wahaha

sorry. my lecture paper reads that.
i'm alive! hahahahah
anyway. blog will be updated after exams lah. so yeah. anyway. i have a math problem. anyone wanna help? : ))))

haha! i got 38/50 for chinese book test. I BEAT JOYCELYN!
i felt really good yesterday cos i advised suyi cos of some misunderstanding.

blank says:
forget it.
blank says:
let them be pissed at me.
blank says:
i DONT CARE ANYMORE.
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: but listen, k, friends play a very impt part in your life, ok, they are the ones who catch you when you fall, who praise you when you do sth good and whatever quarrels you've had, end them quickly. although you may think losing just one or two friends isnt a big deal, its actually a VERY HUGE deal. cos those two people make a diff in your life and you wont realise until you've lost them. [mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: so treasure them and esp joan, whom you've known for so long
blank says: okay.
blank says: thanks.
blank says: i'll TRY.
blank says: but what can I do?
blank says: she doesnt want to talk to me
blank says: sigh
blank says: i'll let her cool down lar.
blank says: then i'l try again
blank says: thanks katt.
blank says: you ROCK.
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: yes, let her cool down
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: man. i cant believe i actually typed all that
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: haha blank says: so INSPIRING
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: i can become a full-time counsellor man

haah. i just HAD to add in the counsellor part. oh well. : ) oh there's more.. what will happen if i become an author?

blank says: you should think of a career as a councellor or something
blank says: it payys big bucks too
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: haha [mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: yeah maybe
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: yeah. maybe i should huh?
blank says: YUP
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: since i cant do anything else
blank says: HEY.
blank says: you can...
blank says: BE A WRITER
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: no! [mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: i cant write for nuts
blank says: who writes children gay stories
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: haha [mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: no way
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: my godfather is ignoring me
blank says: you'll get thrown in jail
blank says: ooo
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: why! blank says: GAY CHILDEREN STORIES.
blank says: HELLO?!?
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: oh [mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: haha [mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: i wont write that then!
blank says: hah
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: but if i do go to jail will you visit me?
blank says: yaoi
blank says: OF COURSE
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: yeah! you learnt yaoi!
blank says: i'll bring you a cake with a file init.
blank says: then you can file your way out.
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: huh? blank says: through the bars.
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: huh? blank says: a nail file
blank says: then you can file your way out of prison
blank says: you can ESCAPE.
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: um. i dont get it
blank writes:
blank says: use the nail file to saw your way out of prison through the metal bars
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: huh? [mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: i really dont get it
blank says: nvm
blank says: hah
blank says: i'm in a good mood now
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: sorry
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: i'm really slow
blank says: you are THE BEST COUNCELLOR
[mac!!!] /-/- life without Jesus is like a donut -/-/ -->our God is an awesome God<-- says: counsellor
blank says: youre not slow i'm not making any sense

haha. man am i slow. oh well. at least they've patched up, everyone one is happy and gay. no, happy and well. : ))))))))))))) now, onto pw... ughh..

monday's sermon!:

Words...do they really make any difference?

It disturbs me when I read some of the blogs postered by Christian youths to find bits of profanity scattered throughout. If any one of us is to come across such blogs we should do our best to correct our fellow BASIC* that it is not proper to do such a thing. (*BASIC = Brothers and Sisters in Christ)

Think along with me on this. Is it really cool to use for example the "F" word even though we have it creatively spelt differently so as to put a guise to it? Come on, who are we trying to fool?Jesus says, just by our very thoughts, we can commit adultery (Matthew 5:28) so how much more our words? How can we from the same mouth say we are a Christian, wanting to praise God and then another moment, use words that brings no glory to God?

James 3:3-13 is very clear about Christians living a life of controversy. It seems that we no longer want to practice what Jesus taught but prefer to practice what we rather have preached instead.

Perhaps in the eyes of the world, profanity or loose words are really no big deal, after all words are just words as they can't actually break any physical bones. “Hai ya, why get so worked up, after all it is only words...so what?!? What is the big deal? Why kick such a big fuss? You Christians are so petty and narrow-minded. This also cannot, that also cannot.”

Yet do you know to Jesus, our careless words hurt Him because one day we will be judged by it (Matthew 12:36-37) and I know God does not enjoy punishing us because John 3:16 tells us very clearly how much He loves us and wants us to return to Him.
If you study what is going on around us, you will very quickly discover that the world today challenges the teachings of Jesus more so than any other time by telling us that what matters today is our individual rights, our individuality, our choices, our preferences, who we want to be, etc., these are the things that truly matter in life.

While it is true we should be who we are and not try to be someone else or not let anyone try change us...we need to know where to draw the line, we need to know whom we should model our lives after and we need to know what is proper and what is not. In case you have not noticed, the middle letter of "sin" is ‘I’ and that clues us to where it all begins.

