and the lilies of the field

been able to have very meaningful conversations the past week, especially yesterday and today. really love spending quality time with people and talking about stuff that matter. although of course it's debatable as to what is considered 'stuff that matter', but i suppose things that aren't frivolous or superficial? when you're able to go deep into conversation, talking about personal things and feelings, thoughts and opinions and viewpoints. always a joy to be able to hold conversations like that.

and then the thought came to me: i've mellowed down so incredibly much especially over the past year. i dont know if it's cos of thailand, or perhaps age catching up with me, but i've just been so calm lately and able to take things rationally and objectively. i'm a lot less hot headed than i used to be, and i actually stop to think now. maybe it's got something to do with being in uni? i dont know.

and then there's the realisation that hit me the other day, and this thought has been recurring over the past couple of weeks. i haven't got many friends whom i can really go so deep into conversation with. but at the same time, i feel incredibly blessed that i've got these friends. and the amount of time i've known them all vary. some i've known all my life, others barely a year. i guess this is why people have fewer and fewer friends as they grow older. you just see the friends worth keeping and friends not. and i suppose it's not a bad thing. for me, i want to be able to spend more quality time with each of them.