my toes look funny

it's 12:48am in the morning and i havent bathed. ew.

okayy i was supposed to blog yesterday but i could barely keep my eyes open. and i kinda slept the whole day today so im blogging nowwwwww.

aight! first week of school. i wasnt very pleased with monday, to be honest. cos they put chapel at the end of the day and that isnt very good. plus, "chapel" was not good at all because it was a musical-skit kinda thing, but there wasnt really a lesson behind it. at least i didnt learn anything. and id rather have normal chapel, even if no one is singing. but other than that, it was okay. all the tests that were supposed to be on monday all got postponed. hahah. and physics was good. esther and i suspect ms or is in love. :D

tuesday not much. well, at least i dont remember. but after school i went with esther to make her ic and then we went to eat pastamania! and ive accumulated oweing her $11 to date. ohh dear. haha. but yes. and the stupid al funghi pasta made me sick! i puked when i got home.

i didnt go to school on wednesday! which really kinda sucked cos we had amath + chem quiz as well as tingxie. to top it off, we got our history papers back and i failed. no surprise. abby also didnt go to school so jiap was kinda lonely. hahah. and people started thinking that we ponned together but noooooo. i have nothing to do with abby. hahaha.

thursday abby and i took chem quiz. it sucked. ahhaha im ready to bet i failed. i guessed like almost all the questions. haha. but yes. and i stayed back with plee to do work. and cheo you and your period lah! what if you have your period at the same time then youre best friends. hahaha. and plee really got it. and i got mine today. pfffft. but yes. and i started collecting cans for yeah and abby goes all "kat has financial difficulties" and "you can eat fish today!" IM SAVING THE ENVIRONMENT YOU DOOFUS.

last day of the first week of the third term of my 9th year in mg! hahahaha. yarrrr. had tingxie and amath. amath really sucked. out of 2 questions, i could only do 1. ahhaha. man. but after that had assembly duty thing which lasted 5 minutes for me. then i stayed with plee, and MY DARLING MEIYAN CAME BACK!<3 and then megan came, various people came, andree and carisser came with dinner, abbie came with a pe shirt over her hot von dutch top which she refused to show anyone, PRIS AND YONGEN CAMEEEE, and we all went for lovemg!

okay right now i have to do a lot of apologies!

number 1: IM SO SORRY MY HUSBAAAAAND. we were supposed to go together and all but we didnt in the end. but you would have rather sat with xianwen and all right! but i was really happy to see you again! we'll spend sunday together!

number 2: IM SORRY PRIS AND YONGEN! i know im a terrible host, inviting you and not entertaining you, but i figured you'd rather sit with mariko then with my friends (that was before i knew her friends were coming) and then i figured that you guys would be really irritated if i asked you to move seats (that was when i saw her friends coming) but all in all, IM SORRY.

number 3: IM SORRY ABIGAIL LEE for making so much fun of you and your "illegality" (i really think you were illegal eh) and i feel very baaaaad okayyy. but i still love you!<3

yepp. but i still love yaalllll.

lovemg was great. i cried quite a lot, andree cried quite a lot. but it was good lah. ps jeremy was good too! he spoke on chairs. and it set me thinking quite a bit. which is good. hahah. and i saw a lot of seniors!

i find it so ironic that like probably 1/2 of the people at lovemg arent even from mg. a lot are ex mg girls. and like mg girls themselves dont even go for lovemg. how dumb. and they cant even sing the school song in the morning. i mean, seriously, what is wrong with singing the school song? arent you proud to be in mg? if not, then get lost. like honestly. its dumb.

but anyway. yes. rededicated myself yesterday. i think it really helped to keep me on track. so thats good.(:

ive been doing quite a lot of thinking. why are some people so dumb? and shallowing. and unmaturing. i mean. aiyar. its not good to say. so ill leave it at that.

live earth! im surprised that it should be happening on 7th july and like. bout global warming and environmental crises etc. cos yeah is also on 7th and like. same thing. coincidence? :O

IM REALLY PROUD OF YOU ABIGAIL LEEEEEE(: good job on friday. now you know how to handle similar situations. and youre lucky rachel was in class or you would have dieeeed. hahaha actually no lah, you wouldnt. but im still glad you took the initiative and did the right thing. sandra will be really proud of you!((: keep it up aye! and no, jiap and i are NOT getting you a plant but you'll have to wait 2 years anyway.

