oooh i think im coming down with something. or maybe its just a reaction. pffffffft.

man i wish i wasnt allergic to my cat. or that my cat wouldnt be so retarded.

hm okay today was very very slack. had church. we're like going through the old testament books now so its quite fun. haha. yeah then cos only mum and i went to eat lunch, so mum brought us to delifrance bistro. whoa. the lamb shank there is amazing. really. its super super yummy. :D

yeah then after that we came home and like i did teleword puzzle and fell asleep. slept for bout 5 hours i think. then woke up at bout roughly 8, had dinner, went to bathe and watched tv. that was it. ahaha my my. im terrible. and we're only 7 weeks away from exams! pffffft. tsktsk

and i really think im coming down with something. my nose is acting up like crazy. my eyes are itchy. im itching all over. oh man its how irritating. ahhhhhh.

okay ART ART CONCENTRATE FIRST!

-later

and so i got distracted

You Are 38% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Your Birth Month is June

Peaceful and harmonious, you seek the gentle side of life. Your warmth and consideration touches many. Your soul reflects: Friendship, love, and beauty Your gemstone: Pearl Your flower: Rose Your colors: Light blue, white, and cream

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest: You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth. At Your Lowest: You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked. In Love: You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve. How You're Attractive: You are very affectionate and inspire trust. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Respected?"

What's" Your Power Color?

Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul. You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have. Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone. You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are 68% Brutally Honest

Most of the time, you tell it like it is. Even if it's hard for people to hear. Sometimes you hold back though, because you never want your honesty to be hurtful.

How Brutally Honest Are You?

You Are Dr. Pepper

You're very unique and funky, yet you still have a bit of traditionalism to you. People who like you think they have great taste... and they usually do. Your best soda match: Root Beer Stay away from: 7 Up

What Kind of Soda Are You?

You Are: 30% Dog, 70% Cat

You and cats have a lot in common. You're both smart and in charge - with a good amount of attitude. However, you do have a very playful side that occasionally comes out!

Are You More Cat or Dog?

You Are 24% Vain

Okay, so you're slightly vain from time to time, but you're not superficial at all. You are realistic. You know that looks matter. You just try to make them matter less.

How Vain Are You?

You Are Apple Pie

You're the perfect combo of comforting and traditional Those who like you crave security

What Kind of Pie Are You?

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

Your Ideal Pet is a Cat

You're both aloof, introverted, and moody. And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed!

What's" Your Ideal Pet?

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

You Were a Cat

You are an independent person who inspires others with your dreams. A calm protector, you will fight when you need to.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

You Are 72% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

mmm. blogthings is amazing fun. hahah

HOOOOOOOOOO

this world is such a crazy place. the strangest things really happen to you at the strangest times. hahah. really. lately, soooo many things have happened. i dunno if they're good or bad, but theyre just strange. i supposed some are good, while others not so good. mmhmm. and today i was thinking that there is actually a positive side to everything. like really. EVERYTHING. there's really so much to be thankful for. and like. i really wish i can just bear that in mind and remember it.

oh well. i shall TRY. mmhmm.

so i shed.ded. uhm. nevermind. but i quite like this skin. got lyrics of nice song somemore. hahah.

hm...

anyway. ive really got nothing much to post lah. meiyan just told me that we're like 7 weeks away from exams. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i should just go jump man. POSITIVE POSITIVE!

oh maaaaaaaaaan. im feeling so fake. pffffffffft. im so super crapped up man what the blast.

THANK YOU POPS!
you amazing person. haaha you're always able to cheer me up and stuff and you're always so patient with me! i love you man. ((((((: you deserve THE BEST HUSBAND award. :D

but waiting for you seems like waiting for the world to end.

hmm...... ultraviolet<3

okay so what happened. i got lost while trying to get to crown centre and waited like siao for mariko and to cut a looooooooooong story short (cos i really dont wanna talk bout it) when we finally met up it was like 630+++ so we decided to cab down and we werent late after all! :D hahaha so yeah. but man was i irritated cos everything was so screwed up and stuff. but it turned out okay.

mm so then we cabbed down to expo and got in and stuff. then we decided to stand and we were pretty close to the stage! so it was quite cool. haha and we were near the jumpee thingie...thing. mmhmm. haha we got quite a good spot lah. yeah then the worship was pretty good. though i didnt know some songs. but it was okay cos i just prayed if i didnt know the song. so yeah. i prayed a lot a lot. (: then the testimonial was good. i mean. i dunno, for me it was like magical. like. the way God works. you just simply cant question Him. He's so amazing. like whoa. mmhmm. yepp then it ended quite early surprisingly. it was nice lahh. yeah.

