love you just the way you are

tmr's the last day of school, so i thought id just take some time to type down my thoughts despite the 1000+ assignments due tmr.

orientation started off quite badly for me, and i sincerely (i am so sorry) thought my og sucked the most of all time. but, things got better, and i am getting along so well now with the person that i got really irritated with in the og. and im thankful for that.

then the class came along. and man was it bad, again. i tried really hard to be optimistic, to learn something from my experience with my og, but no, it proved to be an even harder challenge. now, on the whole, i guess it's pretty okay, but there are definitely more battles to be fought and won.

then council came along, and came with it even more trouble. the interview, the campaigning, the results, the expectations, everything. it was all pretty draining, and im pretty sure that things arent gonna get any easier. its gonna be mental torture, and if i can survive it, WOW.

i've had my ups and downs throughout the three months/two terms in ac. and there are gonna be more ups and downs. but i appreciate everyone who has been there for me. to listen to me, to comfort me, to pray for me, to talk to me, to support me, to make me laugh, to make me cry, everything. jc life is just gonna get more and more intense, but i hope ill be able to come through as a stronger person at the end.

失礼だな！

cut!

cut!

CUT!

ahhh i shouldve joined dep.

raef

it just occured to me today how fragile life really is.

and how much courage it takes to leave everything behind.


This is my Father's world.
O let me ne'er forget
that though the wrong seems oft so strong,
God is the ruler yet.
This is my Father's world:
why should my heart be sad?
The Lord is King; let the heavens ring!
God reigns; let the earth be glad!

the importance

of having somebody believe in you

when you need it the most

is unbelievable.

precipitation x1000

impact after impact today.

i wont talk too much cos im really tired.

but i thank God for his love, mercy and grace.

i thought of you today.

limitations

ugh i am so unhealthy. i slept like 12+++++ hours. like i wanted to go for second service today, cos when i woke up at 7 i was so tired, but i overslept. ugh sickening lah.

ive got my gp essay left for the rest of the night. its not too much, i guess. maybe 2 to 3 hours? hopefully less. i dunno how im gonna write the actual paper during exams lah. die man.

ive been feeling so purposeless. like every time i think of school, i get so depressed. i think i just really want to get the next 1 1/2 years over and done with.

anyway. when i was walking down for combined cell yesterday, suddenly i remembered so many things. so many many many things. that are gone, like, forever. but well, i guess there are other things to take its place.

i should learn to be thankful.