Wednesday, October 31, 2007

UUUUURGHHHHHHHH

wow.

ive been awfully tired.

whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

okay lets see.

last week of school really not much. just a bit stressed out over ms kon's farewell but everything still ran smoothly. good job lesley and salad! ((:

went shopping (ahem) over the weekend to get clothes for sabbaticals. 3 pairs of pants, $25 each (:O!), 1 black blouse, $19.90 and 1 red shirt-cum-dress, $12. like over a hundred bucks man. ssshhhpftt. just for 10 days. but aiyar.

monday was first day at work! not much, we had a lotttt of briefing by the people there, and then for the rest of the day stare at the computer and key in data. that is surprisingly highly tiring. like seriously. and very headachey. after work then went to toa payoh to buy clothes with yuen shin. and i bought corner with love dvd! $20 only! damn cheap lah. ahhha.

anyway. tuesday typed for the first half of the day. then after lunch met our colleague at centrepoint, then she brought us around orchard. daaaaaamn slack lah. hahah i guess cos we're interns then they dont wanna give us things to do in case we screw up.

today typed for first half of the day again, met more people, then after lunch went to meet another colleague. this time, she brought us to hotels. oooh. ahhaha yeah then cos company say sth went wrong, so we go home early. ahhaha.

yeah then i went down to airport! to see the dehli, chennai and australia people off. and the worst thing was, i wore the wrong pair of shoes today and today we walked the mossstttt plus airport. damn siao. and my feet are sore and aching now. oooooouuuuuuuuuuuuch.

tmr going to stay over at joan's, then friday morning send japan lang arts ppl off. then after that go work and then i dunno whether to go for cell or send eastern europe ppl. haiyoh.

sunday got japan humanities trip, then i dunno when the china one is, then 26th nov obs. i see if i can go and send em off. its like, at people's assoss. whereeeeee?

mmmmm everyone's flying off. and leaving poor kat in singapore all aloneeeeee. nvm! the following is an attempt to cheer kat up! do not try this at home lest you get depression!

1)the ppl going overseas are gonna be homesick!
2)the ppl going overseas are gonna miss SG food!
3)the ppl going overseas are gonna waste lots of money!
4)the ppl going overseas are gonna miss all the discounts in SG!
5)the ppl going overseas are gonna be under the control of teachers!
6)the ppl going overseas are gonna be stuck with ppl they dont like that are on the same trip for at least 6 WHOLE DAYS!(imagine that!)

aiyar. my attempt not very successful. they're all gonna have lotsa fun and partying and stuuuuuuuuuufff while im stuck in the stupid office.

NVM! at least i saved loads of cash. i mean, if you plus everything together, i spent about $156.90 for sabbaticals and the next cheapest is like... $1000. at least $600 even with edusave and subsidy and whatnots right! so that's most impt for an auntie like me. plus, i get to meet nice new ppl, get to be part of the working population and i found some places with damn good food.

BUT AIYAR. craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap. it'll be damn fun to go overseas lah! and the stupid attachment make my feet ache like siao. even my calf is affected. like huh?!

but anyway. dont care lah. im hoping to get stuff from the ppl going to diff countries, but i highly doubt it. ahhaha.

oh wells. im really really tired for some unknown reason. :O! so i will um. blog again when i have hui fued my energy.

ill be back;.

whispers hello i miss you quite terribly
TALK LOUDER LAH CANNOT HEAR!

Monday, October 22, 2007

unappreciated (?)

wow. its been a long week.

got back results. not the best, not the worst. i failed amath by 5 marks. not as bad as i expected lah so its all right. overall l1r5 14 points. i dont think it's good. but kelly says its okay and she got 11. am i supposed to be comforted?

marcus says:
hahha kat
marcus says:
how were you exams?
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
can die lah
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
i did worse than i thought
marcus says:
lol l1r5?
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
14
marcus says:
okay what
marcus says:
its better than my prelim l1r5
marcus says:
wth
marcus says:
hahaha
marcus says:
i screwed up prelimsssssssssss
marcus says:
hahahaha
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
but im only sec 3 h
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
eh
marcus says:
hahahaha
marcus says:
shit eh.both your sisters too smart already
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
hahah yeah i got no braisn mannnn
marcus says:
thats why i think you dont feel good about your score
marcus says:
but really.i think its okay

thank you marcus!<3

i screwed up bio spa too. but so did everyone else so nevermind.