then after that we went to eat and then went home. hm... quite okay lah. ohh but my my... i must post this.

like cos we trained back then during the train ride i collapsed. well, i din crumple into a heap or anything, but it was like.. i was soooo tired and my knees decided to give way. then i just like fell forward a bit. luckily there was this malay lady there and she caught me of else i would have just fallen lah. i dunno man, my knees just suddenly bent and like i dunno. haha i was just so tired lah. then my mind was blank. haha how embarrassing. but nevermind.

pictures! not much though. i didnt really feel like taking.





















in the cab. well, lets just say we got bored.



















i was trying to take the balloons (if you can see) but didnt work out



















another failed attempt. nevermind.



















the jumpee thingie! can you see the ropes then the guy. not clear lah but nevermind.



















again!



















aha! close up of the balloons that were in the air.



















i couldnt resist the lights. haha




















clockwise from bottom left: sarah, nicole,charlene, larisa

mmmmmmmm

ultraviolet later. (: but i shall do a quick update first hm.

okay. so today, there is only 1 word to describe it. SLACK. like really.

okay chinese we learnt the right way of writing reflections then we were left to brainstorm and dunno what. then pe. pe was fun. soccer. ahha it was quite screwed up. but it was super tiring. but thats okay. then we did super little for history cos mrs pandian came in 15 minutes late. yeah we did like. 3 slides? which is terribly little. yeah then math was okay. we went to comp lab. i think mrs chen fell or something cos shes like limping. should pray for her. and for all the people falling/sick. mmhmm. then math was quite okay lah. then ve we had to do some weird test thingie. i think i failed man. hahah. oh well.

oh yeah. during history lydia and i came up to a conclusion: most (if not all) teachers like andrea a lot. hahaha

nevermind that didnt make sense. okay anyway. then after school i went to 2d and like talked a bit and stuff then oh maaaan. we pro lah. after a while suyi asked me to go to the front door and it was STUCK. like really. couldnt move. the door and the other side, they were jammed together. then we tried all sorts of things like pushing, pulling, kicking but all didnt work. then finally, suyi counted and then me, mariko and suyi kicked the door together and

BOOM!

it opened:D

hahah so bright eh. hahahahah.

oh well. ULTRAVIOLET WHOOOOO

hmm okay im seriously really blogging tooooo much.

eh i dunno why i posted that previous post man. so lowwww.

ahhaha anyway. today was super super high day for me. i dunno why. ok lesse.

uhm... i went to school in the morning to get history textbook and print stuff for jie. my my i feel so nice okay. like 20+++ pages for her onlyyyy. ahahaha. but anyway. then i came home, ate PENG GUI(: drowned in sweet sauce. i think thats what made me high. ahhah then after that i just started laughing and laughing and i was just really really all the way up there. hahahah

yeah then uhm i didnt do any work at all today! i was like. completely slack. ): yar and i was super bored lah. yeah then i slacked slacked slacked then i got emo =X hence the previous post and then mabel came over to get hsm and then dunno lah. a whole lot of junk happened today. hahah but me and jie were retarded. and i cam whored AGAIN. i need to be banned from the camera i tell you. haha sigh.

hm nat got in. thought so. ahhh but she doesnt know if shes gonna go yet or not.

for some reason, daphne khoo's desperate comforts me. i dunno. i listened to it yday at granddy's place when i was upset then like it cheered me up lah. i dunno why. then junnow also when i was emo. i kept listening to it and i dunno. its got nice lyrics. though i cant really hear some of it.

i think my cat has an infected eye. ):

okay okay reply to tags:

joan: hahha really! thats retarded. ahhaha

jo: hhahah you can go next year! it'll be lotsa fun next year. (: and im not blind lahh! we really dont look alike okayyyy. hahah. and yes, IRRITATING PRIMARY SCHOOL GIRLS. hahaha

rae: ahahah noooo we're really different man. ahahah seriously okay.

charmaine: hahaha hi char(: hahaha yar hor you very observant ah. ahhaha

mab: hey mab! haha you tc too yeah! love love!

pomelo: mwehheheheh your obituary thing is very funny. haha

Megan: noooooo meg! you're supposed to agree with ME. haha love!

