so i couldnt be bothered

heh okay, i couldnt be bothered to go searching for a new skin, so ill make do with this one i suppose.

back to blogging. though there really isnt much. i dunno why, but i just havent really felt like blogging the past few days. i decided i really should at least post one more.

i hate it when my parents quarrel. its annoying and stupid. and at least, not in front of their stupid kid; what an idiotic issue to quarrel over.

on a lighter note, i love the japanese. i really love my japanese penpals. their letters are always so colourful and bright and happy. ahha its really cute and they have nice paper too. hahah.

okay im having a splitting headache, but i will at least update bout today.

i got up at 850 (apparently no one in my family thought it necessary to wake me up although they knew i needed to go to school) and i had to get to school by 920. amazing, i am. so anyway. yeah i rushed and i got really pissed off at my parents. as usual. i really dont know why. anyway. then met cheryl, eva and mel and set up coop booth and had sale. i hate stuff like that. its annoying. but anyway. we finished an hour late. so mel and i were late for our meeting. which caused me to be late to meet meiyan. but in the end i didnt lah.

went down to adam road and had lunch with lipin (hello i havent seen you for so long!) and yes. then went to trinity, had service but i didnt stay for fuel though. i wish i had. pffffft.

anyway. i think trinity is a really good church. like cos they have youth services and stuff, and like the pastors really can connect to the congregation so its good. and today's sermon was good too. im glad i went.

on thursday i went job hunting with thiam. in 4 hours, we got rejected 10 times and we searched the entire holland village and then went down to westmall and still couldnt find. the real world sucks. like seriously. i wish i could just get a freaking job soon so i dont have to stay at home. i could do with some extra cash too. any job offers? i'd even wash the toilet! promise!

pfft im getting so damn emo.

anyway. after that i went home for a while then went to faith to help out with the graduation ceremony. the kids there are so cute. hahah the ceremony was quite successful i think. ahha dunno lah. but it was fun anyway.

okay i have officially lost interest in goong so i dont think anyone could possibly revive that interest in me unless i get super bored and decide to suddenly watch it. hn.

ahhhhh there are sooo many things i wanna say but i cant really type it out anywhere. yes thats how private it is. and i dont think i can trust anyone either hm. no, correction. i dont know who i can trust. yes yes, i have terrible trust issues. sigh.

at this point of time, i dont know what is wrong with me. i want something, but then again i dont. and for the record, i dont know what that something is. sigh. somehow i know everything is gonna work out eventually, but i cant help worrying. i dont know why. worrywart. siiiiigh. i hate the feeling of uncertainty.

tension tension. i can almost see electrical sparks in your eyes.

oh and fyi to all those out there who wanna know, im taking full history half lit so please stop asking me cos its annoying.

i think im being brainwashed @_@

sigh i wish things could somehow go back to how it was in the past. ive really drifted from so many people. sure, ive made new friends. but its just not the same. i dunno. the feel, chemistry, connection, whatever just isnt there.

would it be really weird if someone didnt talk to you for perhaps 10 almost 11 months and then he/she suddenly says HELLO WE HAVENT SPOKEN FOR SO LONG? maybe so.

okay damn long post. damn boring too. heh.

i guess this is all. ill post again sometime. meanwhile, i need photoshop lessons. anyone?

hello Mr. Moto; nice to meet you.