JUST FOR FUN
should this make you happy, meg:


Voice of Truth - Casting Crowns
Oh, what I would do
To have the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again
"Boy, you never win
You'll never win."

But the voice of Truth
Tells me a different story
The voice of Truth
Says "do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth
Says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of Truth

Oh, what I would do
To have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
Of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name
and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you never win
You'll never win."

But the voice of Truth
Tells me a different story
The voice of Truth
Says "do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth
Says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of Truth

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
Trom on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When i stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

But the voice of Truth
Tells me a different story
The voice of Truth
Says "do not be afraid"
And the voice of Truth
Says "this is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

I will listen and believe...

there are 2 kinds of people:

1) the kind where you may see each other so often, communicate every now and then, but when you are around each other (or sometimes not) yall just have so much to talk about. non-stop at all. even if its complete rubbish or total trash. there is just so much to say and its never ending. time has its fastest record.

2) the kind where you hardly see each other but when you do, the is simply nothing to talk about. the awkward silence is louder then your conversation. eerily louder. and you just sit and stare at each other for hours and hours and you feel youre wasting you life away and you wanna get outt there. time is lagging so much.

which are you?

i'll buy you for £100.

quick update. char is so retarded. hahaha.
will do a proper update tmr night!

/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
eh!
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
do i haha a lot?
char! says:
er hahah okay la
char! says:
i bet abbie said you haha alot
char! says:
we can all form the haha gang
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
hahaha!
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
what
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
no abbie didnt say anythign what
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
haha gang
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
hahaha thats quite funny
char! says:
hahaa yeah
char! says:
HAHA GANGGGGG
char! says:
quite cool la
char! says:
hha
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
hahaha okay set!
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
haha gang!
char! says:
HAHA GANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
char! says:
hahahahahah
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
hahahahahah
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
so! who're our members!
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
ahahah
char! says:
hahah okay stop hahaing
char! says:
ME YOU AND ABBIE
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
hahaha ok!
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
ahhha
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
oh man. damn retarded
char! says:
COOL RIGHT
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
haha
/.kat &.this is for my glory says:
yessss coool
char! says:
haha gang

u_u

IM SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS ABIGAIL GOH.

you may not show it, but i can tell youre hurting. but do cheer up okay. cos God's plan is perfect, and He has a reason for taking your cousin home. in any case, please please please, remember im always there (sitting next to you) and if you need to talk, please do okay.

my condolences to you and your entire family.

i love you!

i'd like to die. please?

aye

seriously man. there are less than 5 hours of freedom left. how awesome is that.

why is it that youre so accomodating to someone, and everything that someone says affects you a whole lot, and you go all out to change yourself but somehow, it doesnt make a difference?

ive been feeling emo lots. i dont know why. everything seems so near but ive been too friggin blind to see it and when its changed, then i realise. apparently, my time management sucks.

mum has been hinting that ive been rude to her a lot lately. i dunno. i mean everything as a joke. its really quite obvious.

suddenly im feeling so left out. i wonder if whatever thats happening to me is happening to someone else.

soooo many aspects of my life need improvement, but im totally focusing on the wrong things.

it hit me quite hard wayyy back when i felt as if i really had no close friends. and it hit me again recently. shot twice eh.

but. i dunno. i mean, ive been through really difficult times alone. and no one's bothered. of course friends have been there loadsa times, but there just isnt one person whom i feel comfortable telling anything and everything to.

i cant even tell myself.

once the newspaper man visits, freedom will say bye bye.

imma knock myself out this week and not think bout stupid things like that anymore. imma make myself soooooo busy that imma feel as though imma drop dead and die every moment.

"reckon that'll help?"

reckon it will.

spleak is stupid.

aye im totally scaring myself.

later.

newspaper's coming~!

it's gonna take a miracle

im not supposed to be doing this but its really important.