jie: EH WHEN DID YOU COME! intruuuuuuder. hahahha

MABEL!!: ahhahaha you're welcome! hope you had your fill. hahaha. oh and mum bought us more food when she got home. :DDDDD

miao: hahaha hello miao. hahah yeah i know lahh. haha dunno what came over me. "sudden realisation." hahaha

meiyan: hahaha meiyaaaaaaan. you always abandoning me man. pfffffft.>( hahaha kidding kidding I LOVE YOU TOOO. (((((((((:

hm short post before blogger dies.

ill post pics up some other time. i seem to suddenly have taken a lot of pictures. gramma's birthday, netties, granddad's birthday/nd. hahaha okay okay pictures for netties and nd/granddy's birthday another time lah.

i know this is quite a late post lah but i was just thinking bout it.

quite some time ago, meiyan told me she got accepted into nj. for some reason i got quite emo bout it? i dunno. i just did lah. cos like i dunno. but anyway. i asked her if she was gonna go then she was like dunno, but most probably yes cos she prayed and said that if God has a plan for her in nj, God would let her go through. i guess the decision ultimately is up to her.

then after that nat told me on friday (the one on fop) that she was gonna go for interview on saturday. then i was like. i dunno. i was sort of pissed lah. though i know im really not in a position to be. cos its really their choice and stuff. but anyway. i smsed her on saturday and she said the interview went well so i think shes got a pretty high chance of getting in and she probably is going to ip.

then like during the musical stef told me she's going to london to study. that one is confirmed. and she's leaving in bout 3 weeks. but she said she'll be back quite often.

siiiiiiiiiiigh. i really dunno what got me so upset. i really dont want them to go. i mean, its not like im gonna see them everyday anyway or anything, but its just i dunno. i just dont want them to go. like for meiyan. i only got to know her last year during like swim meet but we're quite close and stuff and she's just been there for me so much. i dont want her to go. i dunno lahh. i just dont.

then nat. im not say super super close to nat but we talk and when we talk, we talk quite a lot and its just i dunno. itll be different without her i guess. and argh its just so irritating lah. so many people have already walked out of my life lah. i know its not as though im not gonna ever see them again or anything or not talk to them, but we'll definitely drift right! and like. itll just be like awkward. argghhhhhh.

then stef. london. all the way to uk. hm. abandoning all her friends behind. i know we dont like meet up as much but we talk a lot on msn especially at night and its like once she gets to london, the time there will be different then we wont get to talk as much anymore and ahhh. i dunno lah.

so many people have left/are leaving me)))): i know im being super selfish and spoilt but i really dont want them to go lah. and suyi is also leaving. she says she may leave next year cos she doesnt wanna take chinese. i dont think its a good enough reason to leave right. and once everyone leaves i wont get to see them as often anymore. ))))))):

AHHHHH.

maybe I should be the one leaving huh. no one would realise anyway.

koped from ian

'What" will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

yay i love you mr. potatohead. hahah since youll be the one missing me. hahahah

pffffft. so even my obituary hates me. anyway. it says:

"Evilly sulking around the neighbourhood, kathleen kwan died a hilarious death.

kathleen kwan will be terribly missed by Mr. Potatohead."

hmph.

hmmmm nd celebrations! this year is the first year its been fun for me, actually. like really. but it was really really short though. we were dismissed at like 930? soooooo early. its like the early of earlys lah. yeah then after that i didnt what to do cos like seriously, might as well not have gone to school right. go for what. 4 hours? yeah then anyway. i decided to follow the netties out cos they were gonna have barbecue later and they needed materials so yes. no actually. joan and suyi didnt wanna go market and eat so they went btp first then evan, sam, jaime, tian, thiam, lyn and me went market. then after eating and everything we went to btp and they got their things and joan kept taking unglam shots of everyone. then we waited for suyis uncle for like 10 minutes and found out that suyi could only take 1 more person. what the heck lah. and it was the big car what. couldve taken more people right. but anyway. so the rest of us took bus up to suyi's house and while walking up i met stef and her friend. yeah then stayed at suyi's house a bit then left cos so sian. yeah then came home, ordered pizza and then didnt do much la. but whoa blogged a whole lot today. and slept quite a bit too. mmmmmmmmmmm.

man i ranted so much today i feel so bad. pfffft.
























































































































































































eh. dunno lah. bunch of rubbish shots man.