friday was really tiring. i was down the entire day. like just feeling super emo. and i got scolded countless times and highly annoyed. and wah, i super felt like crying lah. but anyway. lydia counselled me and i felt soooo much better after that. lyddie has therapeutic powers. :O

hahah anyway. after school, went to vivo, walked around 3 times, had like 10 minutes games trial then went off. so pointless. ahhaha. but eh, vivo quite nice ehh. haha had dinner with bev at ikea, got tgd presents. thank you bev! dinner was awesome.(:

oh and also! on friday, cos i was upset and down and all, and everything just really sucked, but God spoke to me! cos i have this bookmark in my bible, then on the way to vivo i accidentally pulled it out and it read "learning through failures" and i felt it was really just so amazing that God is truly with us no matter where we are, no matter what we're feeling. and its really comforting.

tgd on saturday! i was actually quite reluctant to go, cos its so...social gathering - ish, and even yanka said she was surprised i went, but yeah. still went in the end. went back to hillview first though. damn nostalgic. really sucks. i miss hillview so much. it sounds friggin dumb, but i just do.

didnt do much at the party. stupid goh rolled into an ants' nest. damn smart lah she. spent most of the night having sub-party with jiap. and shepherd's pie. hahaha. "free food free food!" says jiap to kat. hahaha.


bev!


jaime stuffing popcorn


abby supposed to kiss lianne. ahhaha.


smack that!


grace! and abby.


deniseeeee!


hahaha yanka the spastic


abby!






plees!


jiap!


shepherd's pie aka kats favourite sub-party food.


andree!

anyway. not much lah. it was okayy.

sunday was pretty all right. had church and stuff, usual, still havent gotten cell name though. oh dear.


keewee!





my bookshelf is SO neat im surprised. :O


grace and char!


tricia's sweet! its suuuuper addictive.


pris! head prefects eh. (:


tricia! fellow ouran fan!:D


my sister((((((((:


church gang man. ahahha.


von!


maoooo!(:

and in case anyone plans to forget me, there are TWO pictures.(:



ah. im excited.(: despite my tone. ive watched (quite) a lot of x-family. awesome stupid show. hahaha. i feel happy when i think bout it.

ive finally gotten rid of my drug.(: i still cant let it go, but im learning to. and im improving.((:

okay peanut, reply to tags. hahah

nicole toh, you are seriously too bored. no, my cat is definitely cuter than your dog, and chocolate doesnt make you cough, it makes you go high. for me at least. haha.

hello choo! i havent seen you for so long! :O

yes jaime liew, i reply my tags okay!

hahahah wahhh july you cmi lah really! its emphysema. ahhaha okay maybe not. AIYAR exams over man. OVERRRR. hahahah. yeah totally not flooding you know. ahhaha.

okok pictures will be up on facebook soon, yanka! and yes, i will tag you, dont worry.

all right. now i have to get back to work. *slugggggggggg*

He will carry you when you cant carry on.

edit/im getting really tired. why is it that when i want to help, no one wants me to help. it seems my presence has become an inconvenience for people. maybe i just really shouldnt be around at all. maybe people would be so much happier.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Lord im amazed

ugh.

been COUGHing really quite badly lately. throat hurts alot, chest pain, blocked nose, etc etc.

anyway. past weekend since after exams have been pretty crazy. friday morning had campus938live recording. hhahaha apparently uncle andrew heard me. but anyway. yeah then had training, then cc went for lunch and had meeting. very fruitful! so very good. then after that walked in the rain from btp to beauty world to meet certain people. and it was so friggin cold lah. so now im like sick. which is really not good. anyway. yeah then went to joans, watched half of secret, then went down to cell and then went home. then saturday i packed the house! so proud of myself. then went for cell. cell was sooooo awesome. pat spoke on the sermon on the mount, and after her sermon, then she called for those who wanted to feel more of God in their lives to step forward, so i did, and the holy spirit just totally came over me. and like, cos i was quite stressed during thursday and friday, so i was quite bottled up, but before God i couldnt help but just really let everything out. and it was good cry. it's been a long time.

i'm really really glad God called me back to him on saturday. cos like, yeah, pretty busy during thursday and friday, then in the midst of all my business, i really lost God. like, totally couldnt feel his presence. and on friday night after cell, i really felt like crying cos i felt so lost and alone and that God just wasnt there. but yanka called me and that prevented me from crying. but i really really am once again, amazed by God's graciousness and love for me.

thank you yanks for the talk on friday. it really helped to be able to share with someone what i was thinking about being different when with different people. you called me for me to help you but you ended up helping me. haha and i dont even know if i managed to help you or not. hahah. but anyway. thanks yah.