I LOVE YOUUU KELLY KWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!(((((((((:

omgg i am soooo proud of you and so happy for you! congrats congrats congrats okay for making it for council pres!!! i havent given you your big big hug but soooon!((:

hhaha oh man i am sooo happy for my sister. ahha. and my dad says our family is politically powerful. haha. and last night, char poh came over and she was like,"aiyar why i hang around with yall still never get anything." haha maybe you shouldnt hang around with us. hahahah.

ahhhh im really really really happy. and of course,


CONGRATULATIONS CRYSTAL WONG! on making it for vice pres! omg you two are leaving behind a legacy. but i know yall will do really really well together! you two are so funny. hahah.

yepp. thats the really important thing! haha.

ohh man yesterday had night walk with the kids. so fun! ahha the kids are so funny. but i was really tired and stuff cos i ran in the morning, then had drama and then night walk. and i fell asleep during drama again! so terrible!): but yeah. drama night is coming to something. hopefully.

yepp. then when i got home i urh. did stuff. and omg! i felt like a total idiot.

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
eh which part of hillview dyou stay

abigail
tomorroowww. what time?

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
dunno eh

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
wait which part dyou stay?

abigail
hillview ave

abigail
hahah

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
YAR I KNOW THAT TOOOO.

abigail
hhahhha

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
weeeeeellll?

abigail
hillview ave?

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
omg youre so annoying

abigail
yup

abigail
shits

abigail
hahahah

abigail
138

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
huh?

abigail
138 hillview ave!

abigail
hahah if thats what you wanna know

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
ohh ahhaha whaaaaaat. haha okay. uhm. give me landmarks!

abigail
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

abigail
opposite lam soon building

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
opposite?

abigail
yeahhh

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
oh shit!

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
omggg i used to stay damn near you lah!

abigail
i know....

abigail
the hillview green clubhouse

abigail
please use the other entrace

abigail
hahahah

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
hahahahah

abigail
or something like tha

abigail
that

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
yeah omgggggggg. ahha you never bus home right

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
thats why i never saw you

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
you stupid shit! hahahaha omgggggg.

abigail
i took school bus =\

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
go home lah

abigail
yeah

abigail
i take school bus home =\

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
whaaaaaat

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
GUAI KIA!

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
hahahahhah

abigail
NOOOOOOOOOOO

abigail
hahahhahaha!!!

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
huh then dyou stop before or after lam soon?

abigail
i drop at

abigail
i think before

abigail
its the one before the hillbrooks

abigail
hahah it thinkkkk

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
ohhh

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
hahahah WHOO i can go crash your house nowww

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
im super familiar with that place

abigail
hahhHAHAHA =\

abigail
wah stalker

abigail
=))))))))

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
hahaha really ah

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
if i go stalk you then you die

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
follow you home everyday

/.kat &.wanting to talk to you
EVERYDAY

abigail
hahahahhah

abigail
EVERYDAY

I CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. i dont believe it! so frikking near lah. abigail lee you suck. take school bus for what! pffffffffffft.

anyway. then i had emo talk with char!): but im not posting it. cos its emo. haha no lah. its just personal stuff. but charphang i love alot alot alot alot alot alot okayyyy so please cheer up! and you are in NO way inferior to [insertnamehere] so please dont think so lowly of yourself! i love youuuuuuuu.(:

HELLO GRACE WELCOME BACK I MISSED YOU(: hahaha ahhhh im so happy youre back! ahahhaha yayyyy. ill call you really really soon!:D!

TANYONGEN AND BOBYANG! goooo for lovemggggggg. then you'll lovemg! hahahahah omg okay that sucked. but yongen! you go with me and bob then wont feel left out okayyyy.(:

FOP 3RD-5TH AUGUST! sec 3 charisians we must go together as a class/cell okayyy. sunday would be a good idea cos then we can hang around after class then go down together but yall must tell me sooon cos i got other arrangements aight!

haha okay i really need to ban myself from the computer and get my work done.

laterrrrrrrrrr<3

edit/ a short extract that i read off somewhere! hahah random but yes.(: and i feel its really applicable to me!):

Tears welled up in her eyes and flowed down to join the small droplet that was already threatening to drip off her chin. She didn't know why she was crying, but she knew she was hurting down deep inside.

So take me as you find me, all my fears and failures.