More Than Words - Extreme
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now Ive tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

okay, so i was supposed to post yesterday, but i fell asleep. anyhow. gramma's birthday celebration! :D my gramma's 71. i just realised that my grandparents' age gap is quite far. like uhm. i dunno. almost 10 years? hm thats pretty freaky. but ooh my granny was real pretty when she was young. now she's like small and cute. hahah. so yeah, we went over to brookvale and yeah. it was so fun. haha i got pictures! :D



















hahah kelly and rachael. cousin. she's 6 this year. i wish she would have gone to mg man. oh well. haha.




















me and dawh! hahah




















the 5 3rd-generation kwan cousins. hahah we're all girls maaaan. hahha.




















us and gramma! hahah she's so cute. but shes never smiling in photos.




















seeeee what i mean! oh well. auntie ping see and mum! mum in white on gramma's right.



















me and jie! i still dont see the resemblance.



















again!




















sistersssss. haha now you can actually compare how similar we all look. so different lah.



















zara and rachael!



















me, dawh and zara!




















me and zara! she so chio here. hahah.




















gramma's cake! jie chose it.



















with candles. gramma's 71.



















lighted!




















hee hee i love this picture. gramma looks so cute and happy here.

























gramma again!



















WHOOOOO! hahaha



























cut cake!




















heh heh. dawh trying to cut the cake. ahhaha




















ahhaha what a sucky presenter. haaha


CAM-WHORING TIME



















cam whorers are out! me and rachael!




















again!




















an new addition! zara!



















and again!



















and again!



















and again! haha rachael being retarded.



















again!



















me and zara!

okay anyway. man so many pictures. hahah. okok. today. chapel. well, the practice was okay, but then when everyone came in and stuff, we actually screwed up a bit, but i guess its okay cos its all for God. yeah then we went down for music and hahahah lydia and i completely forgot bout the rubbish jap music. ahhaha. yeah then art was just i dunno. i barely got started lah. got no inspiration man. but anyway. after that life science. man i got sooooo angry at ms yeo cos she keeps holding us back for like recess and stuff and it gets annoying. but yeah. then like i got really emo during recess and for the rest of the day until chinese, in fact. then i thought bout a whole lot of junk. ahhh yeah. then like. after that i was just. emo. until chinese cos chinese i got back marks and it was gooooood. so that cheered me up.

yeah then after school we had geog meeting to discuss but we got like only a bit done. so i dunno how we're gonna be ready by next week man cos everyone is just so busy. cham lah. haha.

eh ill probably post geog stuff like tmr or sth lah. im too sian now. haha

aiyar my life is such a waste of time man. pfft.

omgggggg im breaking out in rashes man. wth. eh i just realised ive gotten tanner. :D hahaha sitting in the sun really really works if you wanna become black. like just sit under very very hot sun. like bout 3-5ish thereabout. then you become black. just sit and dont move. haha.omg seriously maaaaan. i didnt know i get tan so easily. ahhaha. that aside.

MR ONG IS A NUT. like omg. he wants us to restage the musical just for 2 scenes? omg nooooo.

"[Lot's Wife and Stairway to Heaven] were very difficult to take well without preparation. Too bad I was taking photos on the last performance or else I would have gone back to retake these two scenes. Another problematic scene photography wise was Golgotha. Anyone wants to restage the musical again?"

like omggggggggg nooooooo. haha as in, i miss it, but i really dont quite wanna experience it all over again. like. i would want to carry on experiencing it, but i dont wanna do it all over again. if that makes sense lah. oh well. wth.

and some mg primary girls are plain freaky. like omggggg seriously man. like go away goooo awayyyyyyy. i dont wanna talk to you man. omg its ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i dunno. hahah. just scary. i dunno. haha.

but anyway. fop! ahahhah today was such a funny day man but it was kinda wasted. cept for like 7 till 10 pm. ahha. somehow i felt last year's one was better. more breakthrough for me. but maybe cos i like dont know the people doing worship so like i didnt really know the songs. but OH WELL. (: to God be the glory. it was still fantastic anyhow. i did cry but very slightly.

okay i shall ATTEMPT to do this systematically. hm. stef msged me in the morning during her meeting and both of us were so indecisive (why i keep spelling the word wrongly ah) then we didnt know what to do and stuff. but in the end we met up at ps at bout 3 then we went down to indoor. omggg we got there at like 3.30 and the place was practically EMPTY. like, there was hardly any queue at all. then we didnt know what to do the whole time. we just like sat around and talked and stuff.oh and we went to get drinks. yes. haha yeah then we just waited and waited and waited till they opened the gates. i think this year's one is like better in the sense that its more systematic cos like only a limited amount of people can go in at a time and stuff. and they let you save seats too! hahaha thats the coolest man. ahahah. anyway.

