy me a bicycle. and even kelly advises me against it. whyyyyy. isnt it good to invest in a bike? ._.

thursday lipin and i went to vanesa's house for lunch. FREE FOOD hahhaa. thats like one of my motivations to get me out of the house. and vanesa's life is really too good already. hahaha. got too many things at home. and ive decided to watch bleach alll over again. ahhhh 200 over episodes to reach the latest ep. :3 die lah. confirm fail j1. got so many distractions! haiyoh.

friday and saturday had family dinners. friday's one was dad's side. at brookvale. i played with rachael's wii. I WANT A WII. like it never occured to me how much im missing out. hahha until the family dinners. then on saturday it was barbecue. and i was playing with ben's psp. I WANT A PSP. seriously! these things are damn fun lah. but soooo expensive that i know its not worth it. but i still want one. ahhh my wish list is longer than me.)): NO KAT. BE CONTENT.

sunday! sunday was quite fun i suppose? had church. did skit for the kids. ahhaha i realised how truly auntie i can speak. hahha quite scary lah. then ahhh the p3s in church are sooooo cute. abraham (who looks like a monkey) is damn cute! and he wears retainers! at p3! so poor thing. hahaha.

then cny! hello sien! this cny part is for you! since you were the only one who bothered to ask hahah. it was okay lah. i got 40ish angpaos and $300ish! :D okay lah, quite happy. i mean, last year was also $300ish so not too much of a drop. and it feels good having cash at hand now. the next thing to learn is to control spending. and an excellent way to do that is to not bring any money out at all. which im starting to do.

somehow this year's cny wasnt as bad as i expected. and i realised something bout my family. when you prove yourself capable of doing something, only then will you be accepted. it's very strange. this year they were all pretty friendly towards me. which kinda scared me. it was unusual lah. but OH WELL. as terrible as it sounds, im only interested in cny for the money hahaha. and 40ish angpaos not bad considering how many less places we visited this year. maybe that's another reason why this year's cny not so bad.

OHH! but something really bad happened on the third day (yesterday)! cos i spent the whole day at grandy's place, then i was in one of the rooms. and the door to that room was spoilt. as in the handle-lock part. then i was the only one in the room and then the room door closed. so i was stuck inside alone. like seriously. totally no way out unless i climbed out the window. but even so, the window had grills that were locked. i really thought i was gonna die inside okay! like starve to death or something. damn scared lah! somemore all alone, helpless, fearful. okay not that bad, but it wasnt a pleasant experience lah. then jiujiu got me out. hahaha lucky siiiiahhh.

today had lunch with plees, jiap, den, yanka, lianne. at soup spoon. my first time eating there! pumpkin soup! quite nice. it was like a sweet soup. but not very soupy. more pasty-pureey. but it was nice. although i think i like the mushroom one better. and ive decided! next time i go to soup spoon, ill order the mushroom one but no more bread bowl. way too filling. maybe the crusted top dunno what thing. that's nicer. ((: then we went to starbucks. and sat around and talked. and then they went shopping. piang. hahah. i realised i only shop for bags and shoes. im very practical eh. hahaha yes and denise and i had a loooooong dispute because she wanted to give me a present but i didnt want it. and im so sorry bout your phone den! everytime she's with me, something bad happens. maybe you should stop hanging out with me. ahhaha.

then i went over to teach auntie vicky how to use the computer. hahaha i realised ms excel is very very useful. very. hahaha yes more computer knowledge :D and ryan is suuuuuper cute now! i was looking at some old photos of his (where he looked like an alien) but he's super cute now. but very very naughty. im quite worried he'll grow up to be like some brat.

posting results out tomorrow! i wonder what time they're gonna inform us. i dont really wanna wake up to the sms, but ahhhh. i dont really feel like telling anyone either. hahah. see my mood lah.