Memories and flashbacks played in her mind. Wishing, regretting, wanting to change the past were some of the things coming into her mind. Maybe if something hadn't happened or she hadn't gotten to know someone. Or perhaps, happened in a different way. It would have been better.

I surrender.

Is that saying thet God's plan is not perfect? Maybe.

Let mercy fall on me.

She's got to learn to build up her faith in Christ. She's been through so much, been tested so harshly, yet her faith wavers and remains weak.

Forever, Author of Salvation.

She's at a loss for what to do. She has no idea, no goal, no direction. She is burdened and helpless, silently crying for someone to come to her rescue. But she doesnt dare to part those lips to cry for help because she knows that it won't make any difference. She doesnt want to face disappointment again.

My God is Mighty to Save.

CAMWHORE

ayeeee. gross man. when i see like. certain pictures. i really feel like puking. as in, its not like the picture is bad, but its just. unexpected. as in. i dunno. it really makes me wanna puke. ):

anywayyyy. yes im blogging because i suddenly had the urge to when i was bathing. so yes. but after this im taking a break for a bit then ill come back again. (:

WHERE ARE YOU NOWWWW GRACE I MISS YOU): you pangsai, go overseas for what. what happened to our friday calls!):

omgg hahah i havent visited tangyuzhe's blog for eternity and he only had two updates. two stupid updates. and for some strange reason, he always starts off with
"HALLO 我是禹哲" or something of the sort.

i find it super amusing. ahha. but anyway. yes! hes been abbassador for some skin product i think. his complexion super good! but his hair is wayyy long. he needs to cut it. hahah. and xiaogui calls him tang xian sheng. coolio.








he looks so much better here.

haha yeah then i went to xiaogui's blog. he is SO funny. this is his latest post:







translation? ahhaha NO GO FIGURE IT OUT YOURSELF.

ahhaha omggg i love xiaogui. haha.

omg man eating too much macs makes your hair drop like crazy. i mean, crazy doesnt drop hair, but... nevermind. haha. im being stupid.

anyway! yes. drama has been pretty okayy. like physical is totally crazy. seriously super strenuous lah. but lunch is really good! cos we all get to talk and we bond a lot more. and i know so many more sec 1s now! its quite fun.

i realised that the sec 1s are actually really nice. and fun to be with. except for maybe one..or two. but thats not my point. my point is, theyre generally really nice and okay people. but you must want to get to know them before they will open up.

and omg today the stupid restaurant conversation was so pointless. i went over to rachel, grace and celeste. then they were talking bout restaurants and so the conversation started between me and celeste.

"dyou know what new york dessert cafe is?"

"no. what?"

"nydc."

"ohh! oh yeah."

"..."

"dyou know what kat-fe is?"

"no, but it sounds familliar."

"urh. it shouldnt cos it doesnt exist."

ahhahah omggg celeste is soooo funny. ahha then after that i was telling them bout rosette, and celeste actually asked me if it existed! waseh i was like YES OMG. haha but quite funny lah. hahah.

yepp. okay im trying to make my paras short cos ive received feedback that people dont read my posts cos i talk too much and IT REALLY UPSETS ME COS THERE ARE ACTUALLY REALLY STUPID STUFF INSIDE THESE POSTS WHICH ARE PRICELESS. like my occasional jokes. really!

but if you dont wanna read it, your loss.

okay i know this is really random, but i find people who use "okie" really gay. like. haha no offence to those who use it, its my personal opinion, but yeah. i mean, whats wrong with okay or even ok. haha i think its okay to say "okie" (yeah and i can totally hear abbie say it), but reading it is just weird. like. *shudders* kinda thing.

ooh ooh! the new ND song is out!! by kit chan again this year. sound nice enough. sounds SUPER ND. i mean, yeah its supposed to, but. cliche lah. my favourite ND song is still My Island Home by Kaira Gong! its awesome. and shes a really good singer too!((: and eh. she looks like jaime teo here. ahha.






hahaha omgg my sister is crazyy. haha so is my mum. like, kelly was changing in the room, then my mum went in and kelly was like

"wow you just come right in when im changing."

and my mum goes

"what havent i seen."

