BOOM BOOM BOOM!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHH.

ive been procrastinating wayyyy too much.

anyway.

this week so far not much. on monday had dinner with ian and yingen! sooo much fun and sooo much money. hahahha.

tuesday had events meeting at 11. i woke up lesley woke me up at 1040. hahahaha. i am so brilliant. then had renault meeting then went to westmall with jaime again, both of us very very broke.

yesterday i youtubed half a day, did some work, not much. i didnt feel like doing anything.

today so far nothing, cept this:



super hilarious! hahaha i couldnt stop laughing i dunno why. hahah.

anyway!

my new craze:




ahaha i am so gay. x.x

busy busy busy; i should change my name to bee

aiyarrrrrrrrr soooooo many things to do.)):

but im procrastinating soooo much.

anyway. i really hope im able to finish up everything.

not much lah. met kim in the morning on friday. thank you for the talk dearie. it really helped.<3

after that met abby, joan, suyi and carisser for lunch, went to joans house, learnt how to play intro for an jing on the piano! hahahah. abigail you suck take so long to learn! hahaha.

after that went for cell. a lottttt of people. and giselle joined our cell.((:

saturday afternoon went to nyam's place for charmaine and louise farewell party. the sec 2s are a rather quiet bunch. hahaha. except for a certain princess. hahaha. but yeah it was lots fun. hahah. went for cell after that. only 5 of us! so sad lah. but we had a GET TO KNOW PAT TIME and we got a lottttt of info. (:<

hahaa but anyway. yeah. COS today was super good! the kids were awesome. and i have a new favourite kid! but he's like damn pai lah. hahaha. but yeah.

parents know bout the camera. got a friggin bad scolding. thats all im saying.

i need to go back to God. i need to refocus my life. i need to do a lot of things. and i will do it with God's grace.((:

i'll sing to you Lord a hymn of love
for Your faithfulness to me

i thought i got over it already.

but why does it hurt so much again?

im going through it all over again.

i thought we had a mutual understanding.

its gone now.

maybe because we havent seen each other for so long.

that trust dies.

or maybe youve already forgotten everything.

i miss you.

so much.

Brilliant.

i lose my camera and my money gets stolen during prefects camp.

i am amazing.

of course, nothing compared to you, nyam.

but aye! means imma get into lotsa trouble with daddy and NO MORE PICTURES. pfffffffffffffft.

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rain set in
And I would have liked to have known you
But I was just a kid
Your candle burned out long before
Your legend ever did

aiyar. i can't sleep. kelly locked me out of the room.)))))):

AH.

i havent blogged in the longest time.

i am so sorry. i dont have the inspiration! but generally just prefects camp and ltc. i'll blog in detail once i um get time and thought.

i know im procrastinating sh!

be back soon.

(:

UUUUURGHHHHHHHH

wow.

ive been awfully tired.

whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

okay lets see.

last week of school really not much. just a bit stressed out over ms kon's farewell but everything still ran smoothly. good job lesley and salad! ((:

went shopping (ahem) over the weekend to get clothes for sabbaticals. 3 pairs of pants, $25 each (:O!), 1 black blouse, $19.90 and 1 red shirt-cum-dress, $12. like over a hundred bucks man. ssshhhpftt. just for 10 days. but aiyar.

monday was first day at work! not much, we had a lotttt of briefing by the people there, and then for the rest of the day stare at the computer and key in data. that is surprisingly highly tiring. like seriously. and very headachey. after work then went to toa payoh to buy clothes with yuen shin. and i bought corner with love dvd! $20 only! damn cheap lah. ahhha.

anyway. tuesday typed for the first half of the day. then after lunch met our colleague at centrepoint, then she brought us around orchard. daaaaaamn slack lah. hahah i guess cos we're interns then they dont wanna give us things to do in case we screw up.

today typed for first half of the day again, met more people, then after lunch went to meet another colleague. this time, she brought us to hotels. oooh. ahhaha yeah then cos company say sth went wrong, so we go home early. ahhaha.

yeah then i went down to airport! to see the dehli, chennai and australia people off. and the worst thing was, i wore the wrong pair of shoes today and today we walked the mossstttt plus airport. damn siao. and my feet are sore and aching now. oooooouuuuuuuuuuuuch.

tmr going to stay over at joan's, then friday morning send japan lang arts ppl off. then after that go work and then i dunno whether to go for cell or send eastern europe ppl. haiyoh.

sunday got japan humanities trip, then i dunno when the china one is, then 26th nov obs. i see if i can go and send em off. its like, at people's assoss. whereeeeee?

mmmmm everyone's flying off. and leaving poor kat in singapore all aloneeeeee. nvm! the following is an attempt to cheer kat up! do not try this at home lest you get depression!