HI COCONUT!((: please dont die in army i want my very belated christmas card! and thank you for calling!:D

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OH WONBIN LEFT FTISLAND. ahhh joan how! should i still support them? i know it was his own decision to leave but! make me so upset! haiyah but the new member isnt even cute can! and his name is so hard to pronounce. )): song seung hyun. i guess if he's funny and entertaining then okay but he looks damn serious. come to think of it, wonbin was pretty useless. hahaha cos hongki was vocals already, and jonghoon usually played the guitar. and although seung hyun wants to add in rap, wonbin rapped too! AIYAH. this is internal conflict siah. ahh well lets hope for the best for oh wonbin! I HOPE YOU DO WELL.

and it was the time i was getting back into ft lah. like i just put their songs into ikaladrasie the day before joan msged me and told me wonbin left. AIYAH. stupid.

okay i need to get back to korean soon. jpop wave is totally drowning me. hahaha. but suju has nothing going on now (not that i know about anyway), im not keen on big bang's new style, i've never really been into dbsk, i just got upset with ft, and the latest new korean song i heard was gee by snsd which im also not very into. DIE LAH! the koreans used to be so much more interesting. i need to find something to revive that spark in me again.

but for now! hahah. arashi is the new katkraze. ee. haha but seriously they are damn funny. like once you get into them, you cant get out of it. well for now that is. and i realised that jdramas are really good. and im not being biased. okay maybe a bit. but. i will prove my point. next post: drama post. all my recommended dramas and my currently watching dramas. i have good taste! hahaha. aiyah this is getting nowhere. je fandom another day i suppose.

i need to pangsai quite badly so i think i shall stop here for today. i think i've blogged about everything i was planning to blog about. if not, next post. ohh yes, i dunno if i should start blogging regularly on lj or not. cos that's more like a passageway to get to people's locked journals hahaha. but since i made new friends there, i dunno if i should start posting. not regularly, cos i dont even blog here regularly, but more like... frequently? cos now i only have 2 posts there. and i said i'll blog when big things happen, but big things dont really happen in my life. thoughts, anyone?

someday i'll know

maybe one day, i'll be able to accept people as they are.

maybe one day, i'll learn to love everybody equally, and not rank them.

maybe one day, i'll be able to solve everyone's problems, without hurting anybody else, including me.

maybe one day, i can listen to other people and their full stories before i make any of my own judgements.

maybe one day, i'll be able to look at others in one glance and not have any first impression of them.

maybe one day, i'll be able to feel at peace with all my friends, not being torn between them.

maybe one day, i'll be able to express my inner thoughts without fear of being discriminated.

maybe one day, i can be proud of the work that i do, and not try to hide.

maybe one day, i'll be able to do the work i'm supposed to do, and not worry about breaking my friendships.

maybe one day, i'll be able to show the same me to everyone, and not different sides to different people.

maybe one day, i'll be able to touch somebody deeply, and be remembered.

but for today, i'll leave it to You.

STUPID BUS.

bus 14 has to be the stupidest bus on earth

bloody bus wasted me an hour getting home from park mall. how friggin long does it bloody take to get from town to clementi?! but noooooo. bloody 14 has to travel all AROUND friggin singapore and the time taken is even longer than me getting to church. bloody bus! stupid. nobody should ever EVER take stupid 14 and let the stupid service shut down. stupidstupidstupidstupid. it's even worse than like 154 and 173(which i think is highly rididculous already). I COULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING USEFUL WITH MY LIFE BLOODY SBS. YOU STUPID PEOPLE WHO DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PLAN BUS ROUTES AND BUS TIMINGS. YOU ALL SHOULD JUST DIE.

singaporeans have to be the laziest people on earth

why do two bus stops have to be so near one another. do you know how much bloody time is wasted to stop the bus and wait for it to start moving again?! have you lazy people ever heard of the term INERTIA?! CANT YOU ALL JUST WALK A FEW MORE STEPS TO THE PREVIOUS OR NEXT BUS STOP?! AND MAKE ONE LESS STOP FOR THE BUS TO STOP AT?! WILL IT KILL YOU!? and why must everyone drive. everyone should just take bus, which is 1) clean up the air 2) reduce bloody congestion on roads and 3) make buses come more regularly. but NOOOOOOO. even to a friggin nearby hawker centre, everyone must DRIVE. CAN YOU NOT FRIGGIN BLOODY WALK? WHAT DYOU HAVE LEGS FOR THEN? USE THEM! and! CANT YOU LAZY PEOPLE WALK UP THE BLOODY BUS FASTER! WHY DO YOU HAVE THE MAKE THE PASSENGERS ON THE BUS WAIT LIKE 3 BLOODY FRICKING MINUTES FOR YOU?! CANT YOU JUST MOVE FASTER?! STUPID DUMB INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO BRAINS.

