jenga

was aiming to do a post last night, but fell asleep.

anyway. the musical is a little bit retarded. i dont think i will ever come to comprehend how the minds of little 7, 8 year old girls function. i dont understand how there is such a huge discrepancy between the maturity of girls the same age. it is truly a wonder. anyhow, the progress is a little bit slow, and there still many strings to tie up, but hopefully we'll be ready. well, at least now it's one of the things that take my mind off things.

met bev after dinner yesterday, (are you reading this?((:) which made me think what kind of a friend i've been. and to be completely honest with myself, not a very good one. i have a tendency to pile myself under loads of work and work, and i dont have time for friends. but actually, those are all excuses at the end of the day. it really doesnt take much time to drop a friend a text asking how he/she is. given my now-limited messages, but what was i doing in the past? am i a fair weathered friend? am i a monthly affair friend?

gonna meet joan for dinner tonight, and hopefully it'll be a good session of catching up and sharing our deep, deep troubles. but well, jokes aside, pray that ill be a good friend to her!

life is like a game of jenga. your world is perfect and stable at first, but then change happens which makes it unstable, before you finally crash and your world collapses around you. but take some time to let the pieces settle, and rebuild your life again.

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God sure has a sense of humour. just as i finished posting this entry about friends, someone from a raffles prefects convention posted on my wall. to be honest, im never too keen on 'long time ago' friends saying hi, because it always gets awkward because there's nothing to talk about, other than "hi, how've you been?". i suppose that's one of the reasons why i myself dont bother catching up with people and checking in on how they are, because things get really weird after a while.

but i dont want that to keep happening. i want to make things more sincere. more heartfelt. i want each conversation to mean something to me, rather than just being polite and kind, and because it's the right thing to do.

Lord, guide me and teach me.