1)the ppl going overseas are gonna be homesick!
2)the ppl going overseas are gonna miss SG food!
3)the ppl going overseas are gonna waste lots of money!
4)the ppl going overseas are gonna miss all the discounts in SG!
5)the ppl going overseas are gonna be under the control of teachers!
6)the ppl going overseas are gonna be stuck with ppl they dont like that are on the same trip for at least 6 WHOLE DAYS!(imagine that!)

aiyar. my attempt not very successful. they're all gonna have lotsa fun and partying and stuuuuuuuuuufff while im stuck in the stupid office.

NVM! at least i saved loads of cash. i mean, if you plus everything together, i spent about $156.90 for sabbaticals and the next cheapest is like... $1000. at least $600 even with edusave and subsidy and whatnots right! so that's most impt for an auntie like me. plus, i get to meet nice new ppl, get to be part of the working population and i found some places with damn good food.

BUT AIYAR. craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap. it'll be damn fun to go overseas lah! and the stupid attachment make my feet ache like siao. even my calf is affected. like huh?!

but anyway. dont care lah. im hoping to get stuff from the ppl going to diff countries, but i highly doubt it. ahhaha.

oh wells. im really really tired for some unknown reason. :O! so i will um. blog again when i have hui fued my energy.

ill be back;.

whispers hello i miss you quite terribly
TALK LOUDER LAH CANNOT HEAR!

unappreciated (?)

wow. its been a long week.

got back results. not the best, not the worst. i failed amath by 5 marks. not as bad as i expected lah so its all right. overall l1r5 14 points. i dont think it's good. but kelly says its okay and she got 11. am i supposed to be comforted?

marcus says:
hahha kat
marcus says:
how were you exams?
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
can die lah
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
i did worse than i thought
marcus says:
lol l1r5?
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
14
marcus says:
okay what
marcus says:
its better than my prelim l1r5
marcus says:
wth
marcus says:
hahaha
marcus says:
i screwed up prelimsssssssssss
marcus says:
hahahaha
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
but im only sec 3 h
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
eh
marcus says:
hahahaha
marcus says:
shit eh.both your sisters too smart already
/.ka† &.beautiful is our God; the universe will sing says:
hahah yeah i got no braisn mannnn
marcus says:
thats why i think you dont feel good about your score
marcus says:
but really.i think its okay

thank you marcus!<3

i screwed up bio spa too. but so did everyone else so nevermind.

friday was really tiring. i was down the entire day. like just feeling super emo. and i got scolded countless times and highly annoyed. and wah, i super felt like crying lah. but anyway. lydia counselled me and i felt soooo much better after that. lyddie has therapeutic powers. :O

hahah anyway. after school, went to vivo, walked around 3 times, had like 10 minutes games trial then went off. so pointless. ahhaha. but eh, vivo quite nice ehh. haha had dinner with bev at ikea, got tgd presents. thank you bev! dinner was awesome.(:

oh and also! on friday, cos i was upset and down and all, and everything just really sucked, but God spoke to me! cos i have this bookmark in my bible, then on the way to vivo i accidentally pulled it out and it read "learning through failures" and i felt it was really just so amazing that God is truly with us no matter where we are, no matter what we're feeling. and its really comforting.

tgd on saturday! i was actually quite reluctant to go, cos its so...social gathering - ish, and even yanka said she was surprised i went, but yeah. still went in the end. went back to hillview first though. damn nostalgic. really sucks. i miss hillview so much. it sounds friggin dumb, but i just do.

didnt do much at the party. stupid goh rolled into an ants' nest. damn smart lah she. spent most of the night having sub-party with jiap. and shepherd's pie. hahaha. "free food free food!" says jiap to kat. hahaha.


bev!


jaime stuffing popcorn


abby supposed to kiss lianne. ahhaha.


smack that!


grace! and abby.


deniseeeee!


hahaha yanka the spastic


abby!






plees!


jiap!


shepherd's pie aka kats favourite sub-party food.


andree!

anyway. not much lah. it was okayy.

sunday was pretty all right. had church and stuff, usual, still havent gotten cell name though. oh dear.


keewee!





my bookshelf is SO neat im surprised. :O


grace and char!


tricia's sweet! its suuuuper addictive.


pris! head prefects eh. (:


tricia! fellow ouran fan!:D


my sister((((((((:


church gang man. ahahha.


von!


maoooo!(:

and in case anyone plans to forget me, there are TWO pictures.(:



ah. im excited.(: despite my tone. ive watched (quite) a lot of x-family. awesome stupid show. hahaha. i feel happy when i think bout it.