yeah then like we were just there and stuff. but i was quite unfocused especially during the sermon. like my mind just kept drifting off. i dunno. but i was really really tired. so yeah. then after fop i was hungry so we went to newton food centre yeah then like mum, dad and jie kept asking me to go home. haha i feel so loved. :D haha yeah then after i ate, we cabbed back. like omgggggg the cab fare is like super super super ex lahhh. omgggggg. haha.

stupig giselle pang seh us. and i think cheo is super mad at me now cos she say i betray her and i cheated her and i dunno what. but im quite worried lah. oh man i hope she aint too pissed man. crapppp. but i thought she and nat were going with gis and gis was meeting us so i really didnt know what was going on. plus, she didnt reply my message earlier in the day lahh. pfshhh. im feeling so horrible now.

church tmr but i cant sleep cos kelly's taking up the whole couch's space. hm back on the floor again tonight. danggggg.

ahh chapel on monday. i hope it all goes well man.

hm i shall update bout yday too.

lesse.

actually nothing much really happened lahh. just that i stayed back with dan and cheo then like i spoke to cheo for really really long on christianity and stuff. im just really hoping and praying that she will believe and accept Christ. everyone please pray for her k!(((:

then today! uhm. today was quite slack lahh. chinese test took up the first 2 periods, it was quite a killer. passable, but wont score, i guess. then pe. pe was frisbee and i got super super bored. haha. oh well. then recess. recess i talked to yanka and well, we just like agreed on a whole lot of things lah. as in, we had like discussions and everything, bout the people in our level and stuff. mmhmm. then history, mrs pandian went through test paper and touched a bit on spp. hahahahha. then math. math was okay lah. but i was just really shagged by that time. so then after that was ve, where we had chapel practice. we're still super messed up, but at least we got somewhere. (: so thats good. well, its all in God's hands anyway. if He means for it to be this way, then so be it. maybe He's trying to show us something. mmhmm.

yeah then after school i couldnt find meiyan, but i found nat then i just stayed with her lah. yeah and stuff. then we talked and well, the talk with yanka and nat made me think bout the friendships that i have. i know that some are genuine and stuff but im not sure which ones. and its making me question quite a lot lah. like, are some of my friendships one sided? its i dunno. difficult to really be sure i guess. but yeah. oh well. i guess if youre not meant to be, it wont happen right? yeah then after that went home with char.

mmhmm. fop is going on now even as im blogging. haha hope tonight's one will be blessed. (: it started bout 15 minutes ago? mm. i should be going tmr unless something unforeseen happens and we all like die or something. hahaha. touch wood. hahah. but yeah.

hm i wanna go ultraviolet too but i dunno if there are tix left and omgggg i have no one to go with. pffshh im such a loner. oh well.

hm kay today was pretty okay. home ec was like. okay. shepherd's pie. havent eaten mine yet. but then like in the midst of home ec jaime called me for house comm photo taking. omg so sudden lah then i had to leave mel. oh man. i felt so bad lah. i didnt really want to take lor really. but anyway. then math, mrs chen was in a pretty good mood lah. yeah then like recess was kinda fun lah. we chose songs for chapel and im suddenly leading chapel now. but im sorta losing my voice, so i dunno. oh well, its all for God anyway. (:

then uhm history we got back our test papers. omggg divya got like 18/20 lah. like wth man. yeah then like i think mrs pandian was gonna go through, but we had to go for photo taking. ahhah. yeah. then im like i the same position as last year lah. cept that this year im still in the middle row, but im right smack in the middle. like literally. im the only one facing straight ahead. the rest are all at an angle lah. pffffft. and last year me and grace were in the middle. but hahah so weird. like omg seriously. haha then like before the photographer took the picture, gis said something and omg both of us started laughing so hard lah. it was so funny. hahahah. yeah then we took informal where everyone just squished together and stuff. then we took candid and omg that is like the funniest lah. like cos nic and gang went to the floor, but me and gis were like stuck, so i told gis to do the bimbo thing with me since she's my bimbo partner and omg she actually did it lah!