The word “sin” does not refer only to hideous crimes, it also means to miss the mark. We will miss the mark if we put the focus of life on ourselves, on the desires and wants of the human flesh and not on God. Sin then is anything that pulls us away from God, yes…our words alone can separate us from God. (Please visit Matthew 12:36-37 again)

In order for us to survive in this world and truly enjoy being a Christian, we need to understand that the Christian faith is not all about a set of rules that boils down to a list of “do’s” and “don’ts”. If you see the Christian faith this way, then you have failed to understand what being a Christian is all about.

The Bible is not a discipline book where God uses to find fault with us. The Bible is God’s living Word to guide, comfort and encourage us. The Bible not only reveals the Father’s heart it also contains pearls of wisdom that would help us live a life that returns us to the original intent of Creation and that is to be in the presence of God.

Do we need to watch our words? Yes, please do…after all, our words, what we say, either verbally, through emails, SMSes, tagging or in a blog, etc., they all reflect our inner thoughts which in turn reveals to the rest of the world who we truly are, in other words, the true nature and condition of our heart.

And I don't think we are glorifying God if we go around claiming to be a Christian when our words reflect nothing of Christ.

So let us get our lives right with God, let us return to the Lord with the simple act of minding our words and let that be our worship unto Him.

Amen.

-pewgrimsprogress.blogspot.com

wow... Pastor Edwin is real goooooooood. : )

why hello sandra! : DDDD
i'm sorry i didn't write for you! because at that time your brother was online and and reprimanding me for something (i think) and you dont talk to me on msn.
anyway, since i love you so much, i shall proclaim it here and now!

ilovesann!

NO ONE can make me forget the times we spent together in church camp as roomies. : )))))) and how we gossipped late late late into the night and slept at about 2.30 a.m. every night! missed those times. and i still remember the time on the first day, you stood at the door with your arms crossed in a *pose*. haha. and told me all your little secrets and i told you mine. haha and how when we were bored we went over to ian and isaac's room to disturb them and the "sterelised glasses" that you put on isaac's bed. haha. fun eh. we should do that sometime again. and the big and heavy key! hahaha. and remember all the mtvs that we watched! so fun. "Brushing teeth is healthy." man. all three of you are like you should brush your teeth in the morning and before you go to bed. haha. so guai. : DDDDDDDDDDDD
anyhow. i've known you for pretty long huh. since i was p3 if i'm not wrong. i'm not sure if you remember, but we used to be in the containers having lessons. haha. quite cool, but small. man.... i really wanna go back to church camp times when we all bonded and everyone was happy. haha. now it makes no difference whether we went for church camp or not cos everyone's just back to their normal routine of "hi" and "bye". the only difference is the memories. we should plan a trip sometime, for naphtali, yeah! haha.

there ya go! long long long proclamation of love for you! i really mean what i say k! : ) <33<33

man... today sermon was soooooooooooooooo good. : )))) pewgrim's progress. haha. but the message was good lah. about returning to the Lord. i think our chaplins are really good lah
i think God really blessed us and stuff.
hello joan! nice to meet you! : DDDDDDDDD
now, lipin is beside me doing dunno what and joan just kicked her leg against the chair i think. anyway. today had bio test. so gonna fail like crap lah. haha. amusing. joan just called me a 'little snitch'. haha. yes, anyway, chinese test tmr. seriously gotta study man or else my whole... exam thing is gonna crash lah. haha. oh well. someone please force me to study!!!

haha. ok, ok, study study study.

rawr.

maaaaaaan.
i'm sooooo tired. this blogg took me like forever. but i'm real happy with it. : DDDDDDDDDDD
i've decided not to like be all dark and scary cos i thought i should have some respect for God's word and like, i think i've been backsliding a bit over time and i learnt about the occult today and i dont wanna be doing something wrong without knowing about it. so yeah. i feel super good now. everyone says i sound happy. i guess thats good lah. today was really good too. good lesson and very very fufilling. (: yeash. basically, right now, when like, exams are nearing and all, i think i'm really gonna rely alot on Him to help me through this difficult period of time. He's helped me so so so so much. cant thank Him enough! (:

and i've made a resolution to go for 2nd service worship from next week onwards, be alone or not. please remind me yeah!

mum says that if i pass my finals, she's gonna get me a new phone and a line. wow... haha. and today dad said that he'll buy me a top-up card, which is supposed to last me for a month, then when my results come out, they'll decide whether to get me a phone or not. but i really hope i do well this year, and get good results, not just for the phone, but i dont want to disappoint God, mum and dad and myself as well. so i have to start mugging and mugging and mugging already! someone please support me through this time and keep... zhi chi - ing me can! and push me all the way so i will really study! :))))))

haha. yay.

ok ian, i hate ian happy. fine, i<33you, coconut tree brother! thanks for being there for me all the way and listening to my trash everytime and like ... um. just being there during the church camp and stuff with isaac. thank you guyssss so much! <33 you! : )

salt comm '06
president - yolanda Joahanna
vice-president - Chui Ting
program i/c - jen
treasurer - i still dunno

oh well. haha. whatever.

suyi's got a blog. o.O amusing

Our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom, pow'r and love
Our God is an awesome God!

wow. today's church was goooood. studied about peer pressure, obedience better than sacrifice, and the occult. like if you back mast 'hotel california' by the eagles, you hear 'marijuana' and 'satan is god'. quite cool. and we discussed the ouija board. i think it was a bit too deep for us though. oh well. church has been so fun lately! : DDDDDDDD and charisse came again this week, which is good. i hope she comes permanently. i think she likes it.

hm... i think its time to change skin.

i hate ian.

man. i'm such a failure. i seriously can't do anything right.

i finished the pw powerpoint and sent it over to suyi and she said it sucked. see! proves to everyone i'm such a failure right. shitshitshitshitshitshitshit. i'm so useless.

and if you havent already guessed, my tag board isn't up cos i cant get the stupid template to work BECAUSE I AM SUCH A FAILURE! man! i suck. shit. i'm such a hopeless idiot.

ugh. i really wanna just like. die and like... i dunno . get brainwashed or something. but just forget everything that ever happened to me. and become and idiot again and get back to square one. shit

mooncakes suck. chocolate ones arent bad though. they've got liquor in them. but it white chocolate. at least its snow skin.

argh!!! i'm so random! i suck! and i owe so many people letters! argh. shit. no time no time no time.

uselessuselessuselessuseless.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

breathe.

can't seem to be able to talk to anyone anymore. it's just so difficult. everyone's changing. really wanna cry my heart out but i can't seem to. so many bloody problems in life. and i'm really atrting to hate my family. i don't know, i just don't feel any happiness when i'm with them. it's all just an act. all fake. i'm such an idiot.
no one's there. it doesn't matter. i'm insignificant in eveyone's eyes anyway. nothing matters anymore. i really feel like breaking down. really wanna escape from reality. really wanna die. i'm just so lost, i don't know what to do anymore. i hate my family, i hate life, nothing seems to be working out for me anymore. nothing ever worked out for me anyway.
i don't want to rely on anybody anymore. i feel so weak. i feel exceptionally emotionally weak when i actually have to cry and tell someone my feelings. i'm such a burden. why can't i be a stronger person? didn't i already resolve to be a stronger person and stop crying already? am i really that weak. so weak to the extent that i have to rely on someone to feel better?
nothing makes sense. nothing ever did.
and here i am, pathetically screaming out my thoughts. no one's gonna read it anyway. doens't matter. no one remembers me. i'm just this useless piece of thing that can't do a thing right. i screwed up so many events. i'm so disorganised. wonder if anyone would realise if i died? i'm gonna fall back into depression real soon. i'm such a shit. screwed up shit. unimportant thing
i doubt anyone actually cares for me. really beginning to wonder if my friends are REALLY my friends. after all, i'm useless and i have no talents.
shit i should never have entered this damn earth.
trash everything

rightie! this is exceptionally for megan, actually:

unless you already know, meg:

salt comm '06
president - yolanda
vice- president - chui ting
program i/c - jen
treasurer - dunno. she's a scholar.

this is all from vera. but stef told me the pres was actually joahanna, so i'm not sure. oh well.

comp sucks.
ugh
don't wanna wake up! (x3)

heh.

anyway. custard puff that i'm eating sucks. but it's making me high.

(note to self: never attempt to make ice-cream ever again)

*snoreeeeeeeeee*

cough. feed me my letters! or i shall be cranky and annoying and spoilt. >(

scrapped princess!!! yum. ( :

my mum is being weird and kiddish.

i missed the krymidish outing cos of pw!
pw sucks...

oh well.

i'm feeling randomised. ok, i really dunno what to say. maybe cos my life isn't as interesting as vicky's or megg's or i'm just... ;_;
not loved.
*squats and cries away in a corner*

cough

that point being made i shall go to sleep now.

in reply to ian lim wei's apology letter dated thursday, 8 sept, 10:39 pm, whilst watching the oc,

first off: you ACTUALLY got my chinese name correct. kudos to you.
secondly: i am NOT your "coconut-tree" sister.
thirdly: i accept your apology for calling me stupid
fourthly: have you ever wondered why i keep saying "huh"? maybe because you DO NOT MAKE YOUR SENTENCES CLEAR.
fifthly: i love you too.

you are forgiven.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!
OMG i wanna KILL kren.
she just killed my hair!
;_;
she cut it and its uber short now.
i look like a boy. -_-
no, wait, a japanese boy.
a japanese, nerdy boy cos of my fringe.
gosh, save me, somebody!
yuckyuckyuckyuck
"hi mrs bunny!!"
"where is she hiding?"
"here? here?"
haha. excuse me. i'm watching child of our time. interesting show, really.
i can't stand my hair. I. WANT. CLAY.
gimme clay.
ew yuck gross sick UGH!!!!!
i wanna kill someone.

ian you owe me a letter.
and i'll hate you till you give it to me.
raaaaaaaa

i <33 you en!

ALL RIGHT!

haha. managed to get new skin. ^^ happy happy

joycelyn apparently thinks she's the greatest.

sure she is.

everyone, TAG ME.

hahah. man, i'm such a slacker. supposed to do pw and we completely didn't do anything lor. we're losers.

everyone agree?!

hahha. oh welllllllll.

a leopard can never change its spots, can it?

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