my temperament's been a little short lately. i dont know why. im not feeling the best physically, and getting very violent mood swings. a bit scary. but if ive been rude to anyone, i am really so sorry and i still love you very much so i hope you still love me too!((:

anyway. today, cell retreat. after service, then we met up, went for meeting then went for lunch and stuff. our cell is super retarded. we spent dunno how long just to decide where to eat and ended up eating at bk. ahahha piang ehhh. but im grateful for this bunch of people. cos they make me laugh a lot. and we're all gonna stayover at tricia's and go home tomorrow. damn sad lah, no camera. so annoying. *HINTHINT*

anyway. i realise a lot of people have been pretty emotional lately, myself included. and i also realise that despite however happy and problem free you appear to be, there's always that small bottle of emoness in everyone that needs to be poured out. and sometimes, that emoness tends to spread. but as long as it gets cleaned up, i think its pretty all right. so let it all out, but remember to clean up.(:

many things to settle in the coming weeks. i really need to draw strength from God to sustain me through everything. and i need to stop procrastinating too. ahhah.

sigh. i have a lot of things to say to a lot of people, but i dont wanna do it here, cos its well, kinda personal. but then i'll need to find the time and courage to tell the person. toughhhhh.

BERNICE JULY CHAN YOU ARE SO RETARDED. you flood like crazyyyyyy lah! ahhaha anyway. glad you're back to normal. or abnormal. haha! okay not funny. but really lah. call anytime okay.(: i dont ever wanna tell you, or anyone else, for that matter, one more time that you can call me to talk cos you should already know all right.(:

okay. now i need to uhm. find something else to do. ohh! and pris and i cycled and I FELL. pain sia. but heck lahh. ahhah.

ohoh! and...

all this is cocoa:

no just kidding. it's sand.

how deep
how wide
how great
is Your love for me

Thursday, October 11, 2007

cause i know You're alive

happy birthday:

5th october.
tian kong



hahaha no just kidding.


but you lookin' down friend!

7th october.
MY FAVOURITE((:


8th october.
DENISE; DENEPHEW.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YALL MEMBERS OF THE OUTING GANNNGGGGGGG. we outing again soon yeahh!((:

exams are over! okay i know this is like. LATE. but exams are still over! and im excited. not bout getting results, but like hols. actually. just nov camp lah. ahah but lotsa things to do.

im grateful for all the support given to me by the many people around me.
my mum, who told me she didnt care whether i passed or fail, as long as i did my best, which helped a lot cos i didnt feel the need to live up to anyone's expectations.
kelly, who spent like 4 hours straight helping me with log and who assured me that i'll be able to get my few more marks even if i failed.
worship partners abbie, plee and lesley, whom i believe also got through exams by their faith and who also got renewed and reassured daily just as i was; worship really helped me super a lot and i hope it helped yall too!
jiap, my talking about interesting rubbish partner; thank you so much for the nice, albeit pink, post it and all my failing amath and your failing chem.
esther, for telling me to keep telling myself i can do it.
cheo, for always asking me whether i wanted to study or not or else i really wont study.
peanut, for always being there and listening to me and somehow still have time to study.
my hubby!(: for remembering me even in the midst of exams yourself.
bobbb! for always encouraging me and reminding me to turn to God even in the midst of exams.
yanka for being so negative so that others can be positive (doode i mean it in a good way all right.)
pat! for always praying and telling me to press on.
vicky for attempting to help me with amath but i still cannot do it.
grace for always scolding me when i say i cant.
mrs ng (hahah) for telling me its okay even if i dont do well for history.
and for EVERYONE ELSE who have in one way or another, big or small, helped me through the exams.

I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

exams really wouldnt be exams without you guys. hahaha.

mmmm im feeling so relaxed now.

yesterday was really funny. after school i went to lesley's house then we watched disturbia and did stuff. then after met 3o people at cine. and omg yesterday was really destress day. hahah we went on the carousels and we were totally kids lah. hhaha and jiap im never playing tic tac toe with you again. ahhaha. but thank you it was really fun.<3

today had pb training. ahahha quite fun lah. but quite heavy though. ahhaha july i hope youre all right! after that went down to town to meet zoe and had lunch and had good talk. ((: i'm really really happy we managed to finally have lunch together. i hope you had fun too mentee.((:

no pictures cos 1)i have no camera and 2)i dont know.

anyway. its time to figure out how to use facebook. someone help?

came to fix my broken life<3

Thursday, October 04, 2007

my chains are gone
i've been set free
my God my Saviour
has ransomed me

and like a flood
His mercy rains
unending love
Amazing Grace