omggggggg so funny. hahah i cant believe she actually did it man. ahahha man i love her. hahahah. i cant really describe it lah. i see if i can upload the picture once i buy them. hahaha but omg so funny lah. haha. yeah then after photo taking we watched tkam! it was coolio. pretty funky lah. but OMG STILL HAVENT FINISHED YET LAHH. yah then we had pw. it was omg so boring and i cant stand the trainer lah. she annoys me like crap.

but anyway. drama was pretty slack. we had to like do characterization and whatnots and dunno what lah. yeah then i hung around with cheo, baka, kim and abby. then we left at bout 6, went to swiss club ave to see jess! omg jess is so cute lah really. shes super hyper and super frisky. ahha and she kept licking me. yeah then i helped baka with her 3 zhoujis (hahaha i have so much work still man i rock) and left. yeah. basically. and im like falling asleep but i still got workkkk. bleargh i hate myself. i shall permanently be left on busy. haha.

omgggg so much homework due tmr and geog wapiang chong wants to kill us seriously.

hahaha zomg my dad just like whined. wth?!

ehh.

sometimes you dont realise how delicate a relationship can be until you put your toe on it.

hmm kayaking today! :D im really really happy. okay, wait, lets start from morning.

uhm. went to school okay and everything. we watched tkam! omg the show is actually really quite nice. their accents are like coolio man. like really. its like really old english/british accent. its funky. ahah yeah then uhm mrs chen was really really nice today. well, not like really, but nice enough. :D haha yeah in fact, most of the teachers were nice today. maybe cos i barely spoke to them, but besides the point. mmhmm. then everything was pretty brief. today was an okay day. yeah then after that went to lesleys house to change and everything, then we headed down to macritchie omg so rushed larh. yeah then we met our coach/instructor and got out kayaks and equipment and stuff then we got theory lesson and then we KAYAKED.((((((((((((: hahahha omg it was really so cool.

like i was the first one to get into the water then like i paddled out into the reservoir and omg, it felt like i could sit there forever doing nothing lah. like really, cos there's a light breeze, and it feels really comfortable on the waters, and its just so relaxing. its amazing. then like when the water reflects the light, its so brilliant. the reflection is like wow. its like diamonds. like omg. its really so nice. i wish i had a camera then. yeah then omg a kayak (or at least the ones we used) is soooo super heavy lah. my shoulder is like aching like crap now. like owwwwwww. but when i was kayaking and at like okay speed, the wind like rushes through your hair and its like wowwwwww. its so relaxing and de-stressing. haha. yeah pretty cool. and i learnt how to carry a kayak (properly) all by myself! im so proud of myself. :D haha but its heavy though. and i learnt how to kayak properly.

the best thing is, its all paid for. which means we dont pay a SINGLE CENT. cept transport home. but like, to get to macritchie from school, the renting of equipment, use of place, hiring fees for instructor, we dont pay AT ALL. its coolio. haha we just get to enjoy the experience and learn new skills. pretty cool. yeah then mr khoo and ms su went with us. i think ms su is really strange. she gets like very violent mood swings. haha its kinda weird. but shes very funny. and omg mr khoo has a tummy. hahahahah. it was like bulging lah. but anyway. yeah. then it was over quite fast. then like on the way home, when i was on the bus, i started getting emo cos i started thinking bout the day and i thought bout bat. i dunno why. i just did.

like cos the first thing i did when i got to school was ask gis to put my phone in her locker, but she didnt want to so i asked bat, and she was like OH OKAY and omg i felt sooooo super duper bad after that cos like, i made bat make an extra trip just to put my stupid phone in her locker. then i was like listing bat's qualities:

patient
kind
sincere
encouraging
clever
funny
nice
generous
helpful
hardworking

AIYAR SHE'S JUST EVERYTHING IM NOT LARH. then i was like, why cant i be someone better. ive only freaking got bad qualities lahh. im none of those listed above. pffffft. see, im terribly impatient, im awful, im fake, im stupid, im boring, im selfish, im lazy, im sarcastic, im unhelpful (i dunno, i cant find an antonym so OH WELL) and my encouragements put people down instead of well, encourage them. seee im such an idiot lah. and im such a mean person. and then i started comparing everyone in my class to me (which i really shouldnt have done, but crap) and like, EVERYONE has like at 2 good qualities bout them EXCEPT ME. walau. im such a shithead lah.

i really feel like crap now. and i was high like, 2 seconds ago.

im feeling so effing useless and wth man. im such an idiot. heh. i dont think anything can cheer me up now.

you dont have to, angel mae.