ALSO! YOU STUPID PEOPLE HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CONSIDERATION AT ALL. cant you bloody sense that someone walking behind you is bloody rushing. cant you FRICKING move out of the way?! stupid or what! ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGH. BLOODY SINGAPOREANS.

sbs is the dumbest bus service ever

i dont even wanna talk about this. joan, you would know. stupid. transit link should just take over EVERYTHING. at least all transit link buses are airconditioned and pleasant to ride on. UGH. STUPID DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEIDIEDIEDIEDIE.

im so tired i dont even feel like blogging bout today. who the hell takes 2 bloody hours to get home from ecp?! STUPID BLOODY BUS THAT WASTED MY ONE HOUR OF TODAY NOW I ONLY HAD 23 MEANINGFUL HOURS YOU BLOODY BUS GIVE ME BACK MY TIME. it was a whole bloody day of waiting and i was not happy. i swear, if anyone EVER makes me wait for them again, i am never speaking to them. i bloody hate waiting.

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saranghaeyo(:

never work for money

seriously. NEVER. it's pain, tiring and not worth it at all. even if it's just to waste time, dont ever ever work for money.

because i am in no mood to blog, i will stop here.

HI NICOLE:D

because of you

first, to my dearest Father in heaven, thank you for always being with me and just as you've promised, never leaving nor forsaking me. thank you for being my strength when i was tired, my support when i was discouraged, my comfortor when i was upset, my joy when i was happy and my confidant when i was irritated. thank you for being my everything everything everything. and even for today, thank you for being my pillar and for revealing your plan to me. thank you for my results, and thank you that i can rejoice in your name.

second, to my favourite favourite favourite, you know who you are.((: thank you for always being there for me and for taking such great great care of me from prelims all the way through till end of O's. i really really appreciated your presence, love and everything you did for me. thank you for letting me be spoilt, taking food for me, cleaning my table for me, letting me irritate you with my singing etc. without you, studying for O's would have been ultra extra boring. so thank you thank you thank you.

third, to bevvv who never never fails to make me laugh. thank you lots for studying with me as well and for being there whenever i feel like giving up. and also for the awesome chrysanthemum tea your mum makes. and for always feeding me good food and making sure im in the best state to study. our efforts have paid off and im happy for both of us!:D

next, my all important, very lovely, amath tutor, tian!((: thank you for your immense, incredible, never ending patience towards me. and everytime i say imma fail you always scold me so thank you for that! and everytime i say i dont want tuition you let me skip :D and somehow ive gotten through everything and IT WASNT POSSIBLE WITHOUT YOOOOOO. so thank you very much. and you always try to entertain me with shinhwa and stuff like that (but they dont really work cos im only interested in dongwan hahaha) but it's super easy to talk to you and i dont know where this thank-note is going, but yes thank you! t-prime is the best.((: seriously. you made my grade jump like from a c6 to an a2 lahhhhh thank you so much. i really cannot cannot tell you how much it means to me okayyyy. and you spent so much time on me somemore. even with my bad attitude and stuff. so i cannot let you treat me cos i owe you this.((: i will specially write you snail mail to thank you even more and to give you something else too. but i need to find your address haha. thank you tian!<3

to yanka, although our little secret didnt really come true, thank you for always being around to make me laugh and feel better. even if it's just a bit, thank you for the many many distractions cos they're actually really good breaks for me. i know that one day, both of us will do very very well and we will become big and famous! promise friend!((:

to jo, for being my seating partner (got no choice i know) and for making me pay attention (except during chem when we both laugh at ms yang) in class and i dunno, for everything everything. i would have turned out like totally rebellious and not studying at all if i didnt sit next to you. you're a super good pacer and it's nice sitting next to you cos we can talk about a lot of useless things that make no sense. i love you lots jo!((:

no i didnt forget you jiap! you crazy girl who makes me laugh a lot but also likes to laugh by yourself. i will never ever forget the moments when you talk to yourself even when we tell you to stop and you claim that you're talking to us. hahaha. you really amuse me a lot which is fun and you've made sec 3 and 4 really really enjoyable for me. you're one of the reasons why i love the class. be honoured!:D

to recess table (vanesa, cheryl, seeyue, sam, eunice, ONGKO WHO DOESNT EXIST ANYMORE, and the comers and goers), THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS MAKING ME GO DOWN FOR RECESS!((: recesses have been lots of fun with you guys, although mostly its the same people who talk and stuff but still. now that i think bout it, spending recess with you guys is more worth it than rushing out homework in class ahahaha! but seriously, recesses have been incredible and pure fun with yall. THANKEWWW.<3

thank you to my lovely lovely cell and church friends (char, grace, sien, yingen etc) for all your prayers and well wishes. and sien for the lovely lovely lovely two bites brownies! they were really really good. one day i will bake brownies for you! when i get an oven :D

to lipin, for always being so entertaining and it was lots of fun "studying" physics with you ahaha! seriously the book damn waste money, but that day was the best man. ahhaha i was glad i was able to spend good time with you, even though that day was not productive at all. anyway physics is lousy, and we both dont care. :D i love you pinnnn!((:

to july and dawn, you two crazy idiots who come over for english and lit, i will never never never forget the crazy times we had in class (with jiap and hannah and various people). you two have been english and lit lessons so much more fun, what with july's noisiness and dawn's complaining about a certain ahemsomeoneahem. and july's crazy high pitched laughter and dawn's "I CANNOT DO LIT HELP ME HANNAH" its been crazy fun for two years. dont ever lose your spark!((:

not forgetting my mum who has been keeping me in prayer lots everyday of exams. i know she secretly cares for me ahha. and jie, although we were both having exams at the same time, and you pangsehed me to watch hsm3 with your friends and you annoy me lots, i still love you.

to studying friends (namely ivfen, salad, jiani, sann, zhang, xiao, julia, eeleng, enqi, ying etc) and ppl who stayed late to study, thank you for making the canteen such a lively place to study in that ppl cannot concentrate at all. but it felt really really good studying all together. somehow it makes studying easier.

to my crazy jak, i hope you're all okay i seriously miss how the gatherings in the past were like. we need a seriously fun one where none of us are washing the barbecue pit and the rest talking and laughing *ahem*joanandabby*ahem* I LOVE YOU ALL.

to my lovely, ever-important-to-me peanut who has never ever forgotten me even when the whole world has, i really love you. i owe you many dates and many PSBs, please be patient with me! i know you love me a lot, i love you a lot too. we will go out very very soon okay. i will miss you and the going home together trips!<3333

to all my other friends (who quietly supported me so i also quietly thank you), i can hear your supports in my heart, when i listen really REALLY hard. hahah no lah. i still love yallll.

<3!

(and im not even gonna say anything bout what mg posted on the website regarding results)

my watch is 12 hours fast

MERRY NEW YEARRRRRRR

ANNOUNCEMENT FIRST!:

selling NEWS' 3rd album color.
brand new, totally unopened cd. the plastic wrapping is still on as you can see below. it's the limited edition shipped in straight from Japan and it's being sold for $50! which is quite a bit cheaper than what hmv is selling for and cheaper than what it was bought for. if you're interested or know of anyone who's interested, you can drop me a comment with your email (or if i know you just tell me and i'll get in touch with you) and then we'll see howwww!((:

front (excuse the ugly background):


back (you can see my cat!):


water droplet to show that the outer plastic covering is still on hahah:



okay okay sorry for the incredibly late update although i dont think anyone really reads this lousy thing anyway. lots of things to blog about: kelong, youth camp, china, cc retreat, sleepover at yihui's, losers steamboat, jakk bbq and today. ohh and results? yeah.