ive finally gotten rid of my drug.(: i still cant let it go, but im learning to. and im improving.((:

okay peanut, reply to tags. hahah

nicole toh, you are seriously too bored. no, my cat is definitely cuter than your dog, and chocolate doesnt make you cough, it makes you go high. for me at least. haha.

hello choo! i havent seen you for so long! :O

yes jaime liew, i reply my tags okay!

hahahah wahhh july you cmi lah really! its emphysema. ahhaha okay maybe not. AIYAR exams over man. OVERRRR. hahahah. yeah totally not flooding you know. ahhaha.

okok pictures will be up on facebook soon, yanka! and yes, i will tag you, dont worry.

all right. now i have to get back to work. *slugggggggggg*

He will carry you when you cant carry on.

edit/im getting really tired. why is it that when i want to help, no one wants me to help. it seems my presence has become an inconvenience for people. maybe i just really shouldnt be around at all. maybe people would be so much happier.

Lord im amazed

ugh.

been COUGHing really quite badly lately. throat hurts alot, chest pain, blocked nose, etc etc.

anyway. past weekend since after exams have been pretty crazy. friday morning had campus938live recording. hhahaha apparently uncle andrew heard me. but anyway. yeah then had training, then cc went for lunch and had meeting. very fruitful! so very good. then after that walked in the rain from btp to beauty world to meet certain people. and it was so friggin cold lah. so now im like sick. which is really not good. anyway. yeah then went to joans, watched half of secret, then went down to cell and then went home. then saturday i packed the house! so proud of myself. then went for cell. cell was sooooo awesome. pat spoke on the sermon on the mount, and after her sermon, then she called for those who wanted to feel more of God in their lives to step forward, so i did, and the holy spirit just totally came over me. and like, cos i was quite stressed during thursday and friday, so i was quite bottled up, but before God i couldnt help but just really let everything out. and it was good cry. it's been a long time.

i'm really really glad God called me back to him on saturday. cos like, yeah, pretty busy during thursday and friday, then in the midst of all my business, i really lost God. like, totally couldnt feel his presence. and on friday night after cell, i really felt like crying cos i felt so lost and alone and that God just wasnt there. but yanka called me and that prevented me from crying. but i really really am once again, amazed by God's graciousness and love for me.

thank you yanks for the talk on friday. it really helped to be able to share with someone what i was thinking about being different when with different people. you called me for me to help you but you ended up helping me. haha and i dont even know if i managed to help you or not. hahah. but anyway. thanks yah.

my temperament's been a little short lately. i dont know why. im not feeling the best physically, and getting very violent mood swings. a bit scary. but if ive been rude to anyone, i am really so sorry and i still love you very much so i hope you still love me too!((:

anyway. today, cell retreat. after service, then we met up, went for meeting then went for lunch and stuff. our cell is super retarded. we spent dunno how long just to decide where to eat and ended up eating at bk. ahahha piang ehhh. but im grateful for this bunch of people. cos they make me laugh a lot. and we're all gonna stayover at tricia's and go home tomorrow. damn sad lah, no camera. so annoying. *HINTHINT*

anyway. i realise a lot of people have been pretty emotional lately, myself included. and i also realise that despite however happy and problem free you appear to be, there's always that small bottle of emoness in everyone that needs to be poured out. and sometimes, that emoness tends to spread. but as long as it gets cleaned up, i think its pretty all right. so let it all out, but remember to clean up.(:

many things to settle in the coming weeks. i really need to draw strength from God to sustain me through everything. and i need to stop procrastinating too. ahhah.

sigh. i have a lot of things to say to a lot of people, but i dont wanna do it here, cos its well, kinda personal. but then i'll need to find the time and courage to tell the person. toughhhhh.

BERNICE JULY CHAN YOU ARE SO RETARDED. you flood like crazyyyyyy lah! ahhaha anyway. glad you're back to normal. or abnormal. haha! okay not funny. but really lah. call anytime okay.(: i dont ever wanna tell you, or anyone else, for that matter, one more time that you can call me to talk cos you should already know all right.(:

okay. now i need to uhm. find something else to do. ohh! and pris and i cycled and I FELL. pain sia. but heck lahh. ahhah.

ohoh! and...

all this is cocoa:

no just kidding. it's sand.

how deep
how wide
how great
is Your love for me

cause i know You're alive

happy birthday:

5th october.
tian kong



hahaha no just kidding.


but you lookin' down friend!