hahahahah omggggg i love it when my family goes retarded like that cos then i can play with my mum without getting scolded. AHHA. shhhhh.

aiyar. ive been so very disturbed lately.): whyyyy. like. there're sooooo many things on my mind. and some are totally rubbish. and others im just paranoid. but they dont wanna leave me alooooone): aiyarrr so tiring lah. die lah die lah. then dont need to think so much.

emo crap lah. so annoying.

omggg these look fake but they look sooooo tempting.




omg lah i cannot take it! i want my own camera!): pfffft. and i love exilim, especially the one my dad's office has. but i cant remember the model. i brought it for pb camp. ITS SOOOO AWESOME. and damn easy to use lah! ahhhhh i waaaaaant exiliiiiiim.): looks chao cool lah.

aiyarrrr. but! nevermind. ahhaa anyway. camwhore pictures. like super a lot. i was trying to make my eyes seen when taking pictures, cos everyone says that my eyes are like gone when i take pictures. SO I PROVE YALL WRONG. and these pictures are to entertain yall when im gone.

AND SO YALL DONT FORGET HOW I LOOK LIKE EITHER! aahhahahahhahaha

okayyy i was emoing hereee. like really emoing. but i cant remember whyyy.


my bolster!!(:


MY EYE! i had to take sooo many pictures to get a large brown one. youll see the proper ones later. it blinded me like siao lah. super painful.

OH NO. i dont look like myself.





hahah okay this is gross. its when i was still peeling. looks like i have some skin diesease lahh. and i was doing sunday times sudoku which i still cant and wont solve.



gross eh.

ooh!! you can see my brown brown eyeeees((:



HAHA OKAYY MY PUPILSSS(:




ahhh looks sick man. ahha.

OKAY THIS PART IS REALLY CAMWHORING. like extreme camwhore. so dont look if you cant take it.









OMG! I LOOK LIKE I HAVE A BROWN STREAK! coolio.



do i look like kelly here? :O

haha okay the following pictures freak me out too. i know. ew. haha.




haaha okayyyy yeah really damn camwhore but oh well! hahahahah.

okay okay this is a really long post. and it took me almost an hour! oh no. hahah. but yes.

oh!! i realised i have a lot of camwhore pictures in my imagestation. HAHA. wahhseh im quite ego eh. ahhahah. oops.

eh. i realise i look very different with my hair tied up and let down. and i say "very" cos usually, people dont look different but for me, its really quite a change so compared to other people, its really quite different.

ahhaa okayy the rest of the pictures are really quite pointless lah.

JOLLYBEAN! im not sure how its spelt. but these were taken quite long ago back in hillview. and theyre all the same. ahhaha i dunno what i was doing. but its still cool. haha. i dont care.





OH NO! NO EYE!):

okok from prefects installation which is like history. but char sent me pictures and i didnt post em): so yeah.

formal picture!


informal picture!


7th juners! 7th june 1991/2<3 hahaa yayy i love you char!(:


hahaha okay this picture is really funny. haha i shall put up another one pointing out all the stupid stuff. hahahah. omg.


1) abby nyam's face is priceless.
2) sandra looks really outta the picture
3) lyddie's head and cheryl's arms make a good shot
4) diane thinks char (cameraperson then) was taking a shot of her
5) jun looks so weak):
6) chows face is soooo funny

ahha the funniest i think is lyddie's head and cheryl's arms. omggg lah. and char was actually taking only of megg, me and andree in the middle. omgggg sooo funny.

hahaha okok i think ill stop here lah. wahh 1 1/2 hours eh! im a slow blogger.

aiiiight! ill come on again really sooon!((:

you love those you fear and fear those you love.

edit/haaha man last night was so awesome. my total record man. on the phone with abbie for 3 hours 3 minutes 46 seconds as recorded on her phone. my longest ever! :D so be honoured abbie! but omg we had SO much crap to talk about man. haha. amazing. I LOVE YOU ABIGAIL LEEEE(: although youre scared of me. haha.

edit//it is my goal to post all 396 pictures from camp PLUS more from rg symposium and also from church! when they celebrated my birthday. i know its ancient, but i dont have pictures cos stupid mariko doesnt wanna send em to me. so wait a bit kayy(: