eh. okay. im so tired. im really really tired. like ive never been so tired before. but im so happy. i dunno why. im just. happy. haha.

yday had rehearsal for open day. it was okay. i think soi did quite bad lah but nevermind. yeah then after as i was walking down the hill to the bus stop right, sackman's arm fell off okay! and i didnt realise till like much later! so i couldnt find his arm. =x so he has one arm less. pffffffft. oh then yday me and suyi were denting the stupid buckets for woman at the well. dent until i got blister lah. but yday's dinner was gooood. ahha kfc. yepp. got home at bout 9+.

then today! hm. lesse. racial harmony commemoration. it was okay lahh. just that i didnt really like the people who planned/organised it. mmhmm. but that aside. mrs chen was super super nice again today. and i fell lah! omg. im so dumb. like math was the only lesson we had cos mrs pandian didnt come and laoshi didnt come either. so yeah.

then after school, i had to dent the buckets more and had to scrub them with tea leaves. it didnt really work lah. it turned out quite strange i think. but anyway. yeah then me and deborah did ropes for like 2 whole hours. omg. it sucked lah. yeah then i had to set up props and everything. then had evaluation at bout 5.30. hm... i shall not talk bout it lah. but yeah.

then run! we did 2 runs today. i feel very accomplished! :D haha i dunno why. i was just quite happy during today's rehearsal lah. ahha yepps. and during golgotha my blister broke! it was so gross and painful lah. then like my skin is like sticking out now. haha. im very very tired. got home at like 12+. but ive seriously never felt happier. not say happy. more like uhm. joyful. yes. haha. but i really thank God for granting upon me the experience and everything. cos its really great. like. i dunno how to say lah. the whole thing is just different. the whole feeling. and i think ill cry during curtain call. haha. cos so much time and effort has been put into this production by everyone and although everyones like complaining, but i know they want rehearsals lah. ahha

todays golgotha was good also. im really really very happy. like this whole entire week has just been so great. there werent any majorly bad events. like even if wednesday's rehearsal wasnt the best. its still not that bad. so im very happy. im just so glad its like the end of the week. im so tired. tmr gotta go back for open day. then sunday got rehearsal again. monday and tuesday are like... sort of my rest days lah. yeah then wednesday - saturday will be rehearsal and finally, the show. im really excited. and scared. and worried. and in a way, relieved i guess.

this musical has been so great lah. ive gotten to know so many people and everything. its just been fantastic. i got to work with professionals (though they're not the nicest people) i learnt like "stage tricks" (haha) and yeah. so many things. the memories and good times and bad. ahha. mmhmm. must treasure the rehearsals man. (:

okay okay i better stop here or id get really emo.

I've never been so alone
And I've never been so alive