7th october.
MY FAVOURITE((:


8th october.
DENISE; DENEPHEW.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YALL MEMBERS OF THE OUTING GANNNGGGGGGG. we outing again soon yeahh!((:

exams are over! okay i know this is like. LATE. but exams are still over! and im excited. not bout getting results, but like hols. actually. just nov camp lah. ahah but lotsa things to do.

im grateful for all the support given to me by the many people around me.
my mum, who told me she didnt care whether i passed or fail, as long as i did my best, which helped a lot cos i didnt feel the need to live up to anyone's expectations.
kelly, who spent like 4 hours straight helping me with log and who assured me that i'll be able to get my few more marks even if i failed.
worship partners abbie, plee and lesley, whom i believe also got through exams by their faith and who also got renewed and reassured daily just as i was; worship really helped me super a lot and i hope it helped yall too!
jiap, my talking about interesting rubbish partner; thank you so much for the nice, albeit pink, post it and all my failing amath and your failing chem.
esther, for telling me to keep telling myself i can do it.
cheo, for always asking me whether i wanted to study or not or else i really wont study.
peanut, for always being there and listening to me and somehow still have time to study.
my hubby!(: for remembering me even in the midst of exams yourself.
bobbb! for always encouraging me and reminding me to turn to God even in the midst of exams.
yanka for being so negative so that others can be positive (doode i mean it in a good way all right.)
pat! for always praying and telling me to press on.
vicky for attempting to help me with amath but i still cannot do it.
grace for always scolding me when i say i cant.
mrs ng (hahah) for telling me its okay even if i dont do well for history.
and for EVERYONE ELSE who have in one way or another, big or small, helped me through the exams.

I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

exams really wouldnt be exams without you guys. hahaha.

mmmm im feeling so relaxed now.

yesterday was really funny. after school i went to lesley's house then we watched disturbia and did stuff. then after met 3o people at cine. and omg yesterday was really destress day. hahah we went on the carousels and we were totally kids lah. hhaha and jiap im never playing tic tac toe with you again. ahhaha. but thank you it was really fun.<3

today had pb training. ahahha quite fun lah. but quite heavy though. ahhaha july i hope youre all right! after that went down to town to meet zoe and had lunch and had good talk. ((: i'm really really happy we managed to finally have lunch together. i hope you had fun too mentee.((:

no pictures cos 1)i have no camera and 2)i dont know.

anyway. its time to figure out how to use facebook. someone help?

came to fix my broken life<3

my chains are gone
i've been set free
my God my Saviour
has ransomed me

and like a flood
His mercy rains
unending love
Amazing Grace

I WILL BLOG AFTER EXAMS I PROMISE.

i love you blog.((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABIGAIL GOHHHHHHH((:

happy happy 15th!

tABBYkats corner!:


abby attempting to do work.




oh myy.


haha why are we so screwed up. hahaa anyway. yes. its been really lotsa fun sitting next to you and you're finally 15 so please GROW UP. ahha i should get an award for being able to sit next to you for so long. hahah anyway. enjoy your 15th and continue to be as retarded as ever with your song singing sessions in class, random phrases, haikus, saying i look like a chiku and i grunt, you hating physics, being mrs poh's pet and LOTSA OTHERSSSSSS. ahhaha yes yes you make sec 3 so memorable. :D

i love you! although you can get really annoying sometimes most of the time but still, you're my chill pill.(: and the fact that i bother dedicating this post to you says a lot!:D

God bless and happy 15th again yahh!<3

i miss my sister):

specially for you

this is from me:


to my darling sister:


hello dawhhhhhhhhh((:

be honoured man. this whole post is for you.

anyway. yes. youre one of the people ive known for the longest time. 15 years of my life! and its been really awesome these 15 years.((: still rmb when we were young we used to have those stupid childish fights and loads of memories with our bunk beds. hahah. everything was so awesome. and it seems that physical fights only happen with you. wonder why. ahhaha.

anyway. yes. you have made a super big difference in my life and watching you work in your own way really taught me a lot of things. and unknowingly, youve also influenced me a whole lot. i dunno. it just seems that everything you do is always better. or at least you make it seem that way. and im truly blessed to have a sister such as you cos there's always a target for me to aim at.

even as you spend the next 4 years in london, i really hope you'll enjoy yourself there but dont forget us at home. we'll be waiting for you all right. and when you feel lonely, just remember all the happy times we had and y'know, 4 years is nothing compared to 19 years of your life. itll pass really quickly. whaddya know, 4 years later i'll be your age!

my point is, when you feel lonely, remember that God is always there for you to turn to and it is really my prayer that this part of your life is really going to change your walk with God cos you're gonna rely so much more on him and your relationship with him will be so much closer. i really hope you manage to find a good church there and settle down quickly. but dont forget those back here at charis waiting for your return. your cell, abide 2, everyone.

i know that you've always wanted to go to london and get coolio accents and stuff, and finally your dream is coming true! so really, just enjoy yourself in london as much as possible, and remember that God is with you on this physical and spiritual journey.

we're waiting at home.













































i love you.