unfortunately im not in the mood to post pictures. but i dont have much cept from kelong and china. okay china got quite a lot. kelong pictures are i dunno where. but yes i will just talk bout each one first although its crazy 3:35am and i have two major things to do tmr.

kelong was lots and lots of fun. i think it was the first time i seriously enjoyed myself with my family in a looooong time. maybe a first time actually. cos SOME people werent there lah haha. yes im mean, but its true. anyway. yeah when we got there, there wasnt much to do at first. we went fishing and to be honest, it was incredibly boring. (im sorry oh-chan! but i have no idea why he likes fishing so much.) and its not easy either. i felt a bit stupid waiting for fish that didnt exist. playing with the dogs were more fun ahha.

anyway yes for most of the rest of the trip it was mainly in the water lah. like riding banana boat, kayaking, jet ski, swimming etc. it was fun lah and the seafood there is seriously fresh. and i got to see joash! he's like this 3 or 4 year old boy who is suuuuuuuuuuper cute. pictures later or another day lah. he's just cute. ohh and we got to see fireflies too! it's super cool. like one crawled on my hand. and when you see it in the light, it actually looks like a baby cockroach which is kinda gross but they're much cooler. than cockroaches.

youth camp! fun fun and more fun. the theme for groups was transformers. and i was in ironhide! all the way mansssss. anyway yes. my group was seriously the best. we were the only group that stayed consistently within the top two throughout the whole camp which is super cool. but we were a strong team! and i think we had the best tl and atl. sien and fangyi are the craziest leaders ever.<333 but it was fun that our motivation everyday was mattress. motivations do wonders, really. at first when i saw the groupings, i was ultra scared cos i only knew sien, rhoda, steph and fangyi. and like samuel and adalric were in my group also. and i totally didnt know them and judging from the previous youth camp, i was a bit scared lah. but they turned out to be suuuuper nice people. and samuel even carried my bag for amazing race!:D my ultra-heavy-dunno-what-i-put-inside-that-made-it-weigh-5-kg backpack that jiap lent me. thank you sam!((:

im not gonna go into detail cos thats nuts. but games were fun, food wasnt too bad and most importantly, the meeting with God was incredible. somehow he made everything work out. from me declining to become a leader all the way until i came home and fell asleep. of course, the camp wasnt perfect. there were still times when i felt down and alone and stuff, but somehow God has given me something else to make up for it. and im really really thankful. i dont think the experience this time got me as excited as the previous one did, but somehow this time i feel that i want to get more involved in youth and God has presented me opportunities! so im really thankful. the next thing would be to get down to doing my tasks. -.- God please help!

CHINA WAS NUTS! i was really really upset a lot a lot of times cos of smoke and uncivilised chinese (i cant believe i came from there!) the chinese in china seriously need to learn etiquette or i tell you imma beat them up one day. smoke like crazy, push like crazy, and they whack their mouths off like anything lah. they dont think twice bout what they say and what they do. as long as it's okay in their eyes. stupid cheena people.

the only good things bout china is the cheapiority of food and most goods and weather. oh and foot massage that makes me snore. everything else sucks. except for window of the world. hahah. i'll blog more bout china when i put the photos up. probably the next time i blog. i'll try to do it soon!

cc retreat! i lurrrve my cc. they make me so happy. hahaha but it really was an awesome gathering. i am amazed by the amount of rubbish we can talk about lah. like jia ni, xiaohui, salad and i spent the whooooole (almost) day talking and talking and talking. like we sat in jiani's room for like. 4 hours? and we just kept talking and talking. and even when we went to sann's place, we still talked haha. and the next morning over breakfast we still talked.

one thing that surprised me bout the cc was the christmas presents that they brought. i thought i would be the only one, but like lesley, lyddie, salad and maisie all gave and honestly, i was shocked. i really was. ahhhhh i love them soooooo much<3 and its amazing how although we dont see each other for lengths of time, we dont really drift or anything. ahhhhhh im glad the people who make up the cc are in the cc.((:

had sleepover at yihui's on monday! supposed to watch little nyonya (which i dont) but i went late anyway cos i was doing the laundry. but yes the sleepover was fun and im glad i went! (thanks for the advice xiaohui!) it was super uda uda (more than the cc, salad!) like when i went, then we started playing bridge. we watched the prestige (which to me was like HUH?), i learnt how to play german bridge thanks to yingen! and at like 3plus we called in macs. we're damn siao lah. in the end pris, yongen and adriel slept at 5+ and then yihui, yingen and i talked until bout 6.30. siao lah.

next morning woke up at bout 10 plus. i went down to school at 12 plus cos kim said her class playing pe. so we played one game of floorball then they wanted to leave school so we went buddy and then holland. ohh and kim and i applied for jobs at cold rock. ahhah damn funny. and sophia became my guarantor. hahha. and then had losers steamboat dinner! thiam, joan and i are really the best losers. we decided to have a budget of $6 per person. so about $20 in total. in the end it came up to like $11.70 per person. we are super loser lah! we bought soooo much food and we ate sooo much. for like 2hours lah! but after that we went to the playground. which, to be honest i got a bit scared. i dont like the dark. then after that went home.

jakk + carriser barbecue! ahha it was quite fun lahhh just that it started a bit late. i went out with july in the late morning for brunch at hv. ohh and i also met pastor andy there! hahah. then wah, july and i also talk until crazy. its fun lah, to be able to talk rubbish with someone even though yall havent seen each other for so long. then after that we went to school to disturb teachers and stuff. then i went over to joan's at 4.50. i was 50 minutes late and i was the earliest. stupid people lah come so late. in the end we started at like 6plus? and for the first time, abigail was helping and not just eating. ahaha. but it was fun lah, like cooking and eating. although we didnt really sit down and talk or anything. gatherings are fun. ((:

and kim and i found possible future jobs! kim says we should set up a post-bbq cleaning company. we should charge damn high. ahha but i think people will hire us (especially lazy people) cos usually people dont like to clean up after barbecues. hahha good job opportunity. so yes. in the end i got home at like 11+. quite late lah.

today! met kim at dhoby ghaut and then went to heartland mall. damn retarded. supposed to cook for her today, we ended up eating pizza hut and she treated me. ahha. then we went to her house and watched a double shot at love. it's quite an amusing show, but quite scary at the same time. then we talked. wah recently ive been talking a lot eh. haha yeah i got a bit more updated on the scandals ahha and yes. i feel like i havent seen vicky for incredibly looooong. so today was fun.

after that i went for cell and then for mariko's barbecue. so retarded cos the people who left the latest were cell people. hahah so for me, it turned out to be more of a cell thing rather than a mariko and friends thing. but anyway naomi cooks very well! like seriously well. and mariko is plain cmi hahah. after that we just sat and TALKED somemore (i really got nothing better to do. maybe i just like talking.) bout youth camp and church and etc. it was quite fun lah, just to sit and talk. at least you dont feel tired. we talked from like 11+ all the way till 2. we left at like 2:06 according to my watch. crazy.

so yes im still awake now and this post is too long for its own good cos no one is gonna read it. pictures another day! results on monday and i dont feel like going. im really considering ponning but then i know people will get upset at me and i need to be brave and face reality!

i havent seen many people throughout the whole holidays. like grace and tian. and various various people. im missing yall!

all rights. im shagged. i got things to do tmr i shall leave it as it is here!((:

ahh i wanted to watch maou tonight.

edit/my dawh gave me undies for christmas! i dont know what to say.
edit//unfortunately, looking back at my previous posts, my hols have not been productive at all. (see 26 Nov 08 [happy ohno day!:D])
edit///note to self: 25th Jan

random randoms

I WILL UPDATE SOON.

when i feel like it.